Disappear
Led by Lanterns Lyrics

Living with the devil on my back
Constantly burdened by my own inner demons and negative thoughts

Feel the earth about to crack beneath us
Sense the impending collapse and despair in my life

When I think the worst is done
Just when I believe things can't possibly get any worse

One more path we need to run in pieces
Yet another challenging and broken path we must navigate through

I can't untie the knot behind my back
Unable to release myself from the entanglement and struggles of my past

Or try to hide the loaded mess I am
Cannot conceal the chaotic and troubled state of my being

I'd close my eyes before I stare in to that gun
I would rather avoid facing the imminent danger or threat in my life

But that's it. I'm done
Reaching a breaking point where I can no longer continue

I try to beat it coz the feeling's not the one
Striving to overcome my struggles because they bring me no joy or fulfillment

I try to reach it but I'm blinded by the sun
Attempting to attain happiness and purpose, but feeling overwhelmed and lost

Try not to bottle but I'll blow just like a gun
Attempting to suppress my emotions, but ultimately exploding like a weapon

I've given everything and it's sad to see it go
Having invested all of my efforts and resources, it's heartbreaking to witness it dissipate

But I can't carry on it feels so hollow
Unable to continue as it feels empty and devoid of meaning

And it scares me half to death. Will anybody care
Filled with intense fear and uncertainty, wondering if anyone will even notice or care

When I disappear
When I fade away or cease to exist

It won't stop crawling underneath
The persistent and relentless nature of my struggles never ceases

But I wanna see how it ends
Despite the difficulties, I possess a curiosity to witness the outcome

So I give another little piece of me
Sacrificing more of myself and my well-being

Until there's nothing left to feed my demons
Continuing to deplete myself until there is nothing remaining to fuel my inner struggles

I'll keep an open mind. Look inside
Maintaining a willingness to explore and examine my own thoughts and feelings

Tell me why everything is black and white
Seeking answers as to why life appears so stark and lacking in nuance

All my life I have tried. Now it's time to run
Throughout my entire existence, I have made efforts, but now it is time to escape and seek a new direction

It's not my fault but I've paid for it
Although I am not entirely responsible, I have suffered the consequences

Can't stand the taste of this medicine
Unable to endure the bitter and unpleasant experiences I have encountered

Give me a reason to start again
Yearning for motivation and purpose to begin anew

I need a reason to start again
Desperately requiring a compelling factor to initiate a fresh start