Being di… Read Full Bio ↴Fenne Lily is a British singer-songwriter based in Bristol.
Being discouraged from watching TV as a child was integral to the development of Fenne Lily's musicality, as instead much of her time was spent writing songs and honing both instrumental and understatement in equal measures.
At the age of 17 she began travelling to Bristol from her home in Dorset, and within a year found herself suporting the likes of Marika Hackman, Marlon Williams, KT Tunstall, C Duncan, and Palace, among many more. Soon after she self-released her debut single 'Top to Toe' - a song she had written when she was only 15 - which aling with her next two singles amassed over 20 million streams in the next 18 months.
A prolific artist, she soon found herself collaborating with a number of other musicians, including Aldous Harding and fellow Bristolians Tamu Massif & Oliver Wilde.
Throughout this whole time however, she has been writing for her own songs. Enlisting some musical friends to join her and recording with one foot on the Isle of Wight and one in Bristol, Fenne completed her debut album due in 2018.
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Car Park
Fenne Lily Lyrics
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When it woke you in the car park
And maybe I should tell you that I've villainised my body for too long
Would it help you find excuses to move on
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger
I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
I don't believe in luck so I am giving up
I hope to find a reason for my fear of feelings leaving at the start
It makes my sleeping harder
I don't know much about you so I'm trying not to doubt you but in time
I know you'll let me down and that is fine
A feeling I can't shake it's getting stronger
I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck I don't believe in much
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up
Fenne Lily's song Car Park is a reflective piece that seems to be written about a past romantic relationship that still lingers in the singer's mind. The opening lyric, "I wonder if you saw that I was sorry for the beating of my heart," suggests the singer's anxiety about letting their emotions show in front of this past partner. The fact that this happened in a car park adds to the sense of impermanence and transience in the relationship.
The song then shifts to the singer's relationship with her body. "And maybe I should tell you that I've villainised my body for too long, would it help you find excuses to move on," suggests that the singer might have insecurities about her body and fears that this was the reason the relationship didn't work. The line "Like I needed more excuses to be stronger" shows that she is attempting to change this mindset and be stronger within herself irrespective of her perceived flaws.
The second verse touches upon the theme of trust and love. "I don't know much about you so I'm trying not to doubt you but in time I know you'll let me down and that is fine" - this line seems to indicate a fear of trust, which might have been an issue in the past relationship. The singer has been hurt before, and the final lines of the song "Leave it all to trust or start to give it up" suggest that she is encouraging herself to either trust in love or give up on the idea of it entirely.
Overall, Car Park is a poignant and introspective song that touches upon universal themes of love, trust, and self-reflection. The singer's vulnerability and her attempts to be stronger within herself make her an empathetic and relatable character.
Line by Line Meaning
I wonder if you saw that I was sorry for the beating of my heart
I'm apologizing for my heart beating loudly and disturbing you in the car park. I wonder if you noticed and if you were bothered by it.
And maybe I should tell you that I've villainised my body for too long
I've been treating my body like the enemy for a while now, and maybe it's time I confess that to you.
Would it help you find excuses to move on
If you knew more about how I view my body, would it make it easier for you to break up with me?
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger
I'm already trying to be strong, so I don't need any more reasons for it.
I'm no mother
I'm not a mother figure or an expert in parenting.
But I've done a lot
Even though I'm not a mother, I've done a lot for the people I love.
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I've been working hard to show my loved ones that they are worthy and deserving.
I don't believe in luck so I am giving up
I don't have faith in luck, so I'm letting go of the idea that things will magically work out on their own.
I hope to find a reason for my fear of feelings leaving at the start
I'm afraid of developing feelings for someone only to have them disappear early on. I'm hoping to figure out why I feel this way.
It makes my sleeping harder
This fear has been keeping me awake at night and making it difficult to sleep.
I don't know much about you so I'm trying not to doubt you but in time
Since I don't know much about you, I'm trying not to be skeptical or suspicious. However, over time, my doubts might increase.
I know you'll let me down and that is fine
Deep down, I think you'll disappoint me, but I'm already mentally preparing for it and trying to accept it.
A feeling I can't shake it's getting stronger
This emotion that I can't seem to get rid of is intensifying and overwhelming me.
I don't believe in luck I don't believe in much
I don't have faith in luck or many things in general.
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up
I can either trust people and situations fully or give up entirely on the idea of trust.
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Roshen McKenzie
Lyrics:
I wonder if you saw that I was sorry for the beating of my heart
When it woke you in the car park
And maybe I should tell you
That I’ve villainised my body for too long
Would it help you find excuses to move on?
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger
I’m no mother
But I’ve done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don’t believe in luck so I am giving up
I hope to find a reason for my fear of feelings leaving at the start
It makes my sleeping harder.
I don’t know much about you
So I’m trying not to doubt you, but in time
I know you’ll let me down and that is fine
A feeling I can’t shake, it’s getting stronger
I’m no mother
But I’ve done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don’t believe in luck
I don’t believe in much
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up;
Wildest Nothing
It's a weird experience coming back to this song four years after first discovering it, after having loved someone whom the lyrics fit like a glove and learning how to let her go despite wanting to hold on as tightly and as long as possible.
Addison Watkins
What a beautiful song. Really brings back a lot of memories from my childhood. I remember the summer after my sophmore year in college. My older brother, who loved puzzles, spent the entire summer putting them together. I never wanted to do them with him as I found it awfully boring. When I went back to school, he stayed back at our hometown. He got the best job he could dream of, working in a jigsaw puzzle factory. He was ecstatic to tell our family. Unfortunately, he fell into the jigsaw after two months of working. He passed away later that day, surrounded by family. One of my fondest memories of him was putting his “pieces” back together. I finally got to do a puzzle he desperately wished for. Fly high Jigsaw Jack. 🧩🕊
Matthew Watkins
I miss him every day 💔🥀
moonwife
This is one of the most beautiful songs I’ve heard
Ashley Onstott
Me too. It’s one of the only songs I’ve heard that’s just perfect in every way.
Roshen McKenzie
Lyrics:
I wonder if you saw that I was sorry for the beating of my heart
When it woke you in the car park
And maybe I should tell you
That I’ve villainised my body for too long
Would it help you find excuses to move on?
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger
I’m no mother
But I’ve done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don’t believe in luck so I am giving up
I hope to find a reason for my fear of feelings leaving at the start
It makes my sleeping harder.
I don’t know much about you
So I’m trying not to doubt you, but in time
I know you’ll let me down and that is fine
A feeling I can’t shake, it’s getting stronger
I’m no mother
But I’ve done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don’t believe in luck
I don’t believe in much
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up;
danaia; 🌃
My father passed away... I can't sleep so i tried to find a song on Spotify's discover weekly and this came up.
Bully Maguire
Your voice is such wonderful
JR Gelpe
One of the newest fans. Been on repeat listening to her album. Such a masterpiece. Love from the Philippines. 💖
Aquarius Crystalwave
Such a beautiful and powerful song ... wow ... please don't ever stop making music, it's helping so many of us push through and ease our pain ❤️