Ghosts
Mallory Merk Lyrics

Unfamiliar faces, can't see through the smoke in my kitchen
The singer is surrounded by people they don't know and the smoke clouding their vision adds to their sense of confusion and isolation

And I'm thinkin' of ditchin' this place
The singer is considering leaving the party because they feel uncomfortable and disconnected from the people around them

Are these people, lightin' up my room just by leavin'
The singer feels that the people around them have a negative energy that somehow affects the space and atmosphere around them, even after they leave

Probably with something backward
The artist suspects that the source of this negative energy comes from something unhealthy or dysfunctional that these people bring into the room

Would you take my sorrow with you?
The artist is reaching out to someone, asking for emotional support and comfort

And if it wasn't for the money, I know you would've probably left me by now
The singer thinks their partner may only be staying with them for financial reasons, and worries they wouldn't be together otherwise

And if I wasn't lonely, I know I would've kicked you out myself
The singer realizes they put up with their partner's flaws and negative traits because they fear being alone

And my vision's blurry, I can't see the curse I had
The artist feels like they are under some sort of spiritual or emotional curse, but they can't clearly identify what it is

But I wish I wasn't lonely, I know I would've kicked you out
The artist is acknowledging that their loneliness makes them tolerate a lot of things they wouldn't otherwise accept in a relationship

Rather be alone than around a bunch of clones that remind me
The artist would rather be alone than spend time with people who feel like they are all the same, and who emphasize the artist's own self-hatred

Of all the parts about me, that I hate
The singer struggles with a negative self-image and feels that being around certain types of people emphasizes that negativity

Don't pick up my phone, I'm down a rabbithole with some old friends
The artist is isolating themselves from their usual support group and spending time with old, potentially unhealthy acquaintances

Who know how to ghost me, by the end of the high
The singer's old friends have a habit of disappearing or distancing themselves when things get tough or when the high of a situation wears off

But they'll be back again
The singer recognizes that their old friends are unreliable and unhealthy but feels that they have no other choices for companionship

I press my luck, makin' deals with my demons
The singer is making rash decisions or engaging in unhealthy behaviors, even though they know they shouldn't

And they had their fun but the scales are uneven
The artist acknowledges that their unhealthy choices may have brought temporary relief but have created more problems for them in the long run

Kicked you out
The artist feels like they have put up with subpar treatment from others for too long and are taking steps to reclaim their own sense of self-worth and agency