Black Widow
Mac Lethal Lyrics

I feel that sting in my toxic heart
I am deeply hurt and affected by the toxic emotions within me

I can't heal that thing cause your claws are sharp
I am unable to recover from the pain caused by your hurtful actions

It was nothing to you, when you cut me in two
You didn't care about the significant damage you caused when you betrayed me

Left me kicked to the curb feeling ugly and blue
You abandoned me, leaving me feeling rejected, unattractive, and depressed

I let these fictions capture me
I allowed myself to be consumed by false narratives and illusions

And it's a lot easier than it has to be
Indulging in these illusions is a simpler escape than facing reality

You taste like bitch beer practically
Your essence resembles a weak, contemptible drink

And that's a flavor of my sick sick rhapsody
This unsavory taste embodies the twisted melody of my disturbed state

I'm gonna shoot my dope in the bathroom stall
I will resort to using drugs in the seclusion of a public restroom

Try to turn my woes around
I hope to reverse my hardships and find some relief

I'm gonna stir my whiskey with a nail
I will mix my whiskey with a dangerous object like a nail

I'm gonna guzzle that poison down
I will quickly consume this lethal substance

I'm gonna spend my rent money at the bar
I'll use my money allocated for rent to indulge in excessive drinking at a bar

Because I'm really not all that rich
I don't have much money and shouldn't be spending it irresponsibly

I'm gonna turn my cell phone off right now
I will deactivate my phone to avoid contacting the person I am fixated on

Cause I don't wanna call that bitch
I don't want to succumb to the temptation of reaching out to that person and feeling more pain

I love a girl that don't love me
I have strong feelings for someone who does not reciprocate them

And I call that girl Black Widow Spider
I refer to her as a black widow spider, symbolizing how she ensnares and destroys me

I need to find me a brand new fix
I must seek a new obsession or distraction to replace my current unhealthy infatuation

And bring her back home just to lay beside her
I desire to bring this new person into my life and spend intimate moments with them

On the syncopated measure
In a fluctuating rhythm and arrangement

I say a little somethin' to alleviate the pressure
I express a few words to relieve the emotional burden I'm carrying

Cause everything about you is deviant and clever
Every aspect of your character is deceitful and cunning

You say we need to treat each other better
You claim that we should improve our treatment of one another

Uh, are you joking?
Are you really saying this with sincerity or just mocking?

I feel like a wounded puppy
I am emotionally wounded and vulnerable like an injured puppy

Stupid, ugly
I feel foolish and unattractive

You used to love me
There was a time when you had feelings for me

but instead of being hurt I'll just think about the time you gave me road-head
Instead of feeling pain, I will reminisce about the intimate act you performed on me

Bitch
A derogatory term used to display anger and hostility towards you

Tell that dude not to answer your phone when I call you
Instruct that person not to pick up your phone when I try to reach out

I'll take a ball bat to his truck
I will violently damage his vehicle with a baseball bat

I'd rather just leave you a 45 minute long rant on your answering machine cuz I'm drunk
I prefer to leave you a lengthy, intoxicated rant on your voicemail instead

Plus I can delete it all and re-record it
I have the ability to erase the message and record a new one

I wanna thank you for the grief and torment
I sarcastically express my gratitude for the pain and suffering you've caused me

The ghost in the blanket felt like you
The presence that haunts me is reminiscent of you

And my bedroom fragrance smells like you
The scent in my room reminds me of you

I'm gonna punch me a hole in the closet door
I will physically vent my anger by creating a hole in the closet door

And try to turn my woes around
I will attempt to reverse my troubles and find some relief

I'm gonna stir my brandy with a nail
I will mix my brandy with a dangerous object like a nail

I'm gonna guzzle that poison down
I will consume that toxic substance quickly and recklessly

I'm gonna work things out on the telephone
I will communicate and resolve issues through phone calls

Call one time only, that's it
I will make just one phone call and nothing more

I'm gonna break my telephone on the ground
I will throw and shatter my phone on the floor

So I don't drunk dial that bitch
To prevent myself from impulsively calling that person while intoxicated

There's a black raincloud floatin in my head
I am plagued by a metaphorical dark cloud of negativity and sadness

I always lose at the game of love
I consistently experience defeat and heartbreak in matters of romantic relationships

I gotta cleanse this nightmare out my system
I need to rid myself of this tormenting and distressing experience

Somebody wake me up
I yearn for someone to snap me out of this painful reality

I'm gonna pop me a pill, gonna die for the girl that'll let me die for her
I will take a pill and risk my life for a girl who would allow me to sacrifice myself for her

Cause my ex girl wanna ask me why I feel so strongly like I'm sure
My former girlfriend questions why I have such intense and unwavering emotions

C'mon
An expression of encouragement or urging