All My Life
Mustasch Lyrics

All my life, I´ve had to cover up what others done
From childhood to now, all I've known is to take up other people's responsibilities.

And I´m so tired, it still happens to me all the time
It's frustrating that, even as a grown-up, I still have to carry other people's weight.

Let it be, they always say a better day will come
People advise me to be patient, but I'm losing faith in that perspective.

How could I´ve been so blind
I'm realizing now that I've been oblivious to the impact of carrying other people's baggage.

All my life, I´ve been trying to find out who I really am
I've been on a quest for self-discovery for as long as I can remember and it's still a work in progress.

And I ain´t done, what´s clear to you I´ll never understand
I'm aware that my journey of self-discovery is not yet complete, and I understand it's hard for others to comprehend that.

How I screamed, how I cried in the dead of night
I've been emotionally traumatized by the burden of carrying other people's baggage.

It was just a dream, one of those nightmares we don´t talk about
I've held onto my pain for so long that it's hard to differentiate between my reality and my dreams.

How did they dare not to let me speak?
I'm indignant about the fact that I've not had the chance to express myself.

But this bird is soon about to fly free
I see myself breaking free from the burden and taking control of my life.

But you´re right, my day will COME!
I'm now resolute that someday I'll break free from the burden and overcome the challenges of my journey.

Now I´m mad, I wanna have those things I never had
I'm frustrated that I missed out on life's opportunities because of the baggage I've always carried.

I can be bad, the consequenses of your actions strikes back
I'm not afraid to take risks and hold other people accountable for their actions.

I´m not mean, you just haven´t seen the real me
I'm assertive and outspoken now but that doesn't make me mean.

You will get used to it, you´ll see
My loved ones will eventually get used to my new persona, and things will improve.

All my life, I´ve been looking for a place called mine
I'm still searching for a sense of belonging and purpose.

I have tried, still haven´t found out who I really am
I've made attempts to find myself, but it's still not clear who I am.

How I lied when I told you I was satisfied
I've feigned satisfaction with my life but it doesn't reflect my true feelings.

And I lied when I said it´s gonna be alright
I've been lying to myself that everything will be okay when it's not.

I could not find any piece of mind
My mental state has been unstable and restless because of the burden I've carried.

Now I´m done, I´m fed up being angry all the time
I've had enough of being angry and upset all the time because it's not helping me or anyone else.

But don´t be calm, I´m on to everyone who clouds my skies
It doesn't mean I'll be passive about anyone who still weighs me down.

Cause it´s true, break bad patterns, that´s the way to go
It's clear to me now that breaking free from these bad patterns is the only way to go.

All I know, my loved ones will not face my cruel doom
I'm hopeful that my loved ones will not have to bear the painful burden I've always had to.

I can talk about it now
I can express my feelings and be open about my experiences now.

I´m not afraid to fly
I'm ready to take risks and live my life to the fullest.

Many years has passed me by
I'm aware that much time has passed, but it's never too late to make a change.

Everything will be alright
I'm optimistic that things will improve.

But I´m not satisfied
But I'm still not content with where I am in life and I'll keep striving for the best.