learning to live again
Garth Lyrics

I burned my hand, I cut my face
I have had some physical pain lately that has made me feel vulnerable.

Heaven knows how long it's been
It's been a long time since I have felt this out of place and nervous.

Since I've felt so out of place
I am not sure if I will fit in or if I will be accepted.

I'm wonderin' if I'll fit in
I am afraid of being rejected or laughed at.

Debbie and Charley said they'd be here by nine
My friends, Debbie and Charlie, promised to come and hang out with me.

And Deb said she might bring a friend
Debbie hinted that she could bring a friend along with her.

Just my luck, they're right on time
My friends arrived precisely when they had agreed to meet me.

So here I go again
I must try to fit in, even though I feel nervous and out of place.

I'm gonna smile my best smile
I will smile as much as I can and try to look friendly.

And I'm gonna laugh like it's going out of style
I will laugh a lot, even if the situation is not very funny, to show that I am approachable.

Look into her eyes and pray that she don't see
I will try to look my best and impress her without revealing my nervousness.

That learning to live again is killing me
Having to start over and learn to live again is tough on me.

Little cafe, table for four
We are sitting in a small restaurant that has room for four people at our table.

But there's just conversation for three
The conversation seems to not include me much, making me feel left out.

And I like the way she let me get the door
I appreciate that she allowed me to open the door for her.

And I wonder what she thinks of me
I am curious to know what she is thinking about me.

Debbie just whispered, "You're doin' fine"
Debbie whispered to me that I am doing well, trying to reassure me.

And I wish that I felt the same
I wish I felt as confident as I appear to be on the outside.

She's asked me to dance, now her hand's in mine
She has invited me to dance, and we are holding hands now.

Oh, my God, I've forgotten her name
I suddenly realized I cannot remember her name, which makes me feel like a fool.

Now here we are beneath her porch light
We are standing under the light outside her front door.

And I say what a great time it's been
I am complementing her, saying we had a great time.

A kiss on the cheek, a whisper goodnight
I kissed her on the cheek and quietly said goodnight.

And I say, "can I see you again"
I asked her if we could see each other again in the future.

And she just smiles her best smile
She smiled her warmest, most encouraging smile in response.

And she laughs like it's going out of style
She laughed as if I had said something hilarious, even though I had not.

Looks into my eyes and says, "We'll see"
She looked at me and replied with a noncommittal answer.

Oh this learning to live again is killing me
The process of starting over and learning to live again is very difficult for me.