Look Away
Kathy Mar Lyrics

Look away, look away, I can't bear
I can't stand to watch them being happy without me

To be watching the love they are sharing
It hurts too much to see them in love

There are too many years I must stay
I have to live with this pain for a long time

Every touch, every kiss is a knife in my heart
Their physical affection is a constant reminder of what I can't have

Oh child, look away
I wish I could shield you from this pain

One never knows from beginnings at all
It's impossible to predict how things will turn out

Just what will be the ends
We can't foresee the outcome of our choices

Lost in the lives of my puppets
I'm so focused on controlling others that I've lost touch with myself

Never quite touched by friends
I've kept people at a distance and never really let anyone in

What I have made of my chances
I've made choices that have led me to this moment

Seemed logical in that hour
At the time, my decisions made sense to me

Choices will haunt forever
The consequences of my actions will always stay with me

No one has all the power
We can't control everything, no matter how hard we try

Given a strange opportunity
I was presented with a unique chance

I chose the road to hell
I made a terrible decision

One who's been taken by fever
I acted impulsively without thinking things through

Acts without thinking too well
I made a mistake because I wasn't thinking clearly

All of the strings I was pulling
I was manipulating people to get what I wanted

And all of the cages closed
I trapped myself in a situation I can't escape from

Left me alone in this wasteland
I'm isolated and miserable

Hidden and so exposed
I'm sheltered from the outside world but my true self is exposed

I will have all of eternity
My regrets will stay with me forever

To regret what I have done
I'll never be able to forget the mistakes I've made

Hours alone in this darkness
I spend a lot of time reflecting on my past in isolation

And days full of torture and sun
Even when I'm out in the world, my pain never goes away

All of my memories dancing
My past mistakes are constantly on my mind

All the repentance that sings
I'm consumed by guilt and regret

I am the puppetmaster
I've been controlling people like puppets

Always without the strings
But now I feel like I have no control over my own life