Never Thought
Mel Bryant & the Mercy Makers Lyrics
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Stuck between ecstasy and fear
Living in my aunt's apartment
Eating leftovers, leaving at 3 pm
Always thought I'd be a star
Or know how to drive a goddamn car
Brand new kitchen for my mom
Lots of a cats a couple dogs
Or at least know I'm liked by them
But they don't call me all that much
And I'm too bummed to hit them up
I never thought I'd leave this place
This city that I thought was made for me
And what I wanted
But what I wanted isn't what i got
The homeless men inside my head say
"Fuck, at least you got a bed"
Never thought that i could fall
Guess i never really thought at all
Sick of doing shit and not getting paid for it
Sick of being told you just gotta wait for it
What am I waiting for?
I'm just getting old and getting bored of
Waiting for cars to make a turn
When I've got the right of way I earned
Standing on this filthy street in the rain
Not something I should have to explain
The lyrics to Mel Bryant & the Mercy Makers' song "Never Thought" speak to the artist's feelings of disillusionment and disappointment in their current circumstances. The opening line, "Never thought I'd end up here," indicates a sense of surprise and perhaps regret about where they find themselves in life. They describe being stuck between ecstasy and fear, suggesting a conflicted emotional state.
The mention of living in their aunt's apartment and eating leftovers highlights a sense of financial struggle and lack of stability. The lyrics touch on unfulfilled aspirations, such as not becoming a star or knowing how to drive a car, which may symbolize a broader sense of unfulfilled dreams and ambitions.
The reference to a brand new kitchen for their mom and having lots of cats and dogs implies a desire for a more comfortable and settled life. However, the following lines reveal a sense of loneliness and disappointment in relationships. They thought they would have more friends or at least feel liked by them, but they don't receive many calls and feel too down to reach out themselves.
The chorus expresses a longing to leave the current place, a city that once seemed made for them and their desires, but now no longer aligns with what they truly want. The homeless men inside their head serve as a juxtaposition, reminding the singer that despite their own struggles, they still have a bed and should find some gratitude in that.
The lyrics further express frustration with the lack of progress and recognition for their efforts, feeling tired of doing things without getting paid for them and tired of being told to wait for success. The artist questions what they are waiting for and admits to getting old and bored in the process. The closing lines depict the singer standing on a filthy street in the rain, emphasizing a sense of discomfort and a feeling of injustice that they shouldn't have to explain their circumstances to others.
Overall, "Never Thought" paints a vivid picture of disillusionment, unfulfilled dreams, and the struggle between expectations and reality. The lyrics capture a sense of frustration, regret, and a strong desire for change and a better life.
Line by Line Meaning
Never thought I'd end up here
I never expected or anticipated being in this current situation
Stuck between ecstasy and fear
Feeling a mix of intense pleasure and anxiety
Living in my aunt's apartment
Residing in the place owned by my aunt
Eating leftovers, leaving at 3 pm
Having meals from the previous day and departing in the afternoon
Always thought I'd be a star
I constantly believed I would achieve great success or fame
Or know how to drive a goddamn car
Additionally, I expected to have the skill of operating a vehicle
Brand new kitchen for my mom
A newly constructed kitchen specifically for my mother
Lots of cats a couple dogs
Many felines and a few canines
I always thought I'd have more friends
I had the assumption that I would possess a larger number of companions
Or at least know I'm liked by them
Alternatively, just being aware that they hold affection towards me
But they don't call me all that much
Unfortunately, they do not frequently contact me
And I'm too bummed to hit them up
Furthermore, I feel too down or disheartened to initiate contact with them
I never thought I'd leave this place
It never crossed my mind that I would depart from this location
This city that I thought was made for me
Referring to the urban area that I believed was designed specifically for my success and fulfillment
And what I wanted
In accordance with my desires and aspirations
But what I wanted isn't what i got
However, I did not obtain what I desired
The homeless men inside my head say
Metaphorically, the thoughts or voices of homeless individuals in my mind express
"Fuck, at least you got a bed"
"Well, at least you have a place to sleep, despite the hardships"
Never thought that i could fall
Never once did I consider the possibility of experiencing failure or a downfall
Guess i never really thought at all
It seems that I lacked deep contemplation or foresight altogether
Sick of doing shit and not getting paid for it
Tired and frustrated with carrying out tasks without receiving compensation
Sick of being told you just gotta wait for it
Additionally, fed up with being advised to simply be patient and wait for outcomes
What am I waiting for?
Questioning the purpose or reasoning behind my waiting
I'm just getting old and getting bored of
As time passes, I am growing older and becoming disinterested in
Waiting for cars to make a turn
Expecting vehicles to change their direction
When I've got the right of way I earned
Despite having earned the privilege of passage
Standing on this filthy street in the rain
Found in the unpleasant and unclean surroundings, enduring the rainfall
Not something I should have to explain
This situation should not require further clarification or justification
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Melissa Goldstein
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