Hawthorne Heights developed a huge MySpace following that became a catalyst that would launch them from underground to international awareness. The band became regulars on MTV, their signature hit Ohio Is For Lovers the anthem for the new wave of “emo”. Their debut album The Silence In Black And White soon went Gold, and with their second album If Only You Were Lonely, the band scored Victory Records’ biggest ever debut, landing at #3 on the Billboard 200 in 2006. The band appeared on Conan O’Brien and Jimmy Kimmel, and became magazine cover stars, sending sales of The Silence… to Platinum status.
In November 2007, whilst in the midst of legal disputes, tragedy struck within the Hawthorne Heights family. Casey Calvert, the much loved guitarist and resident “screamer” of the band, lost his life while on tour, due to an accidental overdose of medications prescribed by his doctor and dentist, which proved to be lethal combination. The effects on the band were evident, both personally and musically.
On August 5 2008, Hawthorne Heights return with Fragile Future, a brand new album. Although the sound is still distinctly Hawthorne Heights, the music, as with the band, has understandably evolved.
“After spending the last 2 years in a deep dark place, we decided to try to find the bright lights again with Fragile Future,” noted singer J.T. Woodruff. “We, as a band, noticed that everyone has tremendous ups and downs, so we wanted this record to communicate that. We chose the title Fragile Future, because it sums up the current state of our band, as well as what is going on in the outside world. We must all make good choices to create a better situation in our lives.”
"With the loss of Casey, and no plans to replace him, we've had to make some obvious changes to our sound on this record,” added drummer Eron Bucciarelli. “Originally there were less screams planned for this record than the second one, but sadly we never got the chance to do even that. This forced us to take a creative approach to certain songs. We've beefed up the guitars in parts, added gang vocals, choirs and all sorts of effects to still capture some of the energy that Casey brought.”
Current Members
JT Woodruff: Vocals/Guitar
Mark McMillon: Guitar
Chris Popadak: Drums
Matt Ridenour: Bass
Previous Members:
Casey Calvert(deceased): Guitar/Backup Vocals
Eron Buciarelli: Drums
Micah Carli: Guitar
For more information, visit: http://www.hawthorneheights.com
Pens And Needles
Hawthorne Heights Lyrics
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As we drift we slip through evenings, whoa-oh
We drive into the cold and dark with fingers crossed
I follow your lies to avoid from getting lost
And all I had was the memory of what was
So let's pretend it never mattered to us
I hope this message finds you well
Just to survive we do what we can
We read the maps and signs, and we make the plans
By our design I write it down to get me by
The worst time in my life
And all I had was the memory of what was
So lets pretend it never mattered to us
I hope this message finds you well
I never thought I'd live to tell
What's a dream and what is real, the way I really feel
I hope this message finds you well
I never thought I'd live to tell
What's a dream and what is real?
So let's pretend this is the ending (ending...ending)
To the message I've been sending (sending...sending)
And all I had was the memory of what was
So lets pretend it never mattered to us
I hope this message finds you well
I never thought I'd live to tell
What's a dream and what is real, the way I really feel
In the melancholic song "Pens And Needles" by Hawthorne Heights, the singer is reminiscing about a lost love. He misses her the most on winter mornings when he imagines them slipping through evenings together. However, now they are driving alone into the cold and dark, hoping for the best. He follows her lies to avoid getting lost, even though all he has left is the memory of what was. He wants to pretend that their relationship never mattered to them, but he can't help but express his true feelings in this message. He hopes she is doing well and reflects on the worst time in his life.
The lyrics of the song are filled with themes of loss, regret, and memory. The winter morning imagery sets a melancholic tone that continues throughout the song. The line, "I follow your lies to avoid from getting lost," suggests that the relationship may have ended due to dishonesty, and the singer is struggling to come to terms with it. However, he still wants to reach out to the person and hope they are doing well.
Line by Line Meaning
I miss you most on winter mornings
I feel the absence of your presence the most on cold, dark mornings
As we drift we slip through evenings, whoa-oh
We move through time together, experiencing the passing of day to night with each other
We drive into the cold and dark with fingers crossed
We venture into the unknown with hopes of a positive outcome
I follow your lies to avoid from getting lost
I believe in what you tell me, even if it's not completely true, to keep from losing my sense of direction
And all I had was the memory of what was
My only possession is the memory of what once was
So let's pretend it never mattered to us
We should act as if what happened between us wasn't important
I hope this message finds you well
I'm sending you good wishes with this message
I never thought I'd live to tell
I didn't expect to make it through this experience
Just to survive we do what we can
We'll do anything to stay alive and get through hard times
We read the maps and signs, and we make the plans
We do our best to figure out what to do and how to get through tough situations
By our design I write it down to get me by
I use writing as a way to cope and survive
The worst time in my life
This is the most difficult period of my existence
What's a dream and what is real, the way I really feel
It's hard to differentiate between what's a fantasy and what's reality, and what emotions I'm truly experiencing
So let's pretend this is the ending (ending...ending)
Let's act as if this is the conclusion of our story
To the message I've been sending (sending...sending)
This is the last message I'll be sending
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
Written by: Casey Calvert, Eron Bucciarelli-Tieger, James II Woodruff, Matthew Ridenour, Micah Carli
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I miss you most on winter mornings
as we drift we slip through evenings, whoa-oh
we drive into the cold and dark with fingers crossed
I follow your eyes to avoid from getting lost
And all I had was the memory of what was
so let's pretend it never mattered to us
I hope this message finds you well
Never thought I'd live to tell
Just to survive we do what we can
we read the maps and signs, and we make the plans
by our design I write it down to get me by
the worst time in my life
And all I had was the memory of what was
so let's pretend it never mattered to us
I hope this message finds you well
Never thought I'd live to tell
what's a dream and what is real,
the way I really feel
I hope this message finds you well
I never thought I'd live to tell
what's a dream and what is real?
So let's pretend this is the ending
(So let's pretend...[echo]) (this is the ending...[echo])
to the message I've been sending, sending
(to the message...[echo]) (I've been sending...[echo])
And all I had was the memory of what was
so let's pretend it never mattered to us
I hope this message finds you well
Never thought I'd live to tell
what's a dream and what is real,
the way I really feel
I hope this message finds you well
Never thought I'd live to tell
what's a dream and what is real,
the way I really feel
Buddy DeezNutz
i envy those who grew up when this music was cool
Joseph Michaels
I was in middle school, almost high school, when this first came out. Pretty good times
drkfruit
+Buddy DeezNutz lol I was like 11 when i heard saying sorry, I'm like the last in my generation to even maby be around when this kinda stuff was kewl
SLOW DEATH HOOKS
+Buddy DeezNutz i was in middleschool in 2006, those were the true "scene/emo" days
Timmmaayyyy
This was my shit when I was younger.
Metal Marauder
How old are you this song isn't even ten years old
Aleah Crew
I turned 35 this month and still blasting this shit while driving with my kids in the car. My daughter is a mini me for sure. Sings along to most of the songs
Rock Axis
good to know that you raise your child with great music.
John
That is SO adorable! 😍 You must be raising her right then if she likes and sings along to HH! 👏👑🤘😂
isaidwhatisaid
My son puts on The Used for me when im not in a good mood 🙂🤟🏻