Silence
Leyla Blue Lyrics

3 am
The time of the night when the singer receives an invitation from their crush.

I said I would be in bed by 10
The singer had a strict curfew but they broke it to spend time with their crush.

But then you said to come through
The crush invited the singer to come over despite the late hour.

Talked about nothing with a few fake friends
The artist made small talk with the crush's friends, whom they did not consider to be genuine.

Just to be around you
The artist stayed in the company of the crush, ignoring the presence of other people they did not want to hang out with.

For a minute or two
The singer's time with their crush was brief.

So here I wait
The singer finds themselves waiting for their crush.

Half drunk in the drizzling rain
The artist is feeling intoxicated and is waiting outside in the rain.

In jeans too tight for me to breathe
The artist is wearing uncomfortable clothing for the sake of fashion, even though it is uncomfortable.

But you don't know a single thing
The crush is unaware of the artist's feelings.

Cause I'm screaming in silence
The singer is figuratively screaming out their feelings, but no one can hear them.

I can't say what's on my mind
The artist is unable to express their true feelings to their crush.

Boy you're singing like a siren
The crush's actions and behavior are distracting the singer.

And it's keeping me awake at night
The singer is losing sleep over their feelings for their crush.

I wish you knew
The singer desires for their crush to be aware of their feelings without them having to verbalize them.

But I'm never telling you
The artist is too afraid to confess their feelings to their crush.

Remix plays
The soundtrack is a remix of a song the artist dislikes.

On cheap speakers of a song I hate
The singer does not like the song playing and the singers are not high quality.

Teardrops in the bathroom
The singer has become emotional and shed tears in the privacy of a bathroom.

Don't know what to do
The artist is at a loss for how to deal with their feelings.

So I gloss my lips
The artist tries to distract themselves by putting on lip gloss.

Remind myself that I'm a badass bitch
The artist tries to boost their own self-esteem by affirming themselves as strong and confident.

And I don't really need you
The singer reminds themselves that they do not actually need their crush to be happy or successful.

Til' I believe that it's true
The artist needs to convince themselves that they do not need their crush for their own well-being.

Cause I don't wanna hear you say, you don't want me
The singer would rather continue living in silence than to hear their crush reject them.

And babe, I know it's pathetic that I've stayed
The singer acknowledges that their attachment to their crush despite being ignored is not healthy.

With all these words trapped in my brain
The singer has a lot of unexpressed and unsaid thoughts about their crush.

But till I learn to walk away
The artist knows they need to distance themselves from their crush if their feelings cannot be reciprocated.

Cause I don't wanna hear you say you don't want me too (too)
The artist would rather continue denying their feelings than confront the possible rejection from their crush.

Cause I don't wanna hear you say you don't want me
The singer would rather continue living in silence than to hear their crush reject them.