Porch Light
Handguns Lyrics

Waiting for my wake up call on
I am waiting to be notified of the right time to act or make a decision.

I know it's not coming
I am aware that I cannot continue waiting for something that will never happen.

I'm teaching from a row of circles
I am trying to give lessons or impart knowledge, despite feeling stuck in a repetitive cycle.

Though my mind's been running
Despite my mental preoccupation with my situation, I am still teaching and trying to move forward.

Since I walked out you know that
Ever since I left, you must know that

I'm still holding on
I am still attached to the relationship or situation despite leaving it physically.

And don't you dare forgive me
I do not want you to pardon my behavior or absolve me of my guilt.

Be my adadati rock
Be my reliable, supportive foundation or anchor.

[Chorus]
Reiteration of the song's main themes: feeling misunderstood, unaccepted, and uncertain about the future.

Listen, what's it like to feel contempt and
I am questioning if you have ever experienced the intense disdain and disgust that I feel.

And not just be resented
Additionally, I am asking if you know what it's like to not just be disliked, but also actively despised.

What's it like to know where you belong
I am envious of those who have a clear sense of identity and purpose, whereas I feel lost.

And say nobody about the time
I feel like I am the only one experiencing this existential crisis, and no one understands my struggles.

It's more than just an ending
This situation is not just a typical conclusion or finale, but something that has a deeper, emotional impact.

They seem like team Montana
I perceive others to be united and working together, akin to a sports team.

I'm swallowing my pride
I am putting aside my ego and admitting my vulnerability or need for help.

All it took was just one second
It only took a brief moment or action to change the course of events or emotions.

Just one second, shout out at the sky
I am expressing my feelings of frustration, anger, or helplessness to the universe.

The only one decision
This is the only resolution or conclusion that I have reached.

It's to never make one at all
My decision is to avoid making any further choices or taking any action.

I hope that you know that I'll call when I'm gone
I want you to know that I will reach out to you even if I am physically absent or distant.

I'll come back in one piece
I am reassuring you that I will return safely and whole, both physically and mentally.

If you just leave the porch light on
All I ask is that you keep a light on, symbolizing your willingness to welcome me back or keep me connected.