Their debut full length, Angst, was released through Pure Noise Records on September 25th 2012.
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I Hope He Kills You
Handguns Lyrics
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I promised myself this year I would tell the truth.
I’ll pretend my heart’s not breaking.
It’s taking everything I have not to call you back.
I hope he breaks you down.
The next time you call, I won’t be around.
No one ever made me feel like you did
and now I’m struggling to feel anything at all.
I understand it all too well and I hope that you fall.
You’re always on the wrong end of the turnpike.
I want to choke myself to death with the phone line.
“Go your own way and I’ll be with you”,
(FSF - Wearing Thin) but nothing that you ever say could make me hate you.
Don’t want to laugh last, I don’t want to say “ I told you so”.
I want you to call me back and say “I love you”, because I’ve got nowhere to go.
These nights spent alone without you are dragging me down.
Though I know that this seems bitter,
It's how I get through these nights without you.
I hope that this doesn’t come out wrong
but I’d do anything to make you feel on top of the world,
and I’ll still be here just like I have always been.
The lyrics to Handguns' song "I Hope He Kills You" are a bitter reflection of a person coming to terms with their heartbreak. They begin by refusing to express the expected sentiment of wishing their ex happiness with their new partner. Instead, the singer promises to tell the truth about how they feel this year. They admit to struggling with pretending that their heart isn't breaking and fighting the urge to reach out to their ex.
However, the singer's bitterness soon takes over, and they express a desire for their ex to be broken down by their new partner. They declare that they won't be available the next time their ex calls, and yet they admit that no one has ever made them feel the same way their ex did. The singer hopes that their ex falls and acknowledges their own seeming cruelty.
Further, the singer references their ex's geographical location and desire to hang up on them permanently. Despite their bitterness, they note that they still don't hate their ex, and they long to hear the words "I love you" from them. The chorus acknowledges the difficulties of moving on, even though no one wants to seem bitter, and ends with the singer declaring their willingness to do anything to make their ex feel good, even if from a distance.
Overall, the lyrics signify the pain of heartbreak and the complicated emotions that come with it, including bitterness, anger, and longing.
Line by Line Meaning
I won't say 'I hope you're happy with him.'
I don't want to pretend to wish you well with him.
I promised myself this year I would tell the truth.
I made a resolution to be honest with myself and others.
I’ll pretend my heart’s not breaking.
I'll try to hide my pain and act like I'm okay.
It’s taking everything I have not to call you back.
I'm struggling to resist the urge to reach out to you again.
I hope he breaks you down.
I hope that he hurts you like you hurt me.
The next time you call, I won’t be around.
I won't be available to answer your call if you try to contact me again.
No one ever made me feel like you did and now I’m struggling to feel anything at all.
You were special to me and now I'm struggling to move on and feel anything at all.
It may sound mean like I’m not understanding.
I may sound harsh, but I understand everything that happened between us.
I understand it all too well and I hope that you fall.
I understand everything that happened and I hope that karma catches up with you.
You’re always on the wrong end of the turnpike.
You always seem to make the wrong decisions.
I want to choke myself to death with the phone line.
I'm so frustrated and hurt that I feel like I'd rather die than keep talking about this.
“Go your own way and I’ll be with you”, (FSF - Wearing Thin) but nothing that you ever say could make me hate you.
Even though I said I'll stick by you, you can't say anything to make me forgive or forget what you did.
Don’t want to laugh last, I don’t want to say 'I told you so'.
I don't want to be vindictive and say 'I warned you' if things go wrong with you and him.
I want you to call me back and say 'I love you', because I’ve got nowhere to go.
I'm still in love with you and I want you to reach out to me because I feel lost without you.
These nights spent alone without you are dragging me down.
I'm struggling to cope with being alone without you by my side.
Though I know that this seems bitter, It's how I get through these nights without you.
Even though my words may sound harsh, it's my way of coping with the pain of being apart from you.
I hope that this doesn’t come out wrong but I’d do anything to make you feel on top of the world, and I’ll still be here just like I have always been.
I still care about you and want you to be happy, even if it's not with me, and I'll still be here if you need me.
Contributed by Lucy S. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@asosa1929
Has no one come back to listen to these legends !?!
@failurehaus5979
I have
@kimberlyperez1975
That "yeah" kills me every time. Always a great laugh
@jkane6865
"No one ever made me feel like you did, and now I'm struggling to feel anything at all." Best line in any Handguns song.
@yfzshane
saw in philly...amazing song live
@stellatrovato29
2019 anyone?? Doubt it
@claire-iu4sm
Here
@futureshock7425
I listened to it last summer driving home
@KorovaNova
Great sounding band. Just chilled with their drummer (an old friend) after walking to Wawa at midnight haha. Keep up the good vibes :)
@OfMiceAndAli
This song fits so well man