Desires In Conflict
Flame Lyrics

Yea, I wanna tell ya'll this story
Introduction to the story of the interesting man and woman who shared their struggles

It's a lot of people looking for restoration
Many people are searching for restoration

And really searching
They are truly seeking help

I met an interesting man
Flame met a man who shared his struggles

Who confessed some of the struggles within
The man disclosed some of the challenges he faced

Brace yourself cause the struggle is deep
The man's struggle is severe and requires emotional preparation

He wrestles with the very complex thing
The man fights with a complicated issue

And this is what he said to me
The man shared his secret with Flame

You don't understand my pain
Flame cannot comprehend the man's agony

You don't understand my secret
Flame is not aware of the man's hidden troubles

The type of depression I sleep with
The man is experiencing depression and lives with it

It's been going on
The issue has persisted for a long time

Every since I was six years old
The man has been struggling with depression since he was six years old

My greatest fear is still being exposed
The man's top concern is that others will find out his secret

My emotions cross wires
The man is experiencing emotional confusion

Causing a sexual crossfire
The man is struggling with sexual desires and conflicts

Now I have conflicting desires
The man is attracted to both sexes, which causes internal conflict

As a distraction
The man sees his same-sex attraction as a temporary diversion from his emotional challenges

Same sex attraction
The man has a sexual attraction towards the same sex

In my actions and emotional breakdown just like fractions
The man's emotional struggles are resulting in a breakdown of his relationships

See, people even say that I'm wrong
Many people criticize the man's same-sex attraction

But people need to leave me alone
The man wants people to stop judging him and give him space

Just check Dateline
Flame suggests that people can learn about hate crimes by watching Dateline

And the news will even show you
The news can inform you about hate crimes

The hate crimes
Being different leads to people becoming targets of hate crimes

I would see God but why waste time
The man doesn't believe God can help him, feeling that prayer is a waste of time

I'm so embarrassed
The man feels ashamed of his struggles

I try to change
The man wants to change who he is and his struggles

But it just won't work
Despite his attempts to change, his desires and struggles persist

I felt ashamed when I stepped in the church
The man feels guilty and ashamed when he enters a church

I feel isolated
The man feels alienated from his community

Child of trauma
The man has experienced significant traumatic events as a child

I try to forget that while dealing with these struggles and set backs
The man tries to forget his past traumatic events while tackling his current struggles

I been around
Flame has met many people with similar struggles

Man... it's got to be tough man
Flame acknowledges the difficult situation and expresses empathy

I don't know what to say
Flame is uncertain how to respond to these heavy topics

I met an interesting woman
Flame had a conversation with a woman who also shared her struggles

Who confessed some of her struggles within
The woman disclosed some of her personal concerns to Flame

Brace yourself cause her struggle is deep (cause her struggle is deep)
The woman is facing severe challenges, and it may be difficult to hear her story

She wrestles with the very complex thing
The woman's issue is complicated and hard to overcome

And this is what she said to me
The woman opened up and shared her difficulties with Flame

You don't understand my struggle
Flame can't fully understand the woman's struggles

Never hearing a man say that I love you
The woman never received words of love from a man

Without something in mind
Men always had ulterior motives when they expressed love towards her

Yea, I grew up as a classic tomboy
The woman identifies as a classic tomboy

When I was young I used to clown boys
As a young girl, she used to make fun of boys

It was so funny
She found it amusing

But then the jokes stopped when he grabbed my throat
Her perspective towards boys changed after she was attacked by a boy

And I got raped looked around and there was no pops
She was raped, and there was no father around to protect her

Then I resented and hated men my friends then
She developed resentment and hatred towards men, including her friends

But I never dated men for a long time
She avoided dating men for a long time because of her past trauma and feelings towards them

When I did I became promiscuous
After dating men, she engaged in sexual experiences more frequently

Involved in sexual experiences
She was involved in sexual interactions with men

That I shouldn't been
She regrets engaging in the sexual experiences she had

Never felt feminine til I met a friend
She never felt feminine until she met a friend who gave her a sense of femininity

Who really took the time just to understand
Her friend genuinely listened and understood her

It became more than a friendship
The friendship developed into more than just that

One day when her hand slipped
One day, they accidentally engaged in a sexual act

I tried to change but that's the way that I am
She attempted to modify her lifestyle, however, ultimately, this is the way she feels and behaves

Please accept me for the way that I am
She wants people to accept her for who she is, regardless of their opinions

Wow... that's deep... um
Flame is taken aback but does not know what to say

And when they shared their secrets
Both the man and the woman shared their secrets with Flame

It was very hard to speak
It was difficult for them to talk about their struggles

But I knew they wanted me to respond (they wanted me to respond)
Flame sensed they wanted him to respond and offer his opinion

I closed my eyes and said a prayer to God
Flame prays to God for guidance and wisdom

Lord please help me speak your mind
Flame asks for God's help to express His thoughts

I don't understand your pain (I don't)
Flame acknowledges that he cannot comprehend their severe pain

And I don't and your secrets (I don't)
Flame does not know their secrets

The type of depression you sleep with
Flame is not personally aware of their specific depression

But I sympathize
Flame feels empathy and compassion towards them

I really do
Flame genuinely cares about their well-being

Know it's gotta be hard
Flame understands their struggles are undoubtedly arduous

Being you so I try to be true
Flame intends to be honest with them

And I try to empathize
Flame strives to empathize with their struggles

But I know that God wants to express a sacredness
Flame believes that God intends to show them a level of sacredness

Through opposite sex
God's intent is to express sacredness through relationships between opposite sexes

Yes through opposite sex
God's design for relationships is for people of the opposite sex to be together

For man and woman to become one
God's intent for relationships is for men and women to become one

Is the union God wanted to bless
God's greatest blessings come from the union of man and woman

It paints a picture of His desire for oneness
The union of man and woman emphasizes God's desire for people to connect

With us in a relationship we can be with the Father
In a relationship with each other, we can grow a relationship with God - The Father

He's always faithful
God remains faithful despite the circumstances

He'll never molest or disrespect His sons and daughters
God would never harm or disrespect his sons and daughters

You can bet on this
This is a certainty

His love is deeper than the ocean floor
God's love runs deeper than the depths of the ocean

The blood of Jesus is the open door
The blood of Jesus holds the key to forgiveness and restoration

To forgive us for our sins
The blood of Jesus forgives our sins

And He can restore the void in a woman
God can restore the woman's lack of fulfillment

And He can restore the men to men from homosexual sin
God wants to restore men who experience homosexual desires

See a person's race or ethnicity is sacred
People's race and culture are important to respect

Our sexuality is sacred as well
Our sexual identity and desires are also important to respect

And it's a gift from God
Our sexual identity and desires come from God as a gift

We don't have the right to do with it what we want to
We cannot manipulate or change our sexuality to fit our wishes

God has an original intent
God designed a specific purpose for our sexuality and identity

Just like I can't go off and participate in any type of sexual act that I want to with
Flame acknowledges that he cannot participate in all kinds of sexual activities

My sexuality pornography premarital sex adultery
These are the forms of sexual activities Flame cannot participate in

So what is it with our sexuality concerning homo sexuality
Flame questions the specifics of our sexual identity and homosexual desires

God has established
God has set the guidelines for our sexual identity and desire

The divine order
Our sexual identity and desires follow God's design and order

And we must follow
We must follow God's plan for our sexuality and desires