Kellee moved to Pittsburgh in her late teens with the dream of changing the world. She learned more about the negative sides of our society through study at the University of Pittsburgh and Hip Hop was solidified as her passion and outlet for activism. She also experienced watching her mother go through a near death bout with cancer and used writing as a means to cope. She began performing in 2000 and has not stopped since. However, a sense of not being able to make any real change, a lack of confidence, and need for financial security pushed her into the workforce and on the spiritual journey, which proved to be a unique opportunity to learn about what would became her inspiration as an artist.
Kellee worked in events and promotions at the Pittsburgh City Paper right after college. After her father passed away Kellee again turned to music as a way to cope. Soon after the tragedy, she started her own female owned and operated, socially conscious company, Nakturnal, in hopes of securing a better income to help her mother in the future and allow for growth in her music career. For over two years now, Nakturnal has been considered the leading guerilla marketing and events organization in the region, that works daily for independent artists, worthy causes and is expanding nationally. While Nakturnal was growing, Kellee found more time to record and perform, and released her first album, Age of Feminine. She is currently working on her second release which highlights her mystical side. She is also launching a website that will act as an artistic statement with the help of a huge female team made up of Nakturnal and other talented Pittsburgh based women.
A deeply spiritual person striving to enjoy and appreciate the present, Kellee now sees activism on a energetic level that starts within. She studies the power of intention, meditation, quantum physics, astrology, tarot and other forms of mysticism. She feels her purpose in life is to make music that sends out good energy and makes people think. She believes massive global change is coming and that it starts with the individual. She asserts that our inner world is a mirror of our outer reality and that we have the power to help positively affect the world by "being the change we wish to see", as Ghandi puts it. She believes we are entering a new stage of evolution in human consciousness and hopes that her music inspires change and awareness in the listener. She believes music and art hold the key to the revolution we need and that we can enjoy this moment while opening hearts and minds.
Hawk
Kellee Maize Lyrics
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I can't see u anymore
I am blinded my eyes are on the floor
And like a hawk u swoop into my dreams
I’m feelin duped cause I feel so extreme
Turnin around and I’m wishin u were there
Wishin I had the right words to show I care
U got the drive that can lift me from my seat
When u r near I’m feelin complete
Now broken down I needing ur retreat
How could this happen I thought the search was done inside this battle that nobody has won
I’m So afraid of what giving up will mean
I'm all alone runnin in this scene
Inside my movie that u no longer star
I need ur arms can't feel them from afar
I'm crackin jokes a fake hardy har har
Jump start the car I wanna be right where u r
[Chorus x2]
I can't see u anymore
I am blinded my eyes are on the floor
Tell me where you are
[Emprez Verse]
[Chorus x2]
I can't see u anymore
I am blinded my eyes are on the floor
Tell me where you are [x2]
But u gotta do what u gotta do
I cannot hold u even after what we been thru
This love is real and I pray for u my king
And if my crown falls I will still sing
To the heavens so much joy u can bring
To this world where we both fight for everything
Seeking justice we hold it in our heart
Someday our purpose will be filled then we can start
To build our life but can't we wait
The suffering so easily turned to hate
Cause I am angry that u had to go
But I understand and I hope u know
That I will never love someone like this
The ying and yang the balanced bliss
Pushing me farther that I have ever been
The support of a god I be missin that grin
[Chorus x2]
I can't see u anymore
I am blinded my eyes are on the floor
Tell me where you are [x2]
In Kellee Maize's song "Hawk," the singer is struggling to let go of someone they love. They feel lost and incomplete without them, likening their absence to blindness: "I can't see u anymore / I am blinded my eyes are on the floor." Despite their efforts to move on, this person continues to haunt their dreams like a hawk, reminding them of their presence and the way they made the singer feel. The singer wishes they could express their feelings better and show how much they care, craving the warmth and drive their love brought to their life: "Ur powers warm I'm searchin for the heat / U got the drive that can lift me from my seat / When u r near I’m feelin complete / Now broken down I needing ur retreat."
Line by Line Meaning
I can't see u anymore
I have lost sight of you and I can no longer perceive your presence in my life.
I am blinded my eyes are on the floor
I feel incapacitated and unable to move forward; I am fixated on the ground beneath me.
And like a hawk u swoop into my dreams
You invade my subconscious thoughts and feelings, much like a bird of prey swooping down on its prey.
I’m feelin duped cause I feel so extreme
I am experiencing strong emotions that have caught me off guard, leaving me with a sense of uncertainty and doubt.
Turnin around and I’m wishin u were there
I keep looking back and hoping to see you, wishing you were still in my life.
Wishin I had the right words to show I care
I am regretting not expressing my emotions more effectively and wishing I had communicated my feelings more clearly.
Ur powers warm I'm searchin for the heat
Your energy and influence have a comforting effect on me, and I am searching for more of that warmth and comfort.
U got the drive that can lift me from my seat
Your motivation and ambition inspire me, and have the power to compel me to act and move forward.
When u r near I’m feelin complete
You have a strong positive impact on my emotional wellbeing, and when you are near I feel whole and complete.
Now broken down I needing ur retreat
I am feeling emotionally drained and in need of your support and comfort to help me recover and find balance.
How could this happen I thought the search was done inside this battle that nobody has won
I am questioning how our love could have fallen apart, especially after a long search for love that resulted in an empty and fruitless battle.
I’m So afraid of what giving up will mean
I am terrified of the consequences of letting go of our relationship and what it could mean for me emotionally, mentally and physically.
I'm all alone runnin in this scene
I feel alone and unsupported as I navigate my way through my life's challenges and obstacles.
Inside my movie that u no longer star
I am going through life, but you are no longer playing a major role in my life, even though you were a major player before.
I need ur arms can't feel them from afar
I miss your embrace and I wish I could feel your warmth and affection even though you are not close by.
I'm crackin jokes a fake hardy har har
I use humor to mask my emotions and make it seem that I am ok, even though I am not.
Jump start the car I wanna be right where u r
I want to be where you are and I am anxious to move forward, which is like needing to jump start an engine in a car.
But u gotta do what u gotta do
I understand that you have to do what is best for you, even though it might hurt me.
I cannot hold u even after what we been thru
Despite all that we have been through, I realize that I am not able to hold on to you, and I have to let go.
This love is real and I pray for u my king
Our love was real and powerful, and I am still praying for you and wishing you all the best.
And if my crown falls I will still sing
If I lose everything I have, I will still find joy and happiness, and will still sing and celebrate life.
To the heavens so much joy u can bring
You have the power to bring so much joy and happiness to others and to the world.
To this world where we both fight for everything
We live in a world where we both have to struggle and fight for everything we want and need.
Seeking justice we hold it in our heart
We are both committed to seeking justice and doing what is right, and we hold this ideal close to our hearts.
Someday our purpose will be filled then we can start
Once we have found and fulfilled our purpose in life, we will be able to move forward and start anew.
To build our life but can't we wait
We want to build a life together, but we cannot rush the process and need to be patient.
The suffering so easily turned to hate
The pain of separation and loss can easily turn into resentment and hate.
Cause I am angry that u had to go
I am angry and upset that you had to leave and that our relationship is over.
But I understand and I hope u know
Despite my anger, I do understand that you had to leave, and I hope you know that I still care for you.
That I will never love someone like this
I will never love someone like I have loved you; you were unique and special to me.
The ying and yang the balanced bliss
Our relationship was a perfect balance of opposing forces, leading to a state of pure happiness and joy.
Pushing me farther that I have ever been
Being with you pushed me to grow and move beyond my comfort zone, in ways I never thought possible.
The support of a god I be missin that grin
I miss the love and support that you provided, and that beautiful smile that always lit up my day.
Tell me where you are
I am still searching for you and hoping to find out where you are, both physically and emotionally.
Contributed by Logan V. Suggest a correction in the comments below.