Father
Ms. Dynamite Lyrics

Spent 23 years trying to be what you wanted me to be
I spent a significant portion of my life attempting to please you and be the child that you wanted me to be.

Though it seemed like you couldn't save me
Despite your role as a parent, it often felt like you weren't able to protect or care for me.

Till I picked up the mic and I was on the TV
It wasn't until I pursued music and achieved success that you began to take an interest in my life and accomplishments.

Now you're ringing off my phone like every week
Despite your previous lack of involvement in my life, you are now constantly trying to contact me and be a part of it.

Where were you at 6, 7, 11 and 13 when shit was impossible
During the difficult years of my childhood, when I needed parental support the most, you were absent and unavailable.

Mama left nine months pregnant
My mother was left alone to carry and care for me for the last nine months of her pregnancy.

But she came home alone from the hospital
Despite your role as my father, you were not present for my birth or to support my mother during that time.

How could you call yourself a man if you can't
As a father and supposed male role model, how can you even justify your actions if you're unable to

Love your only lesson can't control them
Show compassion and care towards your own child/lessons and assume responsibility for their upbringing?

You'd rather destroy their souls and she was
Instead of upholding your parental responsibilities, you chose to cause harm and damage to your own child's soul.

13 years old and you couldn't protect the innocence from being stolen
As a father, you failed to protect your child from being robbed of their innocence at a young age.

And I don't give a damn what you was going through and mama wasn't able
Regardless of any issues you may have been dealing with, it does not excuse your failure to be a present and supportive parent, especially when my mother was also struggling.

To put food on the table
To provide for your own family's basic needs.

You left the family unstable
Your absence and apparent lack of concern for your family's wellbeing resulted in an unstable and unbalanced household.

Now you come around and act like you were some kind of a praisel
Despite your previous absence, you now try to present yourself as a commendable and positive influence in my life.

You can't play like you daddy now
You cannot suddenly attempt to assert yourself as a paternal figure when you were not present in that role throughout my life.

And you can't claim shit 'cause you weren't around
Your previous failure to be present and involved in my life means that you have no right to claim or demand anything from me now.

And you can't get mad but what can you do?
You cannot become angry or upset over the current state of our relationship because it is a direct result of your previous lack of involvement and care.

You can't tell me shit
Your current attempts to control or dictate my life and choices are invalid due to your previous neglect and absence.

I'm grown without you
Despite your absence, I have grown and developed without your guidance or support.

I spent 23 years trying to be the fucking man you should be
Instead of being a proper and responsible father figure, I spent my life attempting to make up for your failures and fill that role for myself.

Taking care of your responsibility
Assuming the responsibilities and duties that should have been yours as a parent.

Putting clothes on our back and shoes on our feet no help
Assuming financial responsibilities for my family's basic needs on my own, without any assistance from you.

But you always had your bag of weed
Despite our family's financial struggles, you always had the money to spend on your own vices and habits.

Where were you on 12,13, 14 and 15 when life was unliveable
During some of the most difficult and challenging years of my life, you were once again absent and unavailable.

Momma was so damn angry the way she treated me was unforgivable
As a direct result of your absence and lack of support, my mother was angry and took that frustration out on me, causing lasting damage to our relationship.

Your oldest son he had to learn from his sister
As a result of your failures as a parent, my older brother had to rely on me, his younger sister, for guidance and role modeling.

How to put a niggas fist up, how to fuck a niggas shit up
The skills and knowledge my brother learned from me were more focused on violence and aggression rather than positive coping or problem-solving strategies.

And I cut any motherfucker that had come and tried to diss us
As a result of my difficult upbringing and lack of proper parental guidance, I developed a defensive attitude and took extreme measures to defend myself and my family.

And I don't give a damn what you was going through
Regardless of any struggles you may have been facing or difficulties in your own life, it does not excuse your failure to be a present and supportive parent.

And I needed saving
My difficult upbringing and struggles resulted in my own need for support and guidance, which you failed to provide.

I spent my every second blazing a little girl with the blade in
As a result of my difficult upbringing, I turned to self-harm and engaged in dangerous behaviors, trying to find relief and escape from my pain.

And trying to fuck up and take my life just wanted to dig my grave in
My struggles and lack of support led me to experience suicidal thoughts and actions, feeling as if life was not worth living.

Can't come and tryin' to tell me tonight
After all of your previous failures as a parent and absence from my life, you cannot suddenly try to assert yourself as an authority figure and dictate my choices or actions.