Mena was thirteen years old she moved to live with her musician father. She sang and wrote lyrics as a form of therapy for her feelings and frustrations. Not all the stories in her diary became songs, but "My Lullaby" was one of them, expressing her pain from her parents' divorce. After pleading with her father to make a demo, he contacted some industry experts to record Maria's songs in the studio. Then he presented his daughter's demo to the music industry. Sony Music signed Maria Mena to their label.
In March 2002, Mena's single "My Lullaby" reached number five in the Norwegian charts. The young singer quickly gained fans and soon earned her first platinum record. 2005 saw the release of Apparently Unaffected, including singles "Miss You Love" and "Just Hold Me". A significant success in Norway, the album gained three Spellemann nominations: best female artist, best hit, and best music video.
In September 2008 Mena's fifth studio album was released, Cause and Effect.
Am I Supposed To Apologize
Maria Mena Lyrics
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Gave it to the world
Told the story
Of when I was just a girl
I sought understanding
Clarity in truth
By baring all the wounds
You criticized my choice
To stand up to my past
To give the pain a voice
So that it too could pass
But I felt brave
And filled with pride as I let go
Of bitterness that wouldn’t leave or let me grow
And I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
I loved her more than myself
But she made me choose
Between her and my father
And so I refused
I fled her house and wrath
Eleven years of age
Followed the crooked path
That led me to a stage
The curtains opened up
My heart followed the lead
The music wouldn’t stop
And I could finally breathe
But I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
The lyrics to Maria Mena's "Am I Supposed To Apologize?" detail her experience growing up in a broken home and the emotional scars and trauma that it has left on her. The journal that Mena refers to is the song itself, which she uses to express the pain and suffering that she had to endure because of her familial situation. She was raised by her mother and grandmother, but her mother forced her to choose between her and her father, leading Mena to leave home at the young age of eleven. The song is a testament to the fact that even when family is supposed to be the most important thing in life, it isn't always the safe space or support system that it's supposed to be.
Mena's lyrics are empowering, as they express the bravery she feels in speaking out about the abuse she faced in her childhood. She also discusses the difficulties of being a survivor and feeling like she needs to apologize for the hurt that she has caused as a result of her experiences. Her questioning of whether or not she is supposed to apologize speaks to the larger societal pressures placed on women to smooth over conflicts and apologize for things that are not their fault. Mena ultimately rejects this idea and embraces her own story and truth.
Line by Line Meaning
I wrote a song, a journal
I expressed my deepest feelings through my writing.
Gave it to the world
I shared my story publicly.
Told the story
I recounted the events of my life.
Of when I was just a girl
During my childhood and adolescence.
I sought understanding
I desired clarity and comprehension.
Clarity in truth
I wanted to uncover the truth and make sense of it.
By baring all the wounds
By revealing all the hurt and pain.
Inflicted on my youth
That I experienced in my younger years.
You criticized my choice
Others disagreed with my decision.
To stand up to my past
To confront my traumatic and challenging experiences.
To give the pain a voice
To express my pain and suffering.
So that it too could pass
So that I could heal and overcome these difficulties.
But I felt brave
I felt courageous and empowered.
And filled with pride as I let go
I felt proud of myself for moving forward.
Of bitterness that wouldn’t leave or let me grow
I left behind my negative feelings that were holding me back.
And I will spend a lifetime
I am committed to understanding.
Trying to understand
I will strive to comprehend these experiences.
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Why a family member.
Would not lend me their hand
Did not offer me assistance or support.
Am I supposed to apologize?
Should I apologize for sharing my story?
Am I supposed to apologize?
Should I feel guilty for speaking out?
I loved her more than myself
I cared very deeply about this family member.
But she made me choose
But she put me in a difficult position.
Between her and my father
Between her and another family member.
And so I refused
I made a decision and stood firm.
I fled her house and wrath
I left the situation to protect myself.
Eleven years of age
I was very young.
Followed the crooked path
I had a difficult and unconventional journey.
That led me to a stage
That ultimately brought me to this point in my life.
The curtains opened up
I found an outlet to express myself.
My heart followed the lead
I let my emotions guide me.
The music wouldn’t stop
I found solace and an escape in music.
And I could finally breathe
I felt a sense of freedom and release.
But I will spend a lifetime
I am still reflecting on these experiences.
Trying to understand
I am still striving to comprehend my past.
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Why a family member.
Would not lend me their hand
Did not offer me assistance or support.
Am I supposed to apologize?
Should I feel guilty for my choices?
Am I supposed to apologize?
Should I apologize for protecting myself?
Contributed by Maya T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
- Raecat -
[Verse 1]
I wrote a song, a journal, gave it to the world
Told the story of when I was just a girl
I sought understanding clarity in truth
By baring all the wounds inflicted on my youth
You criticized my choice to stand up to my past
To give the voice so that it too could pass
But I felt brave and filled with pride as I let go
Of bitterness that wouldn't leave or let me grow
[Pre Chorus]
But I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand..
[Chorus]
Am I supposed to apologize?
I~'m supposed to apologize?
I~'m supposed to apologize?
I~'m supposed to apologize?
I~'m...
[Verse 2]
I loved her more than myself but she made me choose
Between her and my father and so I refused
I fled her house and wrath eleven years of age
Followed the crooked path that led me to a stage
The curtains opened up my heart followed the lead
The music wouldn't stop and I could finally breath
Pre Chorus]
But I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand..
[Chorus]
Am I supposed to apologize?
I~'m supposed to apologize?
I~'m supposed to apologize?
I~'m supposed to apologize?
I~'m...
[Instrumental]
Sapphic Solace
The line about letting go of bitterness resonates with me. If there is one thing I would like to share with you all (being most likely older than all of you) it is this:
Holding onto pain and resentment caused by others will only damage you. I was sexually assaulted by my mother's ex husband when I was 5 to 7 years old, and I carried that guilt for 12 years. I carried it, as it ate away at my very being. It filled me with resentment, and bitterness. I couldn't understand why someone would do that to a child.
One day, something hit me. I realised that there was no need to keep holding onto it. I realised that by holding onto it, either by choice or not, was killing me.
Learning to forgive was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life, but it let me be able to live my life, without carrying the weight of my past. I will never understand why he would do that to me, but by letting go of the hatred in my heart, I felt so much lighter. So much more free. I didn't forgive for his sake, but for my own.
I hope even one person can take something away from this.
~Tomboy_ Studios~
Hey!
Look, don't cry, cuz every girl is a Princess from her heart and-
If someone broke your heart don't cry because God has decided it especially as he wants you to meet someone much better than that person ❤
In the world, even though you haven't seen it yet, there is a person who will die for you
Yea, yea. Now you're going to think, "Not me, this person is just being nice, they don't even know what I'm going through!"
But no, I may not know what you are going through, but I do know that you are special!
If you are not a princess, then you're a Queen
Oh Yeah!
You dropped something!
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You're strong! 💜
Because
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Smile.
Enjoy life.
Don't lose hope.
Remember, you have friends; and even if you don't have any, then I am your friend.
You are strong, wonderful and one of a kind
Hey!
Don't
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Blossum Chu
I wrote a song, a journal gave it to the world
Told the story of when I was just a girl
I sought understanding clarity in truth
By baring all the wounds inflicted on my youth
You criticized my choice to stand up to my past
To give the pain a voice so that it too could pass
But I felt brave and filled with pride as I let go
Of bitterness that wouldn't leave or let me grow
But I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
I loved her more than myself but she made me choose
Between her and my father and so I refused
I fled her house and wrath eleven years of age
Followed the crooked path that led me to a stage
The curtains opened up my heart followed the lead
The music wouldn't stop and I could finally breathe
But I will spend a lifetime
Trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline
Would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
Am I supposed to apologize?
Zeus the cat
Mother: "Your so lazy! You never help around the house anymore! Your stupid phone!"
But I lost all of my energy to get out of bed, I try my best to help you
Father: *never home*
I get so excited when you get home, I even stare out the window waiting for you to come home. Yet, you barely speak to me when your home
Friends: "yeah lol, I get sad too"
oh
Online friend: "please, be happy for me okay? I love you so much"
thanks, I guess.
Am I supposed to apologize?
Krystal Mejia
When a song matches your fictional character perfectly: 👁👄👁
Weeb Utopia
Yes, this is relatable.
bi.bitchhhhhh
Same
ShadowWolfy
Or your life
Krystal Mejia
@KittySheep same, been doing that for 4 years
KittySheep
I've been making a playlist of 70+ songs that perfectly fit my OCs hahaha
Glitchy_ Rose
“Am I suppose to apologize” dang that hit me hard and so did “why someone sharing my bloodline would not lend me their hand”
👌🏾
Weeb Utopia
I love your pfp! 😄
ShadowWolfy
Fits me perfectly
°•Daichi Sawamura•°
Same bestie