The ink lines that would shape young, self-produced, singer/songwriter Hayden Calnin and his budding musical career were drawn in his teen years after his father gave him a guitar at age 14. He hasn’t gone a day since without playing it.
Dabbling in bands through his teen years led him to add drums and piano to his repertoire, until at the age of 17 he finally decided to give singing a go.
Calnin's guitar-driven sound is complemented by a selection of husky, honest harmonies and delicate folk-pop melodies.
Comatose
Hayden Calnin Lyrics
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Habit, mercy; I set the trigger off
Made out that I saw night terrors
looming into this sun of mine
And you're late to come down
with a weight on your better side.
I was in comatose
A little frightened of home
I was overdose
Imperfect, but worth it;
the stars are out
Concerning, this burning;
I set the weather wrong
No doubt that I blame these flowers blooming
for every wrong that I took
Now look at the dirt in my toes
and tell me that I'm less of a man
for leaving you, for leaving you
It matters little what you think
I was in comatose
I was out of control
A little frightened of home
I was overdose
Terrorised by light
I'm leaving you
Feeling darker than night
I'm leaving you
I was in comatose
I was out of control
I'm leaving you
A little frightened of home
I was overdose
I'm leaving you
Now look at the dirt in my toes
and tell me that I'm less of a man
For leaving you, for leaving you
The lyrics in Hayden Calnin's song Comatose seem to describe a person who is struggling with feelings of fear and insecurity, as well as guilt and regret over leaving someone they care about. The opening lines of the song use desert imagery to suggest a sense of emptiness or longing, and also allude to the idea of being lost or disoriented. The phrase "the lights are off" can be interpreted to mean that the person is feeling disconnected from the world around them, while "Habit, mercy" suggests a feeling of desperation or resignation.
As the song progresses, the singer reveals that they have been struggling with "night terrors" and feeling overwhelmed by their own thoughts and feelings. They express regret over the mistakes they have made, blaming themselves for everything that has gone wrong in their life. Despite this, they also assert their own worth and value, insisting that they are not "less of a man" simply because they have chosen to leave someone behind.
Overall, the song seems to be about the difficult process of confronting one's own flaws and insecurities, while also trying to find the courage to move forward and grow as a person. By using rich and evocative language, Calnin creates a powerful sense of emotional vulnerability that resonates with listeners and captures the complexities of human experience.
Line by Line Meaning
Desert, thirsty; the lights are off
The environment is barren and dry, and there's a lack of light around.
Habit, mercy; I set the trigger off
I acted on impulse, without thinking about the situation.
Made out that I saw night terrors
looming into this sun of mine
I imagined frightening things happening in my life, despite the brightness around me.
And you're late to come down
with a weight on your better side.
You took a long time to arrive, and you're clearly burdened by something on your mind.
Imperfect, but worth it;
the stars are out
Although not perfect, there's still value to be found, especially under a clear sky.
Concerning, this burning;
I set the weather wrong
I caused something bad to happen, despite my best intentions.
No doubt that I blame these flowers blooming
for every wrong that I took
I unfairly attributed my mistakes to external factors, such as the beauty of the world around me.
Now look at the dirt in my toes
and tell me that I'm less of a man
for leaving you, for leaving you
Even though I left you, don't judge my masculinity based on my appearance, because that has nothing to do with my ability to love.
Terrorised by light
I'm leaving you
Despite the brightness around me, I'm still scared and have decided to end the relationship.
Feeling darker than night
I'm leaving you
My sadness and despair are so intense that they feel even worse than the darkness of the night.
I was in comatose
I was out of control
A little frightened of home
I was overdose
I'm leaving you
I was emotionally numb, and overwhelmed by my feelings, which led me to overdose and now I'm leaving you behind.
Contributed by Isaiah T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.