Paradigm
HKFiftyOne Lyrics

I spend my nights just thinking
I spend my nights deep in thought, reflecting on my actions and decisions.

How I been finessing
I have been skillfully achieving my goals and manipulating situations to my advantage.

I pile these stacks and racks but
I accumulate substantial amounts of money and material possessions, but...

You don't wanna text me
You show no interest in communicating with me through text messages.

I wanna make you proud and flex all
I desire to impress you and show off all...

This shit that I got but
The valuable things I possess, but...

You don't wanna talk to me you
You have no interest in engaging in conversation with me, you...

Don't even know what you need
Lack self-awareness about your own desires and priorities.

I'm getting all these DMs for a feature
I receive numerous direct messages (DMs) from others, seeking collaborations or to be featured in my work.

Yeah i'm getting the word out
I am spreading the message or information to a wider audience.

Just like a preacher, yeah
Similar to a religious preacher who spreads their beliefs, I am spreading my message.

Everybody treat me like a teacher, yeah
Everyone perceives me as a knowledgeable figure who imparts wisdom or guidance.

You learn from me if you ain't a sleeper
Those who are attentive and alert can gain knowledge and insights from me.

My PayPal blowing up
My PayPal account is receiving numerous transactions or donations.

You know I'm glowing up
You are aware that I am experiencing significant growth or improvement.

My guap just keep on piling
My wealth and earnings continue to accumulate steadily.

Every day it's going up
Every day, my financial situation and success are improving.

You know it's not enough
However, despite the progress, it is never sufficient or satisfying.

I cannot rise above
I am unable to transcend my current circumstances or limitations.

This sadness is killing me and
The intense sorrow I feel is causing immense pain and distress.

I think I've had enough
I believe I have reached my breaking point or reached a saturation point.

I get so fed up with the
I become extremely frustrated and annoyed with the constant...

Same shit all the time
Repetitive and monotonous situations or problems that persist.

I keep repeating what I say
I find myself constantly reiterating or emphasizing my opinions or statements.

And the same rhymes
And using the same lyrical patterns or techniques in my music.

I get stuck living in the same day every time
I feel trapped in a cycle where each day feels identical or unchanging.

You ripped my heart out and it
You deeply hurt me and tore apart my emotional well-being, and it...

Hurt but that's my paradigm
Caused immense pain, but it has become the framework of my existence.

You made me so numb my
You rendered me emotionally numb, where...

Bony knees and tired eyes will never go away
I constantly bear the burden of exhaustion and weariness, and it never fades.

You made me so numb I ain't
You made me emotionally desensitized, and...

Got no Real Friends you remind me everyday
I lack genuine companions or trustworthy relationships, and you remind me of that fact every day.

I lost my motivation but I swear I'll try
I have lost my drive or enthusiasm, but I promise to make an effort.

If you be my star then I
If you become my source of inspiration or guidance, then I...

Guess I'll be your sky
Will provide the support and encompass everything around you like the sky.

You never give me nothing back
You never reciprocate or provide anything in return.

I don't know why
I cannot comprehend the reason behind this behavior.

I gave you everything you need
I provided you with all the necessary things or support you required.

So you could shine
So you could flourish or achieve success.

Tryna fill a void just like a canyon
Attempting to fill an emotional or existential emptiness, akin to a vast canyon.

I'm getting all this guap with no companion
Despite accumulating significant wealth, I do not have a companion or partner.

I feel just like I'm lost inside a mansion
I experience a sense of aimlessness or feeling out of place, even within a grand mansion.

This money don't mean nothing
This money holds no significant value or fulfillment.

With no passion
Without genuine enthusiasm or excitement.

I ain't scared to tell you what I think
I have no fear or hesitation in expressing my honest opinions or thoughts to you.

Yeah so much effort tryna stay in sync, yeah
I exert a considerable amount of effort to maintain synchronization or alignment with others.

Push me to the edge I'm on the brink, yeah
Continuously pushing me to my limits, I am teetering on the verge of breaking.

Think I'm going crazy need a shrink, yeah
Believe that I am losing my sanity and require the assistance of a psychiatrist.