Manic
Filth Lyrics


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I am a damaged man

Conflicted by both sides of the coin
Every thought that comes into your head
I hope that I am beginning & end

There's only one rule for this game
Of life we're in it's win

Jealousy plagues me
& Cuts me to the very core

All I want is for you to accept me
& Be my fucking whore

No I can't let them see
Bury it, bury it deep
So no one will ever see
The monster that dwells in me

All on your knees
Come see the greatest fraud ever to be seen
A coward who boast about his class & prestige
Is this really what they think of me?

No I can't let them see
Bury it, bury it deep
So no one will ever see

I will not let them hear
The tongues that I speak
My very thoughts seek to betray me
I have fallen from the peak
Into the trenches I shall retreat





I am a damaged man

Overall Meaning

The song Manic by Filth speaks about the turmoil of a person who is broken and torn apart from within. The opening line, "I am a damaged man", sets the tone of the song and encapsulates the meaning behind it. The person is caught in a constant conflict, battling both sides of the coin - his inner demons or flaws and his desire to be loved and accepted by others. The song explores the thought process of a person who is in a constant state of self-doubt, fear, and weakness. The lyrics depict a person who is struggling to cope with the expectations of the world and the burden of their own choices.


The lines "Every thought that comes into your head, I hope that I am beginning & end" convey the desire of the person to be the center of someone's universe. He craves for someone to depend on him and support him through his struggles. He is plagued by jealousy and is deeply hurt when someone doesn't acknowledge him or accept him for who he is. The lyrics "All I want is for you to accept me & Be my fucking whore" may seem misogynistic, but here the term 'whore' is used metaphorically. It may signify someone who submits to him, adores him, and accepts him unconditionally.


The lyrics further delve into the internal battle of the person who is afraid of showing his true self to the world. He fears being judged or rejected, and hence he suppresses his emotions and buries them deep inside. He doesn't want anyone to see the "monster" that dwells inside him. In the end, he accepts his "damaged" self and withdraws into solitude.


Overall, the song portrays the vulnerability, pain, and desperation of a person who is grappling with his identity and fears. It's a poignant reflection of the inner demons that haunt a person.


Line by Line Meaning

I am a damaged man
I am someone who is struggling with emotional and mental health issues


Conflicted by both sides of the coin
I am conflicted between two opposing choices or ideas


Every thought that comes into your head
I am overwhelmed by negative thoughts and emotions that consume my mind


I hope that I am beginning & end
I feel like my existence is meaningless and that I do not belong


There's only one rule for this game
Life is a competition, and the only rule is to win at all costs


Of life we're in it's win
Success in life is the ultimate goal and failure is not an option


Jealousy plagues me
I am constantly envious of others and their success


& Cuts me to the very core
This jealousy hurts me deeply and affects me emotionally


All I want is for you to accept me
My self-worth depends on the approval of others and their acceptance of me


& Be my fucking whore
I want complete control over others, even if it means treating them badly


No I can't let them see
I am ashamed of my true self and do not want others to see my flaws


Bury it, bury it deep
I try to hide my negative emotions and thoughts deep within myself


So no one will ever see
I do not want anyone to know about my inner struggles because it may make them judge me


The monster that dwells in me
There is a dark part of me that I am not proud of and wish to hide from others


All on your knees
I crave power and control over others to the point that I want them to submit to me


Come see the greatest fraud ever to be seen
I feel like a fraud and a fake because I am not true to myself or to others


A coward who boast about his class & prestige
I try to portray myself as confident and successful, but in reality, I am a coward


Is this really what they think of me?
I am obsessed with the opinions of others and how they perceive and judge me


I will not let them hear
I keep my thoughts hidden from others because I do not want them to know my true self


The tongues that I speak
The words that I say do not reflect my true thoughts and emotions


My very thoughts seek to betray me
My own mind turns against me and is the cause of my inner turmoil


I have fallen from the peak
I was once successful and confident, but now I am struggling and feel like a failure


Into the trenches I shall retreat
I want to withdraw from the world and hide from my problems




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