Conviction
Lucidious Lyrics

All of my life
I have been living, experiencing, and growing for the entirety of my existence

I been trying to get it right
I have been striving to live my life in the best possible way

I keep gripping on this mic
I hold onto this microphone as a means of expressing my thoughts and feelings

I ask the Lord to take my soul into the night
I seek spiritual guidance and comfort from a higher power in my pursuit of living a fulfilling life

Looking within man I been struggling with an addiction
I have been facing difficulties and obstacles related to addictive behaviors, emotions, or thoughts

I can't get up and I been stuck inside of this affliction
I feel trapped and unable to overcome the struggles that come along with my addiction

Pain I'm feeling I think that I'm in a bad condition
The pain I am experiencing has led me to believe that I am in a difficult and unhealthy state

I hear myself saying to stop, I never listen
Despite hearing my inner voice urging me to halt my harmful behaviors, I struggle to take heed to this advice

Will I ever forgive myself for all these bad decisions?
I question whether I will ever be able to come to peace with the choices I have made

Even if I did will God given me his blessed permission
Even if I were to forgive myself, I wonder if I could ever earn the approval and forgiveness of a higher power

Let me into his kingdom I've lived in opposition
I desire to be accepted into a higher realm, yet my past mistakes and harmful behaviors have caused me to live in opposition to this goal

Will you hear my submission preaching with my own conviction
I ask if others will tune in and listen to my message as I speak from a place of strong belief and conviction

What happened to my ambition that I had when I was a kid
I reflect on a time when I was filled with energy and drive, and wonder how I lost that sense of purpose

I lost my mission, I'm in a prison I'm hearing the record skip
I feel lost and trapped in a metaphorical prison, and the sense of being stuck is overwhelming

Incarcerated by these bars that I put into words
The words I use to express myself can also feel like a form of imprisonment, as they reveal the struggles I face internally

Contemplating conformity so my musics heard
I wrestle with the idea of changing who I am and how I create music in order to appeal to a broader audience

People tell me they feel what I say, even if it burns
I acknowledge that the words I use in my music can be painful, yet some relate to them anyway

Not a negative person don't ever misinterpret the messages that I convey
I aim to be clear that my music is not meant to promote negativity or harmful actions, but rather to express the real and raw emotions I experience

If I did it I swear that it wasn't on purpose I'm giving you everything that I have got
Any moments in my music that may seem negative were not intentional, but rather a reflection of the honest and vulnerable parts of me

Spitting the truth in all of my verses
I am dedicated to being as truthful and authentic as possible in my lyrics

Lot of people say to be honest when I write my music
I have heard others advise that I should seek and express honesty and vulnerability in my art

But honestly my honesty would come off too intrusive
I worry that my truthfulness could feel too invasive or intense for some listeners

How can I rap about this shit in a club on a Friday night
I struggle to understand how the raw emotions and realities I seek to express can fit into the often superficial and party-focused environment of a club

Exchange my thoughts for getting money and them bitches hyped
I am hesitant to compromise the integrity of my art and message in order to profit or gain popularity

I care about my family, I care about my image
My priorities include caring for and being loyal to my loved ones, as well as being mindful of how I am perceived by others

One day I'll be a father
I anticipate one day raising and caring for a child

One day I'll make mine proud
I desire to achieve and accomplish things that will make my family feel proud of me

One day I'll be watching over my family in the clouds
I strive to be a source of protection and guidance for my family, even after I pass away

When I made changes and reflections I was stressing and damn
I recall a time when making changes and reflecting on my choices and experiences caused me anxiety and distress

Still looking in the mirror trying to find who I am
I continue to search for and discover my true self, even as I navigate through life's challenges

Man I ran away from home, I left my girl alone
I reflect on a time when I made the choice to leave home and abandon a relationship

I took a shot in the dark and I left my comfort zone
I stepped out of my usual routines and safe spaces in order to take a risk and try something new

I'm pretty proud of that no one can take it from me
Despite the challenges and obstacles I faced, I am proud of the choices I made and the risks I took

To those who stayed by my side you'll be here for all the glory
I recognize and appreciate the individuals who have stayed in my life and supported me through challenges and successes

Protect those that I love and I carry y'all in my heart
I prioritize the safety and wellbeing of my loved ones, and hold them close emotionally even when we are apart

I know that y'all will be there even if I fall apart
I trust that the people I love will continue to be present for me and support me even if I am struggling or experiencing difficulties

Man I graduated college
I received a degree from a college or university

And I began to acknowledge
I started to become aware and recognize certain truths about myself and the world around me

There's a lot more to life then being socially polished
I realize that there is more to living a fulfilling life than seeking popularity or fitting in with social norms

Find people that you love hold em close and never let go
I encourage others to cultivate strong, loving relationships and cherish those bonds

Take a chance in your life or you're never gonna grow
I believe that taking risks and stepping into the unknown is essential to personal growth and development

Say what's real when you're talking about what you really feel
I urge others to speak honestly and authentically, expressing their true emotions and experiences

No point in hiding behind insecurities you fear
I advise against concealing one's true self behind fears and insecurities

Look at me I took a leap of faith displaying my flaws
I share my own vulnerabilities and flaws as a testament to how taking risks and being honest can be rewarding

Even though I know everyone I know is gonna hear this song
I am aware that this song will reach many people, including those who know me personally

Man I used to kick back with Eminem on
I reference a connection or shared interest I had with rapper Eminem

I would listen in awe drift away with headphones on
I would listen to music with a sense of respect and wonder, allowing myself to become lost in the sounds

Dream of the lights the stage and the action
I used to envision myself performing on stage and experiencing the excitement of live entertainment

I am thankful to all of my role models who gave me this passion that I was lacking
I express gratitude towards those who inspired and motivated me to pursue my own creative passions

Live like you'll die today, dream like you'll live forever
I subscribe to a philosophy of living fully in the present moment while simultaneously focusing on achieving long-term goals

A quote that I follow I learned from my desperate measures
I attribute my inspiration for this philosophy to a time when I was in a difficult and trying situation

But I keep on pushing I see the sun through the stormy weather
Despite obstacles and hardships, I continue to persevere and hold onto hope

I bow my head and pray knowing one day it will get better
I turn to my faith and belief in a brighter future as a source of comfort and motivation

Will get better
I hold onto the hope and belief that things will improve in the future