Leaky Breaks
Manchester Orchestra Lyrics

Leaky holes and fire escapes will set the evening for tone
Small imperfections, whether it is a leaking hole or a fire escape, have the ability to define one's overall perspective of an experience or an event.

You and your holy halo started burning eventually just froze
You, who I once viewed as an idealistic person with a 'holy halo', eventually changed into someone I did not recognize and became emotionally numb.

Sewn into the carpet just trying to thaw out whatever I know
Feeling stuck and uncertain, I try to break free and re-examine everything that I once believed to be true.

The thermostat won't go higher not that you or I know
Despite our mutual understanding of the coldness and tension between us, neither of us has the ability to make amends and fix the issues in our relationship.

And I was drinking heavily
I was using alcohol as a means of coping with the difficulties and pain that I was experiencing in my life.

I burst into your bedroom belligerently
I showed up at your bedroom aggressively and without restraint.

Asked her if she's done a thing like stepping out and making a scene
In my drunken state, I accused you of being unfaithful or betraying me in some way.

So foolishly I was apathetic so I blamed your family and never mended it
My foolishness and indifference caused me to blame your family for our problems and avoid trying to repair our relationship.

Shitty brakes and balding tires we're out around on the road
The car we were driving in had terrible brakes and balding tires, making the journey dangerous and unpredictable.

You and my little sister, flashy frequent scariest snow
You and my younger sister were driving in the car with me, trying to navigate through the snow in a flashy and reckless manner.

And we return just fine
Despite the dangerous driving conditions, we managed to come back unharmed.

I started to crack your analytical code
I began to understand your emotions and reasoning behind your actions.

By the time you're convinced, I know
Even though it may take you some time to come to a conclusion or resolution, I already know the answer.

Yelled about a bunch of things that if you looked you'd never see for our eternities
I shouted about a number of things that you could never comprehend or see from my perspective, as they were deeply rooted in my own experiences and emotions.

And I blamed you for not being someone you could not be someone you'll never be
I unjustly placed blame on you for not being able to fulfill my unrealistic expectations of who you were or who you could become.

Now I see everything and everyone you see
I have gained a new perspective and understand the experiences and perspectives of both yourself and those around me.

Killing time alone inside a stripped and nakedest home
I am spending time alone in a house emptied of all possessions and distractions, left only with my thoughts and feelings.

Couldn't catch my brain up with the sights and fear that I saw
My brain was struggling to keep up with the frightening sights and experiences that I was witnessing.

Fell into the doorway hoping you had left the guitars
I stumbled into the doorway, wishing that you had left behind something that could offer me comfort or solace.

It's way too late for calling anyways I guess I'll doze off
It is too late at night to try and contact you, so I will fall asleep instead.

My mind it wanders onto things that if I try I can't explain
My thoughts drift towards things that I cannot quite comprehend or put into words.

As if there's something worse, to have weaned away your worth, when I was so absurd
It feels as though there is something much worse than our current state, something that cannot be reversed, and I realize that my own behavior was the cause of it.

Well is there something worse?
I am left wondering if there is something even more distressing or irreversible than what has already occurred between us.