Tears On My Pillow
J.d. Smooth Lyrics

It's been a hell of a year since you haven't been here
My life has been difficult ever since you left me.

Hurts like hell when I wipe my tears
It is very painful to deal with my emotions without you.

Cause you the one who taught me how to show no fear
You taught me to be strong and fearless.

Shit ain't been the same cause you never appear
My life has changed since you left because you are no longer in it.

I feel so alone when I'm all in a crowd
Even when I'm surrounded by people, I feel lonely without you.

You was always there to calm me down
You were always there to support and comfort me when I needed it.

It feels so unfair cause you never is around
I feel like it's not fair that you're not here with me anymore.

I swear your absence is so damn loud
Your absence is so noticeable and it affects me deeply.

Tell you what I've done and you would've been proud
I have accomplished many things that would have made you proud.

Yo eyes would've rained would've thought it was a cloud
You would have shed tears of joy if you were here to see my success.

But never mind that cause we talking bout now
Even though I'm proud of my success, I still miss you and wish you were here with me.

Talk about now I'm a big trend setter
I am successful and have become a trend setter in my industry.

Trust in the process it only get better
I believe in the process and know that things will continue to improve for me.

I beat all my issues I feel like may weather
I have overcome my challenges in life and I feel like a champion.

But you the big issue that's staying forever
However, your absence is a lingering issue that I can't seem to overcome.

Didn't even know that you left a deep wound
I didn't even realize how much your absence would affect me.

Sad to say I'd rather be in a tomb
Sometimes I feel despair and would prefer to be dead than to feel this pain.

Gotta stay strong I made a promise to you
Despite my pain, I am determined to stay strong because I made a promise to you.

I'll meet the promise it'll never be past due
I will keep my promise to you and make sure it is fulfilled.

I'm true to myself
I am honest and authentic with myself.

I'm Setting these goals that is making me wealth
I am setting financial goals for myself that are making me wealthy.

Never again am I asking for help
I am independent and do not want to rely on others for help.

They plotting on me ain't wishing me well
There are people who are trying to bring me down and do not wish me success.

I stay to myself cause these niggas is jokers
I keep to myself because I don't trust others and don't want to be hurt.

Ain't growing at all so it's keeping them lower
Other people who are not trying to grow or improve are limiting themselves.

Invest in myself cause I got the right motor
I am investing in myself because I have the drive and determination to succeed.

My brothers supporting they right by my shoulder
My brothers are supporting me and standing by my side.

By my shoulder till the day I die
My brothers will always be there for me, even until the day I die.

Say it wit confidence I'm not gonna lie
I say this with confidence and I'm telling the truth.

Should've been you on my side
I wish you were still with me and on my side.

It's not in the plan so I'm not gonna try
However, I know that your absence is not going to change and I can't do anything about it.

Cause I don't
I don't have you in my life anymore.

Know you anymore
I don't know who you are or where you are.

So leave me alone
I want to be left alone to deal with my emotions.

No No No No No
I don't want to talk about it anymore.