Blood And Guts
Middle Brother Lyrics

Sometimes I wish I were more mysterious
I want to appear interesting and enigmatic to others.

Hair in my face and short conversation
I want to portray an aloof, edgy image.

I gotta friend who speaks but doesn't talk.
I know someone who is communicative yet secretive.

And I can play the part alright,
I can perform the role I have created for myself.

But I didn't make it up.
However, it's not entirely genuine.

I'm ready to lose my mind when it suits me
I'm willing to let go and act recklessly if the situation calls for it.

And if you found a fool-proof way,
If you have discovered a guaranteed method.

Just slide it under the table
Then keep it hidden, don't reveal it to anyone.

Just sneak it into my pocket
Give it to me discreetly.

'Cause I want to sing with blood and guts
I want to perform with unrestrained passion and intensity.

And I want them to sing with me too
I want others to join me in this expression of raw emotion.

Instead I'm singing to you.
Yet, I'm only singing to you, without truly baring my soul.

Sometimes I wish that I cared you were leaving
I wish I felt more strongly about your departure.

I guess if I did then you probably wouldn't
If I did care, then you wouldn't be leaving.

You said you gotta problem with me acting tough
You indicated that you dislike my tough-guy demeanor.

I don't know where you get this stuff.
I don't understand why you would feel that way.

I heard you're frequenting with older guys from private schools
I have heard rumors that you are hanging out with guys who are potentially bad for you.

The ones that I openly thought would be bad for you
The very same ones that I told you were not good for you.

If you're breaking my heart
If you're causing me pain and sadness.

You wont get no help from me
I won't give you any assistance or support.

But I kinda wish it work
But, I secretly want our relationship to succeed.

I think a broken heart is what I need.
I believe that heartbreak would be beneficial for me.

If I'm gonna sing with blood and guts
If I'm going to perform with intense emotion.

Then try to help me on my way
Please support me and encourage me.

Instead I push them away.
But instead, I tend to shun and distance others.

You were so pretty with your hands on my throat
You appeared beautiful to me when you held my neck tightly.

Or how you start crying when I ask for my coat.
Or when you begin weeping when I request my jacket.

I don't miss the parts I've forgotten
I don't long for the moments I can't remember.

I said nothing, and nothing it's not
Even though I didn't say anything, it still has meaning.

I just wanna get my fist through some glass.
I just want to express my anger and frustration physically.

I just wanna get your arm in a cast.
I just want to cause you physical pain.

I just want you to know that I care.
I simply want you to be aware of my feelings for you.

I'm gonna sing with blood and guts.
I'm determined to perform emotionally-charged music.

But I'm always doing it wrong.
But I always seem to mess up or under-perform.

The older we get, the older we are.
As we age, we simply become older and more mature.

I woke up this morn driving my car
I woke up driving my car this morning.

And that is not how it's supposed to be.
That's not how my life is supposed to unfold.

Am I killing time or is it killing me?
Am I spending time, or is time spending me?

So someone will know that I'm here
So that someone will recognize my presence and existence.

I want to sing with blood and guts
I crave a chance to express myself without any inhibitions.

Oh
Interjection, no interpretation needed.

Instead I'm singing to you
But instead, I am performing for you alone.