Life of a Nine
Issues Lyrics

Heart broken, throat is swollen.
Feeling intense emotional pain and struggling to express oneself.

Street walking, loss of hope.
Engaging in risky and dangerous behavior as a result of giving up on life.

Fresh wounds, old scars you've chosen.
Continuing to make the same mistakes and re-opening past traumas.

Thirsty for a taste of you.
Desiring connection and affection, but seeking it in unhealthy ways.

She's a mothafuckin' five living the life of a nine,
She thinks she is better than she truly is and living a lifestyle that is beyond her means.

And thinking that she's a bad bitch, chick is a savage.
Believing herself to be powerful and intimidating, but is actually vulnerable and struggling.

Eatin' the bullshit of every player that's grabbing, yeah.
Being taken advantage of by men who do not truly care for her.

I guess if you're in love with the streets, then you'll die in the sheets,
If you are attached to a dangerous or unhealthy lifestyle, it will ultimately lead to your downfall.

With the coke on your chest and his lips on your cheek.
Engaging in substance abuse and promiscuity as a way to escape from reality.

Play it up for me, cause no one here can see,
Putting on a facade to hide one's struggles because no one else truly understands.

All of your schemes so it's more like a dream.
Deceiving oneself and others into believing a false reality.

You can be all that you see when you lie to your mirror.
Creating a false self-image by not being honest with oneself.

It's not the way to do it.
Recognizing that one's current actions are unhealthy and self-destructive.

Can you hear the sound of your heartbeat bumpin' so loud
Feeling anxious and stressed due to the unhealthy lifestyle being lived.

In his car when you're hitting the town, getting around?
Riding around town with men who do not have her best interests in mind.

Sounds so empty, but you pop another pill so you won't feel guilty.
Feeling empty and alone, but using substances to numb the pain and avoid confronting feelings of guilt.

You know the routine, cause when you get lit every guy is the man of your dreams.
Engaging in substance abuse and promiscuity as a way to escape reality and create a false sense of connection with men.

It's so surreal when VIP's on her knees.
Engaging in degrading behavior in order to receive attention and validation.

And caught up in the traffic of midnight madness.
Trapped in a lifestyle that is fast-paced and chaotic, lacking any sense of stability or direction.

If only there was a way to let go of the passion,
Wishing to break free from the cycle of addiction and self-destructive behavior.

For her stiletto complex, in her trap-house fashion.
Being stuck in a certain lifestyle that does not truly reflect who she is or what she wants.

Wanna get in the game? what is your name? wanna have fame?
Asking for attention, recognition, and validation, but seeking it in unhealthy ways.

But in retrospect you're just like your mother you'll never win,
Realizing that the patterns of behavior ingrained in her are likely to lead to continued struggles and lack of success.

You'll never change!
Feeling stuck in her current cycle of behavior and unable to break free from it.

Pretend that you live for this moment,
Living in the present and finding happiness in the moment, regardless of the past or future.

Be sure how you live it is worth every breath.
Making the most of life by making choices that are fulfilling and healthy, rather than self-destructive.