Contemptress
Maria Brink Lyrics

In darkness, you're all around me
The darkness represents the negative emotions surrounding the singer, and the subject she is singing about is the source of that darkness.

I know our future, I feel your body
The singer has a sense of what is to come regarding their relationship, and is very familiar with the subject's physicality.

What if I told you that I planned this?
The singer is suggesting that the situation they are currently in was not accidental, but rather something that they may have put some thought into.

What if I want to lose control?
Despite previous planning, the singer is still questioning if they want to keep that control or to let go.

What if I take the blame and become the drug
Continuing with the previous lines, the singer is contemplating becoming a source of addiction and allowing the blame to fall on them.

And dissolve as you swallow?
The singer is willing to give up themselves to satisfy the subject's desires, at any cost.

Covered in your silhouette
The focus is currently on the subject, and the singer is describing being completely immersed in their presence.

Elated for your bitter end
Despite loving the subject, the singer is happy with how their relationship will eventually end because of the pain caused.

Don't hide the shame from our lips
The artist is encouraging the subject to be truthful, and to not hide the pain and shame they cause them.

(Glowing in amber, burn in sin)
A poetic image of the destructive nature of the relationship, emphasizing how it can appear beautiful while being sinful and harmful.

Against the wall, we fall from grace
The relationship is taking a negative turn, and they can't help but spiral down into destructive behaviors.

The pain we love is taking shape
Despite causing them pain, the singer loves the subject, and that love is becoming clear in their actions.

A burning lust to touch the flame
The attraction towards the subject is overwhelmingly strong, despite knowing how much damage it causes.

Over and over again
The cycle of destruction has happened multiple times, and keeps repeating.

We've played this role a thousand times
The singer and subject have been through this situation an immeasurable amount of times, and the wear and tear is evident.

The same old script, just different lies
Despite the specific situations being different every time, the overarching story has the same beats and emotions, with the subject telling new lies to cover their past misdoings.

You disappear without a trace
The subject is elusive, and it's difficult to find them or determine their true motives.

Concealing the crimes on your face
The subject is covering up their faults, making themselves out to be a victim with no guilt.

Beneath all the pleasure, all you are is pain
Despite the immediate pleasure the subject brings, there is nothing below the surface but pain and misery.

And you deserve every second of your suffering
The subject has caused the singer so much pain that they believe they deserve whatever negative things come their way.

But yet I can't stop, crawling to your doorstep
Despite knowing all the harm the subject will cause, the singer keeps coming back for more.

Every time you beckon
The subject has some sort of hold on the singer that makes it almost impossible to ignore them.

I'm self destructing, trust in nothing
The singer is so caught up in the toxicity of the relationship that they can no longer trust anything, not even themselves.

Save me
The singer is pleading for help or a way out of the damaging situation.

You burn like a cigarette
Continuing with the metaphor of the subject being akin to a drug, the singer describes their presence in terms of being harmful and addictive.

I took my time to suck you in
Despite the potential for danger, the singer deliberately got closer to the subject, and enjoyed it thoroughly.

So take me out of my head
The singer wishes to be released from their own thoughts and feelings, as they are causing a great deal of pain.

And spread your ashes on my skin
The singer wants to be consumed by the subject completely and feels like they need to be closer still, no matter the cost.

Your skin like winter
The subject is described in chilly terms, emphasizing their cool exterior that covers their more insidious nature.

I felt you shiver
The singer is intimately connected with the subject and can feel every movement and reaction they make.

I heard you whisper
The singer is paying close attention to the subject, even in moments where they might not be expecting to be observed.

But the pills were quicker
Despite the closeness, the artist couldn't get to the subject fast enough, and they succumbed to their addiction before they could do anything to help.

I watched you wither
The consequences of the subject's actions are having a demonstrably negative impact on them, and the singer is forced to watch it all happen without being able to stop it.

I am the killer
The singer is struggling with their place in the narrative and their own culpability in the relationship's destructive nature.

We beg like dirt and flesh disarms
No matter how downtrodden they get, the singer and subject keep begging for each other's attention, and can't seem to walk away from the harmful situation.

We built it up, to fall apart
Despite starting with good intentions, the relationship ultimately falls apart every time, as neither party is able to communicate honestly with the other.

Even the honesty was fake
Despite the surface-level attempt at truthfulness, both parties were keeping secrets and telling lies throughout the whole ordeal.

Concealing the crimes on your face
The subject continues to hide their guilt and responsibility for the situation, even as it falls apart around them.