Desperate
Lecrae Feat. Cam Lyrics

I'm so desperate, I can't believe I've sinned against you
Feeling ashamed and depressed after committing a sin, I plead for forgiveness because I cannot believe I have sinned against you

Create in me a clean heart (I'm so sorry)
I ask you to cleanse my heart of impurities and forgive me for my mistakes

Your mercy is what I need
I need your mercy and forgiveness to ease my pain and overcome my guilt

Woke up this morning too depressed and shamed to leave my bed
I feel depressed and ashamed and cannot bring myself to get out of bed this morning

Can't stand to see my own reflection so I hang my head
I feel so ashamed that I cannot bear to look at myself in the mirror – I hang my head in shame

Feel like a disappointment like the scum of the earth
I feel like a complete failure and worthless like the worst person on earth

I'm so hurt I know you see I can't cover my dirt
I am in so much pain and know that you see through me and know that I cannot hide my flaws and mistakes

My souls dying hearts weak and I can't even cry
My soul feels lifeless and my heart is weak, and I cannot even find the energy to cry and release my emotions

I'm sposed to run to you but WHY I'm such an evil guy
I know I am meant to turn to you for forgiveness, but I am confused and question why I could be such an evil person

The sun's shining but for me it's the darkest of days
Even though the sun is shining, I feel like the day is darker than ever before because of my guilt and pain

Try to pretend it never happened but the guilt remains
I try to ignore my mistake and pretend it never happened, but my guilt still lingers and haunts me

I leave the house it feels like everybody knows I did it
I am so consumed by my guilt that when I leave the house, I feel like everyone knows about my mistake

Feels like they reading my mind and know the sin I committed
I feel like everyone can read my mind and see the sin that I committed even though it is not visible

Through your blood I'm aquitted but my heart doesnt get it
I have been forgiven through your sacrifice, but I am unable to fully believe it and my heart still feels heavy

Oh God I'm desperate for Help cause I'm grieving your Spirit
I am desperate for your help because I have hurt your spirit with my actions

I couldn't sing in the sunday service, Lord I felt fake
I could not sing in church because I felt like a hypocrite and fake due to my guilt

And when they started communion I just made an escape
During communion, I felt so guilty and ashamed that I could not participate and just left the church

I'm in need of your grace
I need your grace and mercy to forgive me so I can move past my guilt

Feels like you hid your face
I feel like you have turned your back on me and are not helping me through this difficult time

Lead me back to cross and show me my sins erased
Guide me back to the path of righteousness, and help me understand that my sins have been erased through your sacrifice

Is Satan tryna trick me and tell me you won't forgive me
I feel like Satan is trying to deceive me and convince me that you will not forgive me for my sins

Cause it's startin to get me
These thoughts are starting to consume me and affect my mental health

Jesus help me quickly I hate wrong I've done
I hate the wrong I have committed and ask for Jesus' help to overcome my guilt

I know we all fall but I feel like the only one
I know we all make mistakes, but I feel like I am the only one who has ever committed this sin

Feels like I should be shunned
I feel like I deserve to be shunned and abandoned because of my sin

Should I punish myself
I wonder if I should punish myself for my mistake instead of asking for forgiveness and moving forward

I know it's dumb cause by your death all my sin has been dealt
I know it is foolish to punish myself because through your death, you have atoned for all of my sins

But my sin is been felt
Even though I know I am forgiven, the guilt and pain from my sin still hurts

I didn't want to do it
I did not intend or want to commit this sin

But what I want to do I don't
I wish I could choose to do what is right, but I struggle to resist temptation and sin

I swear I'm gonna to lose it
I am struggling so much that I feel like I am going to lose my sanity

Try to open my bible I need to read your pages
I try to seek guidance from your word and read the Bible to help me overcome my guilt and seek forgiveness

I need you Lord but my guilt has got me feeling so faithless
I need you, Lord, but my guilt has left me feeling hopeless, and I am struggling to have faith

Help me see where your face is
Guide me to see your presence and give me a sense of direction towards forgiveness and freedom from my guilt

Take me back to the basics
I ask to be lead back to the basics of faith and to be reminded of your love and grace

Help me find my joy in you and not people and places
Help me find my joy and fulfillment in you and not in material things or other people

My sin is ever before me I turned my back on you
I am constantly reminded of my sin and feel like I have turned my back on you because of it

Oh father break and restore me to bring me back to you
I pray that you will break me of my guilt and restore me to a place where I can come back to you

Have mercy on me God according to your steady love
I ask for your mercy based on your never-ending love and grace

Wipe away my transgression and wash me in your blood
Forgive me of my sins and cleanse me of all wrongdoing through your sacrifice

Create in me a clean heart renew a right spirit
Renew my heart and spirit, and create a new sense of direction and purpose in my life.

Don't take your Spirit away your Presence keep me near it
I ask for you to keep me near your presence and not to take away your spirit despite my mistakes

I'm waiting patience on you Lord I know you hear my cry
I am waiting patiently for your response, knowing that you will hear my prayers

Restore your Joy in me
I ask for you to restore my joy and happiness in life, despite my current feelings of guilt and shame

For you alone I live and die
I recognize that my purpose in life is to live and die for you, and I ask for your guidance and forgiveness to lead me down that path

It's you I Glorify cause you don't want my sacrifice
I glorify you because you do not want material sacrifices, but instead seek a true change in my heart and actions

You want me broken and contrite trusting in the Christ
You want me to have a broken and contrite heart that trusts and relies on Christ for forgiveness and guidance

I confess to you my sin and you show me mercy
I confess my sin to you, and you have shown me mercy and have forgiven me

I turn away from it demonstrating that you are worthy
I turn away from my sin, which demonstrates that you are worthy of my forgiveness and trust

Over lust, over pride, over all sin
I choose to overcome my desires of lust and pride, as well as all other sins that have separated me from you

Is my affection for Jesus is who died for all them
My love and affection are for Jesus, who died for all sins and all people, including me

I was lost now I'm found I was toss to the ground
I was once lost, but now I am found and forgiven, despite being thrown to the ground by my sin

My sin weighed on me heavy but I am no longer bound
Even though my sin weighed heavily on me, I am no longer held captive by it since I have turned to you for forgiveness

As sure as Christ wears the crown
I am certain that Christ reigns and is my savior, provider of forgiveness and a guide to life

I know that grace will abound
I know that grace is abundant and that my sins can be forgiven if I turn to you with a truly contrite heart

And even when I feel lost I know in You I am found
Even when I feel lost or guilty, I know that I can always turn to you for forgiveness and guidance, and that I am always found in you