Savior
Lindsay Schoolcraft Lyrics

Flashes of light through the night, I'm wide awake
I am struggling to sleep, plagued by thoughts of the past and present that keep me up throughout the night. The flashes of light may represent moments of clarity and understanding that I experience through the darkness.

Sanctuary for me, I can't keep when I'm your sacred place
Although I find comfort and security in the presence of someone who holds me up on a pedestal as a hero or idol, I cannot maintain this sort of status. It is not fair for me to be the sole source of hope and happiness for someone else.

And you take and you take and you take and it's never enough
Despite my best efforts to give and take care of someone who needs me, their demands seem to be insatiable. No matter how much I sacrifice, it feels like it is never enough.

Till I break with mistakes, then you see I'm not some perfect god
Eventually, under the constant pressure and expectation to be a savior, I make mistakes and the facade of perfection that I have built up is broken. This realization can be difficult for someone who has put all of their trust and faith in me.

I am not the savior that you seek
I am not capable of solving all of your problems and being the perfect source of support and guidance that you are looking for.

I can't bare the weight of your prayers
I cannot shoulder the burden of responsibility that comes with being someone's lifeline. It is unfair to both of us for me to take on this role.

Don't worship me
I do not want to be idolized or put on a pedestal as someone who is above human flaws and limitations. This puts unnecessary pressure and expectation on me, and can also be unhealthy for the person doing the worshiping.

Your life in my hands, this demand, it's so unfair
Having someone else's life depend on my actions and decisions is a heavy burden to bear. The demand for me to be responsible for someone else's well-being is unfair and unrealistic.

Now where has my time gone? Are my rights wrong?
The constant demand for me to be a savior has taken up so much of my time and energy that I no longer have time for myself. It makes me question whether it is even right for someone to expect so much from me.

You're not getting better
Despite all of my efforts to help and be there for someone, they are not improving or getting better. This can be frustrating and disheartening for both of us.

And you take and you take and you take, when will this stop?
The never-ending cycle of someone needing and taking from me is draining and I am wondering how long it will continue before enough is enough.

It's too late and I hate what we create and still you want it all
Even though the dynamic that has been created between us is toxic and I hate the way it makes me feel, the other person still wants everything from me. This is not sustainable or healthy for either of us.

It's not that I don't care
I do care about the other person and their well-being, but I cannot be solely responsible for it.

Now that I can't be there
I have reached a breaking point where I cannot be there for the other person in the way that they need me to be. This realization is difficult for both of us.

Did all I could to help
I have done everything in my power to support and guide the other person, but it is time for them to take responsibility for their own life.

Only you can save yourself because
Ultimately, the other person is the only one who can take control of their own life and make the necessary changes to improve it. It is not my responsibility to do it for them.

There's only so much I can give away today
I have reached my limit in terms of how much I can sacrifice and give to someone else. I cannot continue to pour from an empty cup.

I know exactly what tomorrow will bring because
Based on the past experiences and patterns in our relationship, I know exactly what to expect from tomorrow and it is not healthy or sustainable for either of us.

Because of yesterday
Our relationship is heavily influenced by past events and dynamics that have created an unhealthy and unsustainable situation. It is time for us both to move forward and create healthier boundaries and expectations.