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Johari Lyrics

For a moment, I can see you
At times, I catch a glimpse of you

Just the surface of what I never knew
But, at best, I only know surface-level details about you

Of what's inside of you
I barely have any understanding of what's going on inside you

How could you get this far?!
I'm stunned that you've come so far, knowing so little about what drives you

Can I wake up to the silence?
May the quiet life be a possibility

To the last of what I thought I knew of you?
To the last shred of familiarity that I thought existed between us?

Of who you led me to?
Of the person you've always suggested you were?

Can I beleive you now?
Should I believe in you again?

How can I trust who you are?!
How can I have faith in the person you actually are?

How can I trust you when what I thought I knew
Implying that the little I knew about you before was - in fact - false

Of who you led me to
Of the person you suggested you were all along?

Is nothing more than a lie?!
Is a lie that has pushed me towards you, one that I can no longer trust

A lie to tell myself, compelling me to you again
I still tell myself the lie that draws me towards you

To have me breathe again
To feel alive once more

A soul to sell,
I've offered my soul to you since you were what I needed then

A heart for telling me to leave again
But that very heart of mine wants me to resist and go away once more

You were what I needed then
I know I needed you before, but not sure if that's still the case

You made me love who you were
You had the power to make me appreciate the person I imagined you to be

A simple lie, keeping me under guard
But it's simpler to keep me in the dark, far from knowing the truth

Another way to my heart that you kept me from finding
That was just another way to keep me away from getting through to your heart

My life in your hands
You had the power to control my life

This is a way of? my life? like sand
My life is nothing but a collection of fleeting moments that I no longer trust

I lie to tell myself, compelling me to see you again
Still, I lie to myself that meeting you again is the right thing to do

To have me breathe again
To feel alive once again

As it's all wrong to beleive you
Since I know now that trusting you is all wrong

You tell me that I am all you have
Yet, you rely solely on me

For a moment I can feel you see me
Sometimes, I sense you're looking back

My soul to sell, the heart for telling me to leave again
But ultimately, I need to stay away despite what sacrifice it requires of me

You were what I needed then
You were a necessity in my life before but not anymore

Cause' it's all wrong, to beleive you
It's just too dangerous to believe you at face value

And you tell me that I am all you need
Yet, you only claim to need me in this whole scenario

And I hope you see me
But I pray you understand who I am

And I hope you need me
And hope you need me for more than what I can offer today

How could you get this far?
How far have you progressed without much of a hint about who you truly are?

For a moment, I can see you
Once in a while, I catch a fleeting glance of the person you might be

Just the surface of what I never knew
But, even then, that view is only the surface

Of what's inside of you
I'm still clueless about what lies beneath your surface-level persona

Can I beleive you know?
Can I trust that you even know yourself?

Is this the way that we are?
Is our dynamic destined to remain this way?

Another path to my heart when what I thought I knew
It seems there is always another route to my vulnerabilities and fears

Of you led me to
The person I thought you were before misled me all along

Is something I can't rely
And that just doesn't help me rely on anything these days