Lil Lotus was born John "Elias" Villagran in 1994. He grew up in an area just east of downtown Dallas, raised by strict and religious parents. At once sporty and rebellious, he soon developed tastes that were steeped in metal, finding kindred spirits at a local church with whom he started to make music. Metalcore and Christian metal were high on the agenda, the latter of which was accepted by his parents for its sentiment, if not the heaviness. Then, in 2011, when Villagran was just 17 years old, his father passed away -- the man who had given him his first guitar lessons -- leading an already impulsive and defiant teenager to go out on the road and live in his car for two years. When he returned, he eschewed his previous routine of collaborating with metal bands and decided to start writing and recording his own confessional material using minimal equipment.
After moving to L.A., Villagran hooked up with like-minded musicians such as the GothBoiClique collective and Canadian-born artist Nedarb , who produced the material that became the Bodybag EP. When the release took off, he began a period of eventful live appearances but a relatively fallow period for official Lil Lotus releases. Although he was prolifically uploading material onto free streaming services, the next official single with upfront marketing behind it was June 2018's mournful "Leave Me." By November of that year, he was completely drug and alcohol free, leading to a productive month for singles: two collaborative efforts and the acoustic-driven "Over It," the latter being another Nedarb production.
By 2019, Lil Lotus was back to living a comparatively quiet life in Dallas, but the following year brought a glut of releases, making it his most high-profile period to date. In an eight-month stretch, not only did he issue three EPs and two singles but also 2016-2018, a compilation of no fewer than 45 self-recorded tracks from his archives. At this point, Lil Lotus was working on solo music as well as material with post-hardcore band If I Die First and Boyfriendz a collaborative rap group with peers Lil Aaron and Smrtdeath . He stayed busy with these numerous projects, but he found time to issue a trio of EPs in 2020, All My Little Scars, Vol. 1, 2, and 3. New singles soon followed, leading up to the arrival of Lil Lotus' first full-length studio album, Errør Bøy, in August 2021. Released through Epitaph, the set included guest appearances from Lil Aaron , Travis Barker , and Chrissy Costanza .
Released albums
Errør Bøy (August 20, 2021)
Nosebleeder (December 1, 2023)
Fake Love
Lil Lotus Lyrics
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Let′s go
You're just not right for me
I used to call you every evening
But I don′t wanna do this shit no more
Why you always in your feelings?
Why you always bang on my front door?
Yeah, yeah, I think it's time now
Pop a pill, baby, you ain't acting right now
And I′m so sick of always falling in love
I′m so sick of always calling you up
Now you're screaming on the phone ′cause I don't call you enough
Baby, this is toxic, but you′re calling it love
I know you hate to be alone, but I ain't picking you up, no
You just gotta stop acting crazy
You just, calm down
I used to call you every evening
But I don′t wanna do this shit no more
Why you always in your feelings?
Why you always bang on my front door?
And now you wanna make up
But I could show you fake love
I think it's time to break up
I think it's time to break up, time to break up
Now you wanna make up
And I could show you fake love
I think it′s time to break up
Maybe we′re doing too much
Now you wanna make up
And I could show you fake love
I think it's time to break up
Maybe we′re doing too much
I used to call you every evening
But I don't wanna do this shit no more
Why you always in your feelings?
Why you always bang on my front door?
I used to call you every evening
But I don′t wanna do this shit no more
Why you always in your feelings?
Why you always bang on my front door?
I used to call you every evening
But I don't wanna do this shit no more
Why you always in your feelings?
Why you always bang on my front door?
Bye, bitch
In "Fake Love," Lil Lotus sings about a toxic relationship that he wants to end. He is tired of his partner's constant need for attention and affection, and he feels suffocated by their demands. Lil Lotus used to call his partner every evening, but now he doesn't want to deal with their drama anymore. He suggests that his partner pop a pill and calm down, but he also acknowledges that their relationship is toxic. His partner hates being alone, but he can't bear to pick them up anymore. Lil Lotus wants to break up, but his partner keeps begging him to stay. He suggests that they are doing too much, and it's time to let go.
The song's overall themes are loneliness, frustration, and disconnection. Lil Lotus is trying to distance himself from a relationship that no longer serves him, but his partner is not willing to let go. His frustration is palpable in the lyrics, and he tries to convince his partner that their relationship is not healthy. However, his partner keeps coming back, making him feel even more suffocated. In the end, Lil Lotus says "Bye, bitch," implying that he is finally done with the relationship.
Line by Line Meaning
You're just not right for me
The singer indicates that the addressee does not fit with their personal preferences.
I used to call you every evening
But I don′t wanna do this shit no more
Why you always in your feelings?
Why you always bang on my front door?
The singer is tired of calling the addressee and dealing with their emotions and constant attempts to confront the singer.
Yeah, yeah, I think it's time now
Time to chill, baby, girl, you need to lie down
Pop a pill, baby, you ain't acting right now
The singer suggests that the addressee should relax and take some sort of medication to calm down their behavior.
And I′m so sick of always falling in love
I′m so sick of always calling you up
Now you're screaming on the phone ′cause I don't call you enough
Baby, this is toxic, but you′re calling it love
The artist is tired of being in love and calling the addressee, who responds aggressively, which the artist believes is not healthy but the addressee thinks it is an expression of love.
I know you hate to be alone, but I ain't picking you up, no
You just gotta stop acting crazy
You just, calm down
The artist acknowledges that the addressee does not like being alone but insists that the addressee should stop behaving irrationally and that they should calm down.
And now you wanna make up
But I could show you fake love
I think it's time to break up
I think it's time to break up, time to break up
Now you wanna make up
And I could show you fake love
I think it′s time to break up
Maybe we′re doing too much
Now you wanna make up
And I could show you fake love
I think it's time to break up
Maybe we′re doing too much
The singer thinks that the addressee wants to reconcile and they no longer want to be with them, suggesting that they will pretend to love them by showing them fake love. They consider it time to break up and express that they have done too much harm to each other.
Bye, bitch
The singer says goodbye to the addressee in a harsh and disrespectful way.
Writer(s): Andrew Colin Fulk, Josh Strock, John Villagran
Contributed by Thomas W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Kidd Ikarus
This new sound sounds way more mainstream than all his other music, I’m so proud of him. He’s gonna really blow up finally
Hank Hill
Yup
He gonna get radio play soon like n,n
McDudes
@Hank Hill nothing,nowhere is on the radio? :O
Hank Hill
@McDudes yeah I heard blood 2 times, and fake friend a few times
Clay Herrera
I’m sure he would absolutely hate you said that
Andrew Potter’s Field
This is a chill emo jam to throw on in the car
tofaided
facts
Greg Leigh
Well the ratio of haters to non haters has gone down significantly, there's that at least . Proud of you Lotus :)
goosebumps
Dude im sorry but this guy is so bad, as if was the Off brand goth 24kGoldn. Lmao
goosiy
@goosebumps lil lotus has been at this for years bro...