Long Days
Futuristic Lyrics

Writin' verses, re-word 'em until they're perfect
I spend a lot of time perfecting my lines

I'm certain that I should make it, but will I? It got me nervous
I'm nervous about whether or not I'll actually succeed

Feel like this my purpose and everybody heard it
I feel like my purpose is to rap and everyone knows it

They would see that I'm that person who's workin' and I deserve it
If people really knew how hard I've worked, they would see that I deserve success

If only they could see me through my mama's eyes
I wish people could see me the way my mom sees me

I apologize, I quit college, she's disappointed but not surprised
I'm sorry I dropped out of college, but my mom saw it coming

I ain't got no time for these niggas that I grew up with
I don't have time for the people I used to hang out with

They smokin' and they drinkin' with women I used to fuck with
My old friends are partying with girls I used to date

I've been enough shit, all I do is spit raps
I've been through a lot but all I do now is rap

Scrapped over diss tracks, killed niggas at kickbacks
I've battled other rappers and won, and I've had to fight people at parties

At the party at Mill Ave. and everybody know it's me
Everyone knows who I am at the party on Mill Ave.

Hope that I can make it without a hater approachin' me
I hope I can succeed without anyone trying to bring me down

My team is gettin' smaller, I keep my circle tight
My group of friends is getting smaller, and I'm being selective about who I let in

And got these women fallin' like leaves do in Autumn
I have a lot of women interested in me

My niggas don't understand me, my fans be goin' the hardest
My friends don't really get me, but my fans are really supportive

I just keep to myself, and keep focused on my target
I stay focused on my goals and don't get caught up in drama

Yeah, I gave my all from the start
I've been putting all my effort into my music from the beginning

I'm workin' hard, I'm workin' long
I'm working really hard for a long time

I play my part, I'm workin' smart
I'm doing what I need to do and working smart

I'm on my own, feel all alone
I feel alone even though I'm doing this on my own

I had no home, I need a clone, and all my people gone
I've been through a lot and sometimes wish I had someone else to share the burden

Long days, cold nights
I've had a lot of tough days and nights

Look

Jealousy is creepin', I can sense it from afar
I can tell when people are jealous of me even if they try to hide it

Ain't nothin new to me, I've blanketed too many scars
I'm used to people being jealous and trying to bring me down

Homies that chose another route, now wanna get involved
People who used to be my friends but are doing something else now are trying to be a part of my success

But who would you depend on if tomorrow it all fell apart?
If everything went wrong, who would still be there for me?

Cold days, long nights, feelin' under-appreciated but that is all right
I often feel like people don't appreciate my hard work, but I'm okay with it

I'm forced to turn my back, and lift my head
I have to leave some people behind and keep moving forward

A couple of tears had to be shed
I've cried over some of the struggles I've been through

My past is fuckin' up vision so it's hard to look ahead
My past is making it hard for me to see my future

I gotta keep focused, false motives
I need to stay focused and ignore people who have ulterior motives

Pushin' me to abandon niggas that I used to roll with
Some people are trying to get me to stop hanging out with my old friends

We used to be the closest, I love you like my brother
My old friends were like family to me and I cared about them a lot

But your girl fucked up your head and carved out your true colors
One of my friends changed because of his girlfriend and showed his true colors

I stuck with an empty bottle and kush that got me trippin'
Sometimes I turn to alcohol and weed to cope

I adapted to the bullshit niggas do, now I'm indifferent
I've become numb to the negative things people do

Fuck sittin' and wishin' and it will not help me out
I can't just sit around and wish for success, I have to work for it

Because it is what it is, even when it's hard to smile
Sometimes life sucks and it's hard to be happy

Yo, okay that show last night was crazy, these ladies wanna have my baby
I had a great show last night and some girls are interested in me

I told my pops that I wouldn't ever let no pussy phase me
I told my dad that I wouldn't let girls distract me from my music

But damn she look like Beyonce and my flow is strong as Jay-Z
But sometimes it's hard to resist a girl who looks like Beyonce and my rapping is good

But without that would she want me or even want to date me? Huh?
If I didn't have music, would girls like me for who I am or just for my success?

Fuck her and leave her, guess I don't need her
I'll just sleep with her and then move on, I don't need her

Hear her voice in my head, she only hear mine through the speakers
I can still hear her voice in my head but she can only hear my voice through my music

And I teach her to cope with it
I try to teach girls how to deal with my busy schedule and touring

I'm on the road with the snow hittin' the windshield, damn it's a cold winter
I'm on tour driving through snow and it's really cold

Radio interviews used to seem huge, now it's miniscule, addressin' the reasons I get ridiculed
I used to think doing radio interviews was a big deal, but now it's not important, and I have to address why people make fun of my music

"Futuristic rap like every nigga that you listen to, not original dude"
People say that my rap sounds like everyone else's and it's not original

Shut the fuck up, I ain't in the mood
I don't want to hear criticism right now

Wish I could call my grandmother and tell her I love her
I miss my grandma and wish I could talk to her

I miss her fallin' asleep while that dinner was in the oven
I miss my grandma falling asleep while cooking dinner

I miss prankin' my brother, I wanna hug him
I miss playing pranks on my brother and wish I could give him a hug

I wanna send him something, accomplish so much
I want to achieve so much and share it with my brother

But it feel like nothing, nah
Even though I've achieved a lot, sometimes it doesn't feel like enough