If I Could
K-Group/Peter Hammill Lyrics

Ohh
Expressing pain and grief.

Ohh oh oh oh oh oh
Repeating the expression of pain and grief.

Mmm
Expressing frustration and sadness.

Yeahh
Expressing agreement or confirmation.

I can't help but to think that it's all my fault
Feeling guilty and responsible for the absence of a loved one.

That you're not here with me
Missing the presence of a loved one and feeling lonely.

If I could sell my soul for one more call
Wishing for the chance to speak to the loved one once more.

If I could just say one thing
Wishing for the opportunity to express their feelings to the loved one.

Oh It's been 2 months since you've been gone
Reflecting on the period of time that has passed since the loved one's absence.

And she still can't see herself alone
Not being able to cope with the loss of the loved one and feeling helpless.

My mistakes yeah they been eating me alive
Feeling consumed by guilt and regret for their actions leading to the loved one's absence.

If I didn't make em maybe you'd still be alive
Feeling that their actions directly caused the absence of the loved one.

Oh I think about that everyday
Continuously reflecting on their regrettable actions.

Oh It always crosses my mind
Being unable to stop thinking of their regrettable actions.

(It always crosses my mind)
Reiterating their inability to forget their regrettable actions.

I would tell you that I'm sorry
Expressing regret and seeking forgiveness from the loved one.

I would tell you what's been on my mind
Wanting to express their bottled up emotions to the loved one.

All this shit that I've been feeling is haunting
Being consumed by their feelings and emotions caused by the absence of the loved one.

If I could really be honest
Wishing for the chance to express their true feelings to the loved one.

I would tell you I still cry at night
Confessing their ongoing sadness and pain caused by the loved one's absence.

I missed the family trip cause they ain't want my mom to cry when she saw me
Feeling ostracized from their family and not being included in family events.

I know it still hurt...
Acknowledging the hurt and pain caused by the loved one's absence.

I mean I... I know it's not literally my fault but...
Realizing that they are not entirely responsible for the absence of the loved one.

If I had just handled things differently that day I...
Thinking about how things could've been different if they had acted differently.

I don't know...
Feeling unsure about what could've happened differently.

Maybe things would be different you know?
Thinking about the potential alternate reality where the loved one is still present.

That's why I... I blame myself
Continuing to feel responsible for the loved one's absence despite knowing it's not entirely their fault.

Oh I can't help but to think that it's all my fault
Feeling consumed by guilt and responsibility for the loved one's absence.

If I could just say one more thing
Desperately longing for the chance to express their true feelings to the loved one.

I would tell you that I'm sorry
Wanting the loved one to know how apologetic they are for their actions leading to the loved one's absence.

I'm so sorry...
Repeatedly expressing their deep regret and agony for their actions leading to the loved one's absence.

I miss you like crazy...
Expressing the depths of their longing for the loved one's presence.

I blame myself...
Continuing to feel responsible for the loved one's absence despite knowing it's not entirely their fault.