Toy Soldier
Eminem Lyrics


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Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart
We never win but the battle wages on for toy soldiers

I'm supposed to be the soldier, who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I ain't never suppose to show it, my crew ain't suppose to know it
Even if it means going toe to toe with the Benzino, it don't matter
I never drag 'em in battles that I can handle less I absolutely have to
I'm suppose to set an example, I need to be the leader
My crew looks for me to guide 'em
If some shit ever just pop off I'm suppose to be beside 'em
That Ja shit, I tried to squashed it, it was too late to stop it
There's a certain line, you just don't cross it, and he crossed it
I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it
It was crazy, this shit went way beyond some Jay Z and Nas shit
And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it
I spent so much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
I'm so caught it I almost feel like I'm the one who caused it
This ain't what I'm in Hip Hop for, it's not why I got in it
That was never my object for someone to get killed
Why would I want to destroy something I helped build
It wasn't my intentions, my intentions were good
I went through my whole career with out ever mentioning
And that's just outta respect, for not running my mouth
And talking about something that I knew nothing about
Plus Dre told me stay out, just wasn't my beef, So I did
I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth while he's all over TV
Now I'm talking a man who literally saved my life, like fuck it
I understand, this is business and this shit just isn't none of my business
But still knowing this shit could pop off at any minute cause

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down, like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart
We never win but the battle wages on for toy soldiers

It used to be a time when you could just say a rhyme
And wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dying
But now it's elevated cause once you put someone's kids in it
Shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more, is it
It's a different ball game, call names and you ain't just rapping
We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happening
Me and Dre had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with him
And asked him not to start it, he wasn't gonna go after him
Until Ja' start yappin' in magazines how he stabbed him
Fuck 'em 50, smash him, mash him, and let him have it
Meanwhile my intentions pulled me in other directions
Some receptionist said the source who answers phones at his desk
Has an erection for me and thinks
That I'll be his resurrection
Tries to blow the dust of his mic and make a new record
But now he's fucked the game up cause one of the ways I came up
Was through that publication, the same one that made me famous
Now the owner of it got a grudge against me for nothing but fuck it
That motherfucker can get it too, fuck 'em then
But I'm so busy being pissed off, I don't stop to think
That we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc
And he's inherited mine, which is fine, ain't like either of us mind
We still have soldiers that's on the front line that's willing to die for us
As soon as we give the orders, never to extort us
Strictly to show they support us
Maybe shout 'em out in a rap or up in a chorus to show we love 'em back
And to let 'em know how important it is to have Runyon Avenue soldiers up in our corners
Their loyalty to us is worth more then any award is
But I ain't trying to have none of my people hurt or murdered
It ain't worth it, I can't think of a perfecter way to word it
Then to just say that I love y'all too much to see the verdict
I'll walk away from it all before I'll let it go any further
But don't get it twisted, it's not a plea that I'm coping
I'm just willing to be the bigger man
If y'all can quit popping off at the jaws with the knocking
'Cause frankly I'm sick of talking
I'm not gonna let someone else's coffin rest on my conscience 'cause

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down, like toy soldiers




Bit by bit, torn apart
We never win but the battle wages on for toy soldiers

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Eminem's "Toy Soldier" explores the theme of being caught up in the rap industry's beef between himself and fellow rapper Benzino. He expresses the idea of falling down like toy soldiers, the symbolic representation of soldiers, who are made of plastic, and therefore are not fully real, fighting into battles they cannot win, and being destroyed bit by bit.


The opening lines of the song, "step by step, heart to heart, left right left we all fall down," repeat, showing the cyclical nature of the conflict. He further explains that, although he is supposed to lead his group of crew members, he is made of plastic, unable to hold it all together as the beef rages on. He also mentions the conflict with Ja Rule, in which he tried to squash it but was unable to, explaining the emotional toll the situation had on him.


The song highlights the negativity that accompanies rap beef, showing how battles that are supposed to remain on wax transcend into real life, becoming massively destructive- and this results in people getting violent and even dying. Eminem explains the weight amassed on his shoulders as a famous rapper- with people expecting him to lead when things go south. Eminem uses the song as an opportunity to call for peace and end beef - he reminds us that the outcome is not worth it when our people get hurt or killed.


Line by Line Meaning

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
Slowly and steadily, with deep emotion and determination, moving forward in unison


We all fall down
Despite our efforts, we all experience setbacks and failures


Bit by bit, torn apart
Gradually and mercilessly broken and divided


We never win but the battle wages on for toy soldiers
Although we may not triumph, the struggle continues for those who are manipulated and used like pawns


I'm supposed to be the soldier, who never blows his composure
It is expected of me to remain composed and strong, never losing control


Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
Despite the immense burden I carry, I must never show weakness


I ain't never suppose to show it, my crew ain't suppose to know it
I should never reveal my struggles, and my team shouldn't be aware of my vulnerability


Even if it means going toe to toe with the Benzino, it don't matter
Even if I have to confront and battle my enemies, their identity doesn't matter


I never drag 'em in battles that I can handle less I absolutely have to
I avoid involving others in conflicts unless it is absolutely necessary


I'm suppose to set an example, I need to be the leader
I am expected to be a role model and the one who leads the way


My crew looks for me to guide 'em
My team relies on me to provide direction and guidance


If some shit ever just pop off I'm suppose to be beside 'em
When a difficult situation arises, I should be right there with my crew


That Ja shit, I tried to squashed it, it was too late to stop it
I attempted to end the conflict with Ja Rule, but my efforts were futile


There's a certain line, you just don't cross it, and he crossed it
There are boundaries that should never be crossed, and he disregarded them


I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it
When he mentioned my daughter's name in a song, I became enraged


It was crazy, this shit went way beyond some Jay Z and Nas shit
The situation escalated far beyond the typical rap beef like Jay Z and Nas had


And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it
Despite emerging victorious, I still feel a sense of defeat


I spent so much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
I invested a significant amount of energy, and now I'm truly drained


I'm so caught it I almost feel like I'm the one who caused it
I am consumed by guilt and believe I may have played a part in causing the conflict


This ain't what I'm in Hip Hop for, it's not why I got in it
The purpose of being in Hip Hop isn't to engage in feuds, it's not why I pursued it


That was never my object for someone to get killed
My intention was never for someone to lose their life


Why would I want to destroy something I helped build
It doesn't make sense for me to want to ruin something I contributed to creating


It wasn't my intentions, my intentions were good
I had good intentions, but the consequences turned out differently


I went through my whole career with out ever mentioning
Throughout my entire career, I avoided discussing


And that's just outta respect, for not running my mouth
That was purely out of respect, not wanting to engage in gossip


And talking about something that I knew nothing about
Speaking about a topic I had no real knowledge or understanding of


Plus Dre told me stay out, just wasn't my beef, So I did
Dr. Dre advised me to stay out of it because it wasn't my personal feud, and I followed his advice


I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth while he's all over TV
I chose to withdraw, observing silently and suppressing my anger while he received media attention


Now I'm talking a man who literally saved my life, like fuck it
Now I'm referring to someone who truly rescued me from a dark place, but I don't care anymore


I understand, this is business and this shit just isn't none of my business
I comprehend that this is purely business, and I no longer want to be involved


But still knowing this shit could pop off at any minute cause
However, I am aware that this conflict could erupt again at any moment because


It used to be a time when you could just say a rhyme
There was a period when you could simply express yourself through a rap verse


And wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dying
Without the fear of one of your own getting killed as a result


But now it's elevated cause once you put someone's kids in it
Now the stakes are higher because once you involve someone's children in the conflict


Shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more, is it
The situation intensifies, it's no longer just a matter of words


It's a different ball game, call names and you ain't just rapping
It's a whole new level of competition, throwing insults is no longer just part of the rap game


We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happening
We genuinely attempted to prevent the conflict between 50 Cent and Ja Rule from occurring


Me and Dre had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with him
Dr. Dre and I sat down with Ja Rule, spent time with him, and had a conversation


And asked him not to start it, he wasn't gonna go after him
We requested him not to initiate the feud, and he agreed to not pursue it


Until Ja' start yappin' in magazines how he stabbed him
However, Ja Rule started bragging in magazines about how he figuratively attacked him


Fuck 'em 50, smash him, mash him, and let him have it
Disregard and defeat 50 Cent completely, overpower and crush him, and unleash one's full force


Meanwhile my intentions pulled me in other directions
Simultaneously, my own intentions led me into different paths


Some receptionist said the source who answers phones at his desk
An anonymous source claimed that an employee at his workplace


Has an erection for me and thinks
Harbors sexual desire for me and believes


That I'll be his resurrection
That I will revitalize his career or bring him back to life


Tries to blow the dust of his mic and make a new record
Attempts to regain relevance and release a new music album


But now he's fucked the game up cause one of the ways I came up
However, he has disrupted the music industry because one of the methods that brought me success


Was through that publication, the same one that made me famous
Involved that specific publication, the one that played a significant role in my rise to fame


Now the owner of it got a grudge against me for nothing but fuck it
Now the owner of that publication holds a personal vendetta against me for no valid reason, but I don't care


That motherfucker can get it too, fuck 'em then
I am willing to retaliate against that individual as well, disregard them


But I'm so busy being pissed off, I don't stop to think
However, I am consumed by anger and don't take the time to reflect


That we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc
We have unintentionally become involved in 50 Cent's conflict with Murder Inc


And he's inherited mine, which is fine, ain't like either of us mind
And 50 Cent has become entangled in my conflict, which is acceptable to both of us


We still have soldiers that's on the front line that's willing to die for us
We still have loyal individuals who are willing to sacrifice their lives to support us


As soon as we give the orders, never to extort us
Once we give the command, they will act without hesitation, never trying to exploit us


Strictly to show they support us
Their actions are solely to demonstrate their unwavering support for us


Maybe shout 'em out in a rap or up in a chorus to show we love 'em back
Perhaps mention them in a rap verse or include them in a chorus to express our gratitude and affection


And to let 'em know how important it is to have Runyon Avenue soldiers up in our corners
To remind them of the significance of having loyal soldiers from Runyon Avenue in our defense


Their loyalty to us is worth more then any award is
Their allegiance to us holds greater value than any accolade or recognition


But I ain't trying to have none of my people hurt or murdered
I don't want any harm or fatalities to befall my team


It ain't worth it, I can't think of a perfecter way to word it
It's not worth the consequences, and I cannot find a more flawless manner to articulate this


Then to just say that I love y'all too much to see the verdict
Simply put, I care for all of you so deeply that I cannot witness the outcome of this conflict


I'll walk away from it all before I'll let it go any further
I would rather abandon everything than allow the situation to escalate any further


But don't get it twisted, it's not a plea that I'm coping
However, don't misunderstand, I am not begging or seeking sympathy


I'm just willing to be the bigger man
I am simply prepared to demonstrate maturity and rise above the situation


If y'all can quit popping off at the jaws with the knocking
If all of you can cease provoking and engaging in verbal confrontations


'Cause frankly I'm sick of talking
Because honestly, I am tired of engaging in meaningless conversations


I'm not gonna let someone else's coffin rest on my conscience 'cause
I refuse to bear the guilt of someone else's potential downfall because


Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
Continuing to move forward together, with unwavering dedication and unity


We all fall down, like toy soldiers
Despite our best efforts, we all eventually succumb to the pressure and manipulation, just like toy soldiers


Bit by bit, torn apart
Gradually, piece by piece, our unity and strength crumble away


We never win but the battle wages on for toy soldiers
We may never emerge as victors, but the fight and struggle persists for those who are used and manipulated




Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Marta Marrero, Luis Edgardo Resto, Marshall B Mathers, Michael Jay

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@emanueltejeda8748

To me the top 10 rappers are and i think it's somewhat of a respectable list..
10. NWA 
9. Andre3000
8. Snoop Dogg
7. 50 Cent 
6. Eminem 
5. Jay Z (Old) 
4. Nas 
3. Rakim 
2. Notorious B.I.G 
1. Tupac.



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