I Hate Myself
K.Will Lyrics

I hate myself and want to die
I feel deep despair and self-loathing and wish for death as a release from my pain.

Everything i love about my life has crumbled between my fingers
All the things that once brought me joy and fulfillment have been lost or taken away, leaving me feeling empty and hopeless.

I feel like a shell of who i once was
I have lost my sense of identity and purpose, and am merely a hollow version of the person I used to be.

One morning
On a particular day, a significant event occurred that changed my life forever.

My best friend, my only happiness, my most precious gift that my life has given me
The person who was my closest confidante, my source of joy and comfort, and the most valuable presence in my life.

Left
Abandoned me and cut off all ties without explanation or forewarning.

With no warning
Without any indication or prior notice.

Mentally.
In terms of my mental state and emotions.

Emotionally.
In terms of my feelings and psychological well-being.

Physically.
In terms of my bodily sensations and health.

I feel my skin burning every time i think of her name
The thought of this person fills me with intense pain and discomfort that I experience physically.

I was left behind
I was abandoned and left to deal with the aftermath of this person's departure on my own.

I got a bullet in my heart and one that’s pressed in my spine
The pain of this person's departure has hit me in the deepest parts of my being, causing immense emotional and physical pain.

You got hoes and you’ve got nothing to show
This person is engaging in shallow relationships and experiences that hold no real value or significance.

And keep every fucking secret you aint letting me know
This person is keeping important information from me and not being honest and open in our relationship.

You low
You are behaving poorly and acting with low moral character.

FUCK
An expression of extreme frustration, anger, and pain.

YOU!
Directing my anger and frustration towards this person who has hurt me deeply.

I LOVE YOU!
Despite everything, I still have strong feelings of love and attachment towards this person.

I CANT FEEL PAIN!
Expressing a desire to be numb and avoid feeling the intense emotional and physical pain caused by this person's departure.

I just letting you know
I am communicating my feelings and thoughts to this person, despite the pain it brings.

Where the hell did you go?
Expressing confusion and disbelief at how this person could abandon me so abruptly and without explanation.

Cant Feel Pain
Repeating the desire to avoid feeling the intense pain caused by this person's departure, and perhaps implying a loss of empathy or emotional capacity.