That same year he teamed up with Detroit natives TnT and Mastamind and formed the group Natas, whose controversial debut Life After Death has been blamed for the suicide of a Tennessee youth. After another EP released in 1992 entitled Hellter Skkkelter dropped, Esham's most recognized and most controversial album 1993's KKKill the Fetus hit stores. The cover of this album depicted an unborn fetus and the title track was a song explaining why unfit, drug addicted mothers should chose abortion over birth. Esham followed up with Natas' Blaz4me and another solo Closed Casket. This was all a prelude to another controversial release, Doubelievengod. Tracks such as "Pop Pop", "Sunday School", and "Heaven" set an unprecedented mark for evilness in rap music. Esham later released his final album on RLP, Dead Flowerz. This was a transitional period into Esham's new Gothom label. Bruce Wayne/Gothom City introduced the world to the new age Esham. After this release the head nodding, trunk rattling Multikillionaire was released.
After a 2-year break, E hit the scene with the colorful Mail Dominance CD. This CD had everything from slow jams, retrospectives on lost ones, wickedness, to 50's samples. The next release is what many feel was the critically acclaimed WWW.com. In 2001, Esham released what would become his smoothest album, Tongues. Followed by Natas 6th release Godlike. Esham resume of albums includes 10 full albums, 4 EPs, 3 greatest hits compilations, and 6 releases with Natas. Not to mention working with and producing for Bone Thugs-N-Harmony, Ghetto E, Kool Keith, Insane Clown Posse, and the Dayton Family. From 1989 to 2005, Esham has given fans his heavy doses of Reel Life, Heavy Mental music. Esham truly revolutionized Detroit's rap sound and is a local legend.
Eminem has listed Esham as an influence, as he mentions on his debut album, The Slim Shady LP. Esham's next album, A1 Yola, was released April 19th, 2005 by Psychopathic Records. Included with the album was also a DVD with videos to every song, making Esham the first artist to make a music video for every song on an album. Towards the end of 2005 Esham could no longer be a part of Psychopathic Records. His last concert under the label was at the 5th Annual Gathering of the Juggalos. He contributed to the Soopa Villainz project and later left. The split was on bad terms according to acidrap.com. The reason, also according to acidrap.com, was that Psychopathic Records did not allow him to use the name The Unholy,The Black Devil or the group NATAS. Athough bitterness was expressed by both parties directly after the split, Esham and Psychopathic have since publicly apoligized to one another, and stated that any past grievances are water under the bridge.
On June 6, 2006 (6/6/06) Esham released the Judgement Day box set, Rap's first $100 box set, available only through the Natas website. This set includes Judgement Day Vol.1 and 2, the previously unreleased Judgement Day Vol.3 and 4, a new 6 track Esham EP, and a DVD featuring concert footage from '04. Only 1,000 have been produced.
Therapy
Esham Lyrics
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Yo,got my muthafuckin nigga Esham ready to kick this shit for you hoes
Walkin on the flatlines fumblin with the razor blade
Rumblin with the ace of spade is where the wicket rhymes are made
Sometimes I really feel like
I just can't deal with the pressures of life
So I walk around with the bloody butcher knife
I ain't got no love cause no one cares for me
Slippin it into to darkness I'm beyond that and pass that
Once I catch a flashback
Snap and that's yo ass
Black Devil get a shovel,grave digga
How you figure you gon' kill a dead nigga
You gon kill a dead nigga
Bloody body baby bloody man I'm nutty what he thought
Nine dead bodies and I never got caught
Walk the flatlines,man I walk the flatlines
And dead body chalk lines make me walk lines
I don't sniff lines .45 slug to my mind
Sometime
I feel I'm on the flatline
Man I need some therapy
I'm having suicidal thoughts
Brain cells dead from the coma
My aroma dead body rotten gone but not forgotten
Seems like you forgot
Man I took one shot
Now I lay me down to sleep body hot rot
Got no love when I was a toddler
Now I swallow bullets for fun playin games with the gun
Hope I spit up,get up,throw up,mind blow up
I told my teacher I want to be like Hitler when I grow up
Now I got a mental block got the pussy hammer cocked
Tick tock and ya don't stop make the pussy pop
To the break of dawn,to the break of dawn
Once again it's on
.357 chrome plated to my dome
Now I know you want to know about knowing what I'm knowing
If
you're looking for a deep dive into the lyrics of Esham's "Therapy," you've come to the right place. This song is a dark and introspective look into the mind of someone struggling with mental health issues, suicidal thoughts, and a sense of isolation from the world around them.
The opening lines juxtapose the image of "walkin on the flatlines" with "fumblin with the razor blade," setting the tone for a song that is both eerie and foreboding. The singer describes himself as "wicket" (wicked), and suggests that his darkest thoughts are born in the midst of playing cards with the ace of spades. The chorus, "Therapy, man I need some therapy cause ain't nobody scarin me," speaks to the sense of isolation and disconnection that the singer feels from the world around him. He is struggling to find a sense of connection and purpose in life, and is resorting to violence as a means of coping.
The second verse continues the theme of isolation and deep-seated mental anguish. The singer describes himself as having "suicidal thoughts" and "brain cells dead from the coma." He is haunted by the memory of his own mortality, and seems to be struggling with a sense of loss and regret. He lashes out at those who have abandoned him - "Got no love when I was a toddler" - and seems to find some grim satisfaction in playing with guns and taking risks with his own life. As for the line about wanting to be like Hitler, it's a disturbing image that speaks to the depths of the singer's own self-loathing and alienation from society.
All in all, "Therapy" is a chilling song that speaks to the darkness that can percolate within the human soul. The singer is struggling to find a way out of his own mental prison, and seems to be using music as a means of escape.
Line by Line Meaning
Walkin on the flatlines fumblin with the razor blade
Feeling lost and hopeless while playing with a dangerous tool
Rumblin with the ace of spade is where the wicket rhymes are made
Creating dark and twisted verses while feeling unstable
Sometimes I really feel like I just can't deal with the pressures of life
Struggling to handle the difficulties of existence and feeling overwhelmed
So I walk around with the bloody butcher knife
Carrying a weapon as a way to cope with feelings of anger and frustration
Therapy,man I need some therapy cause ain't nobody scarin me
Expressing a desire for professional help due to a lack of emotional support
I ain't got no love cause no one cares for me
Feeling unloved and rejected by others
Slippin it into to darkness I'm beyond that and pass that
Succumbing to despair and feeling like there's no hope left
Once I catch a flashback Snap and that's yo ass
Experiencing intense psychological distress and becoming dangerous to others
Black Devil get a shovel,grave digga How you figure you gon' kill a dead nigga
Embracing one's own darkness and showing resilience to others' attempts to hurt them
Bloody body baby bloody man I'm nutty what he thought Nine dead bodies and I never got caught
Boasting about committing violent acts and getting away with them
Walk the flatlines,man I walk the flatlines And dead body chalk lines make me walk lines
Continuing to exist in a dangerous and uncertain world, surrounded by reminders of mortality
I don't sniff lines .45 slug to my mind Sometime I feel I'm on the flatline
Rejecting drugs but still experiencing psychological turmoil and feeling like life is slipping away
Man I need some therapy
Acknowledging the need for professional help to address mental health issues
I'm having suicidal thoughts Brain cells dead from the coma My aroma dead body rotten gone but not forgotten Seems like you forgot
Struggling with suicidal ideation and feeling like others don't care or understand
Man I took one shot Now I lay me down to sleep body hot rot
Reflecting on past actions that may have worsened current mental health issues
Got no love when I was a toddler Now I swallow bullets for fun playin games with the gun Hope I spit up,get up,throw up,mind blow up
Feeling abandoned from a young age and engaging in dangerous activities as a way of coping
I told my teacher I want to be like Hitler when I grow up Now I got a mental block got the pussy hammer cocked Tick tock and ya don't stop make the pussy pop To the break of dawn,to the break of dawn Once again it's on .357 chrome plated to my dome
Revealing past violent ideations and experiencing paranoia and aggression
Now I know you want to know about knowing what I'm knowing
Suggesting that others are curious about the artist's dark thoughts and emotions
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Esham Attica Smith
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Goddess Storm
Im 40+ and still BUMP this! Coming from my hometown FLINT.. THIS IS MY THERAPY...4 sho ...Thank you for the wicked shit ESHAM! LOVE YOU MAN
Keith Wandrei
I'm going 41 bro I'm from Oakland County bro
MPK112233
Favorite song on the album, one of the very best Esham tracks. The beat is hypnotic, Esham rips it up with that classic Acid Rap sound and the little singing during the hook holds it together well.
Ryan Sam
One of the dopest beats ever.
KingKunta Kollection
2023 and Esham lyrics was so up-to-date, I think he was underrated as the most lyrically acclaim
h1dd3n4g3nd4
Awesome production on the beat, and the lyrics are dope af. Esham for life! RLP
ThugNinja
2019!!!! This shit still go hard 🔥🔥🔥🔊
Mucci Gane
I can’t tell you how much I relate to this song. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of what goes on in my mind as well. Pure pain.
Drew Neal
Man this is a straight classic
Lucifer Reagan
i cant listen to this song without rapping along every single word!