Interested in music from a young age, the San Francisco-born Leff took piano and viola lessons as a child before picking up the guitar around age 11. During high school, he played in several bands and studied jazz before discovering electronic music production. However, it was while attending N.Y.U. as a music tech major in 2014 that a bad breakup found Leff on his own and digging deep into his writing and recording process. Out of this period came the song "The Other," co-written with songwriter/instrumentalist Michael Matosic. Released under Leff's stage name Lauv (inspired by the Latvian "lauva" or lion), the song went viral after gaining blog attention and peaked at number three on blog aggregator Hype Machine. In 2015 he returned with his debut EP, Lost in the Light, which featured "The Other."
More tracks followed, including 2015's "Reforget" and 2016's "Question," featuring Travis Mills. In 2017 Lauv headed his own Late Nights, Deep Talks tour and premiered the official video for "The Other," along with a series of remixes. Released in May of that year, Lauv's single "I Like Me Better" became a breakout international hit and was later featured on his self-titled second EP that October. The single was also included on his full-length debut, 2018's I Met You When I Was 18, which also featured the singles "Paranoid" and "Bracelet." Hit collaborations with Julia Michaels ("There's No Way") and Troye Sivan ("I'm So Tired...") carried him into 2019. Lauv's debut album "~how i'm feeling~" is set to be released in March 2020.
I Have A Problem
Lauv Lyrics
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I'm ashamed but it's okay, I got a friend
I guess we'll split it, take a half
Tell ourselves we're gonna stop and then we laugh
Oh, I got blood in my nose, I got tears in my eyes
Say it makes me alive, tried to quit so many times
But I hate you, even when I say that I'm gonna walk away
Yeah, I come back 'cause I need to
I don't want to, yeah, I say that I'm gonna walk away
But here I am again
Here I am again, mmm-mmm
Where did my feelings go?
I tell myself I don't know
Why am I so alone?
Why am I so alone?
I'm in love with the high but when I come down, I die
Say it makes me alive
Oh, but that's just a lie
I can't put a finger on it, there's no reason that I do it
Maybe it's just 'cause I'm not that confident
But I love you, I need you
I hate you, even when I say that I'm gonna walk away
Yeah, I come back 'cause I need to
I don't want to, yeah, I say that I'm gonna walk away
But here I am again, yeah
Here I am again, mmm-mmm
I love you, I need you
But I hate you, yeah
The song "I Have A Problem" by Lauv explores the conflicting emotions and struggles of someone who is caught in a toxic and addictive relationship. The lyrics depict a sense of shame and guilt as the person addresses a table, symbolizing their addiction, acknowledging their inability to resist its allure. They speak of the cycle of attempting to quit, only to be drawn back in, and the internal turmoil this creates.
The lines "Oh, I got blood in my nose, I got tears in my eyes, Say it makes me alive, tried to quit so many times" suggest that this addiction brings both physical and emotional pain, yet the person continues to find a strange sense of life in it. Despite recognizing the destructive nature of the relationship, they confess to still needing and loving the addiction, even though they hate its grip on them.
The chorus "But here I am again, mmm-mmm, Here I am again" reflects the cyclical nature of addiction, with the repeated phrase emphasizing the inability to break free. The verses continue to question their own emotional state, feeling lost and alone despite being consumed by the addiction's high. The line "I'm in love with the high, but when I come down, I die, Say it makes me alive, Oh, but that's just a lie" conveys the illusion that the addiction brings them life, but in reality, it only leads to their demise.
The bridge of the song delves into the reasons behind this self-destructive behavior, suggesting a lack of confidence and perhaps using the addiction as a coping mechanism to fill a void. The lyrics imply that the addiction provides a false sense of security, even if it is detrimental to their well-being.
Overall, "I Have A Problem" sheds light on the internal conflict and desperation that comes with being caught in a toxic relationship or addiction, depicting the struggle to break free while still holding on.
Line by Line Meaning
Hello, table, we meet again
I find myself in familiar surroundings, feeling a sense of shame but finding solace in the fact that I have a friend by my side to share the burden.
I guess we'll split it, take a half
We will divide the problem and share the responsibility, but deep down we know that our attempts to overcome it will be half-hearted.
Tell ourselves we're gonna stop and then we laugh
We fool ourselves into believing that we can put an end to this problem, but we find it amusing because deep down we know it's not true.
Oh, I got blood in my nose, I got tears in my eyes
My body reacts physically to the extent of this problem, causing me to bleed and shed tears.
Say it makes me alive, tried to quit so many times
I convince myself that this problem brings me a sense of vitality, even though I have made countless attempts to quit and free myself from it.
But I love you, I need you
Despite the negative impact of this problem, I cannot deny that there is a part of me that loves and relies on it.
But I hate you, even when I say that I'm gonna walk away
Despite my contradictory statements about leaving this problem behind, I can't help but feel a deep hatred towards it.
Yeah, I come back 'cause I need to
Against my better judgment, I find myself returning to this problem because there is a part of me that feels a necessity to do so.
I don't want to, yeah, I say that I'm gonna walk away
Although I express a desire to break free from this problem, the truth is that I don't truly want to let go.
But here I am again
Despite all my efforts and promises, I find myself back in the same predicament.
Where did my feelings go?
I question the disappearance of my emotions, wondering why I have become numb or detached from them.
I tell myself I don't know
In an attempt to avoid facing the truth, I convince myself that I am unaware of the reasons behind my emotional detachment.
Why am I so alone?
I contemplate the reason behind my profound sense of loneliness and the role it plays in my struggles with this problem.
I'm in love with the high but when I come down, I die
I am infatuated with the euphoric moments that this problem brings, but the inevitable crash that follows leaves me feeling empty and devastated.
Say it makes me alive
I falsely claim that this problem gives me a renewed sense of life and vitality.
Oh, but that's just a lie
Deep down, I acknowledge that this belief is nothing more than a deceptive lie.
I can't put a finger on it, there's no reason that I do it
I struggle to pinpoint a specific cause or justification for my actions and continued engagement with this problem.
Maybe it's just 'cause I'm not that confident
Perhaps my lack of self-assurance and self-confidence plays a role in my dependence on this problem.
Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Ari Leff, Jasper Sheff, John Carter Cunningham
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Kim Harold Viste
[Verse 1]
Hello, damn, we meet again
Full of shame but it's okay, I got a friend
Guess what's better? Take it out
Tell ourselves we can't stop and then we laugh
[Pre-Chorus]
I got blood in my lungs, I got tears in my eyes
'Til it makes me alive, tried to quit so many times
[Chorus]
But I love you, I need you
But I hate you, even when I say that I'm gonna walk away
Yeah, I come back 'cause I need to
I don't want to, yeah, I say that I'm gonna walk away
But here I am again
Here I am again, and again
[Verse 2]
Girl, you're not feeling so
I tell myself I don't know
Why am I so alone? Why am I so alone?
I'm in love with a high and when I come down, I die
Say you miss me, you lied
Remember that's just a lie
[Pre-Chorus]
I can't put a finger on it, there's no reason that I do it
Maybe it's just 'cause I'm not that confident
[Chorus]
But I love you, I need you
But I hate you, even when I say that I'm gonna walk away
Yeah, I come back 'cause I need to
I don't want to, yeah, I say that I'm gonna walk away
But here I am again, yeah
Here I am again and again, and again
[Outro]
I love you, I need you
But I hate you, yeah
Excel Gladiator
[Verse 1]
Hello table
We meet again
I'm ashamed but it's okay I got a friend
Guess we'll split it, take a half
Tell ourselves that we're gonna stop and then we laugh
[Pre-Chorus]
I got blood in my nose, I got tears in my eyes
Tell me it makes me alive, trying to quit so many times
[Chorus]
But I love you, I need you
But I hate you
Even when I say that I'm gonna walk away yeah
I come back cause I need to
I don’t want to
Yeah, always say that I'm gonna walk away
But here I am again
[Verse 2]
Where did my feelings go
Lie to myself, I don't know
Why am I so alone?
Why am I so alone?
I'm in love with the high but when I come down I die
Saying you miss me a lot
Oh, but that's just a lie
[Pre-Chorus]
I can't put a finger on it, there's no reason that I do it
Maybe it's just 'cause I'm not that confident
[Chorus]
But I love you, I need you
But I hate you
Even when I say that I’m gonna walk away, yeah
I come back cause I need to
I don't want to
Yeah, always say that I'm gonna walk away
But here I am again, yeah
Here I am again and again, and again
[Outro]
I love you
I need you
But I hate you
Steve
You know it's going to be a good month when you have lauv and panic at the disco releasing albums this month 😈👍
Aina D.
love u another lauv and panic! stan
Nerrow Walker
Agreeee
anonymous
Omg yessss
FRIGGin FRIGG
Minus panic at the disco unless you’re 12 or your obsessed with being in junior high again. LAUV is way more talented and grown
Renato Morales
I didn’t like viva las vengance :(. Lauv's album is better
Kim Harold Viste
[Verse 1]
Hello, damn, we meet again
Full of shame but it's okay, I got a friend
Guess what's better? Take it out
Tell ourselves we can't stop and then we laugh
[Pre-Chorus]
I got blood in my lungs, I got tears in my eyes
'Til it makes me alive, tried to quit so many times
[Chorus]
But I love you, I need you
But I hate you, even when I say that I'm gonna walk away
Yeah, I come back 'cause I need to
I don't want to, yeah, I say that I'm gonna walk away
But here I am again
Here I am again, and again
[Verse 2]
Girl, you're not feeling so
I tell myself I don't know
Why am I so alone? Why am I so alone?
I'm in love with a high and when I come down, I die
Say you miss me, you lied
Remember that's just a lie
[Pre-Chorus]
I can't put a finger on it, there's no reason that I do it
Maybe it's just 'cause I'm not that confident
[Chorus]
But I love you, I need you
But I hate you, even when I say that I'm gonna walk away
Yeah, I come back 'cause I need to
I don't want to, yeah, I say that I'm gonna walk away
But here I am again, yeah
Here I am again and again, and again
[Outro]
I love you, I need you
But I hate you, yeah
R Cusick
I think it's "blood in my nose"
EmilTriceps
Hello table*
Sarah
These aren’t the right lyrics…