Dreaming
Matthias Lyrics

I know we said we would take it slow,
Despite agreeing to take things slow, things escalated due to my weakness and her strength.

And I know we said we wouldn't fall in love,
We made a pact not to fall in love with each other, but I failed to keep my end of the bargain.

But I was weak,
I was easily swayed by her charms and gave in to my feelings.

And she was strong.
She knew what she wanted and had a stronger will than I did.

She said it's not that you weren't enough,
She assured me that I was everything she needed, and it wasn't my fault things didn't work out.

It's just that, I don't even think I can fall in love.
She admitted that her lack of ability to love was the issue and not me.

So please, keep in touch.
She asked me to maintain contact despite our failed romance.

They say if you love her, let her go,
The common wisdom is that if you love someone, you should set them free.

But they have never felt this way before.
The people who say to let someone go have not experienced the depth of love that I feel.

'Cause I, didn't even get a choice.
I didn't have the option to let her go - it was decided for me.

And I'm staring up,
I'm currently looking up at the sky.

At the clouds,
I'm specifically looking at the clouds in the sky.

My vision is turning
My perception is changing.

round and round.
I'm experiencing a feeling of spiraling, disorientation.

Is this what they call
I'm wondering if this is a familiar phenomenon.

A breakdown?
I'm questioning if what I'm experiencing is a mental breakdown.

And I'm bleedin'
I'm metaphorically wounded, and the wound is still bleeding.

When I should be healin'
I should be in the process of healing from the emotional hurt, but the wound is still open.

All because I'm dreaming
My continued emotional turmoil is because I'm still dwelling on our past together.

Of when we were together.
I'm specifically dreaming of the moments we shared during our past relationship.

We agreed that we
We previously decided that we'd

Would still be friends,
Continue to maintain a friendly relationship despite the end of our romantic relationship.

So the pain I feel
This means that the feelings of sorrow, regret, and heartbreak won't go away.

will never end.
Even if I'm still on good terms with the individual, my feelings for my lover won't fade.

Yet you say that you're fine.
Their words contradict their actions, as it's apparent that things aren't perfect for them.

And now the smile
Their smile, which used to have a positive impact on me,

That used to heal me,
would uplift me and put me at ease,

Cuts me deep with regret and envy.
Now brings me pain and shame and highlights my feelings of jealousy.

'Cause I can't say that you're mine.
I cannot call them mine or be in a romantic relationship with them.

They say move on and you learn the truth,
Others say it's best to move on from heartbreak as it provides insight and clarity.

But they aren't dealing with this open wound.
However, they haven't experienced the same pain that I have which still lingers.

This fool gave his heart
A reference to himself; he gave his heart

much too soon.
too quickly and completely without fully understanding the other person's intentions.

And I'm staring up,
I'm staring up at the sky again.

At the clouds.
Looking at the clouds again.

My vision is turning
I'm feeling disorientation again.

round and round.
The dizziness is coming back stronger.

Is this what they call
Again, questioning if this is the feeling

A breakdown?
he's having a mental breakdown.

And I'm bleedin'
Metaphorically, his emotional wound still haven't healed completely.

When I should be healin'
He should be on the mend, but the pain persists.

All because I'm dreamin'
He's still clinging to the past emotionally, hence the pain.

Of when we were together.
Specifically, he's holding onto memories and happy moments with the other person.

And I'm bleedin'
He's still experiencing emotional pain.

When I should be healin'
The process of mental and emotional recovery should have begun by now, but he's still struggling.

All because I'm feelin'
His current state is due to his emotions overwhelming him.

A way I shouldn't feel.
Though not explicitly stated, he feels a sense of regret for falling in love with the other person.