She began as a busker before joining the band Holy Moly and the Crackers playing trombone.
Turning solo, she self-released "Be Still" in 2019, "Summer Up North" in 2020,
Alter Ego
Martha Hill Lyrics
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Questioning our motives, asking if we're ok
All my friends have got skeleton plans
But I can't get off the sofa, I cancel cause so far oh the
Summer's gone and passed me by
I've been in my bedroom getting off to cartoons
Eating so much pasta that I think I might die
Haven't been to the beach for a long long time
Wanna go play, but she wanna stay home.
Been stood up by my alter-ego,
Wanna go play, but she wanna stay home.
When I'm on the sidelines I start feeling like I'm fading
Stay at home jading
While the rest of you just live your little lives
I'll be on the sofa just a little ghost ha ha
Thank god it's nearly Halloween time
So I can just be spooky without you looking at me
Mumbling shit when I pass on by
It's hard living in the city sometimes
Been stood up by my alter-ego,
Wanna go play, but she wanna stay home.
Been stood up by my alter-ego,
Wanna go play, but she wanna stay home.
I ride the bus to try to catch some inspiration
I shoot a dud and it goes right into my left brain
Maybe I should shoot south try and skip the rain
Cause the weather's getting weird and I don't feel okay.
Been stood up by my alter-ego,
Wanna go play, but she wanna stay home.
Been stood up by my alter-ego,
Wanna go play, but she wanna stay home.
The lyrics of Martha Hill's song "Alter Ego" delve into themes of self-doubt, introspection, and the struggle to find balance between introversion and a desire for social connection. The opening lines suggest a sense of uncertainty and self-questioning, as the singer reflects on their own motives and well-being. The reference to "skeleton plans" among friends implies that everyone else seems to have a clearer direction or purpose, while the singer feels stuck and unmotivated, unable to leave the comfort of their own space.
The imagery of spending the summer indoors, watching cartoons and overindulging in pasta, underscores a sense of isolation and lethargy. The mention of being stood up by their alter-ego highlights an internal conflict - a desire to engage with the outside world and have fun, juxtaposed with a strong inclination to retreat and remain in solitude. This duality is further emphasized in the recurring refrain, emphasizing the internal struggle between conflicting desires.
The singer's reference to feeling like a "little ghost" on the sidelines while others live their lives adds a layer of alienation and disconnection from the world around them. The upcoming Halloween season is mentioned as a time when the singer can embrace their eerie and unconventional side without being judged or questioned by others, highlighting a longing for acceptance and understanding in a society that may not always appreciate individuality.
The final verses bring in a sense of seeking inspiration and attempting to break free from the internal struggle. Riding the bus and trying to catch inspiration, only to feel like they are shooting a "dud" that goes into their left brain, suggests a frustration with the creative process and a need to break out of mental stagnation. The mention of the changing weather mirroring the singer's internal turmoil adds to the overall sense of unease and displacement. The repetition of being stood up by the alter-ego and the conflicting desires to stay home or go out and play encapsulates the ongoing inner conflict and the difficulty in reconciling these opposing facets of the self.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: CHRIS DESTEFANO CHRIS, CLEDUS JUDD, GARY LEVOX, TRAVIS HILL
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