My Ruin is a Los Angeles-based alternative metal band, composed of the husb… Read Full Bio ↴My Ruin is a Los Angeles-based alternative metal band, composed of the husband and wife duo Tairrie B. and Mick Murphy. The band has been through various line-up changes since its formation in 1999. Its fanbase is mostly in the UK. Its sound consists of passionate vocals set against heavy rock beats. Vocalist Tairrie B. began her career in the 1980s as one of the first female rappers, signed to Eazy-E's Ruthless Records, and she is formerly of the bands Tura Satana and Manhole.

They have released several of their records via their own imprint, Rovena Recordings and have also been signed to Snapper, Spitfire, Century Media, Undergroove Records, Rovena Recordings and Tiefdruck Musik.

Releases:

Speak & Destroy (1999, UK release; 2000, US release) (Spitfire/Snapper)
A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000) (Spitfire/Snapper)
To Britain With Love... and Bruises (2001; only released in the UK) (Live) (Snapper)
The Shape Of Things To Come (2003) (Century Media)
The Horror Of Beauty (2003) (Century Media)
The Brutal Language (2005) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Throat Full Of Heart (2008) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Alive On The Other Side (2008) (Rovena/Cargo)
Ghosts and Good Stories (2010) (Tiefdruck)
A Southern Revelation (2011)
The Sacred Mood (2013)

(free download from myruin.bandcamp.com)

Former Members:

Chris Lisee - Bass (2005-2009)
JD - Drums (2008-2009)
Marcelo Palomino - Drums (2008)
Matt Lechevalier - Drums (2005-2007)
Yael - Drums (2000-2005)
Jason Brunk - Bass (2005)
Jonny Chow - Bass (2004-2005)
Meghan Mattox - Bass (1999-2004)
Melanie Makaiwi - Guitar & Bass (on Speak & Destroy)

They have a dedicated fanbase, most notably in the UK. Their sound consists of passionate and angry vocals set against heavy metal riffs and beats. Vocalist Tairrie B and Mick Murphy began a side project known as The Lvrs. Mick Murphy has another side project known as Neanderthal.

Scars
My Ruin Lyrics

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i have scars on my body
from using myself
abusing myself
in sickness and in health
i have bruises on my body
which go away with time but remain in my mind forever
as a constant reminder of the last man i loved
loathed

left
i have the word 'truth' on my arm
because there is no room for honesty when you're a liar
i have a tattoo on the back of my neck which i cannot see
but i can feel
but i can feel
but i can
i have a tattoo on my stomach which in italian means 'the sweet life'
i have the word 'love' in flames surrounded by stars on my right wrist
because these five fingers go straight into the soul of man
i have the word 'hate' on my left wrist because the left hand is the hand of hate
and it was with this hand that cain knifed his brother
i'm right handed

maybe that's my problem
my ruin

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to My Ruin's song "Scars" are deeply personal and reveal a lot about the singer's inner turmoil and past experiences. The first verse talks about the physical scars on the singer's body that are the result of self-abuse. The use of the word "health" suggests that this is an ongoing problem for the singer. The second line continues this theme by talking about the bruises on the singer's body, which go away over time but leave lasting emotional marks. The line "as a constant reminder of the last man I loved, loathed, left" suggests that the cause of this abuse may be related to a past relationship.

The next lines of the song reveal more about the singer's tattoos. The word "truth" on the singer's arm suggests that they have struggled with honesty and may have lied in the past. The tattoo on the back of the neck that the singer cannot see but can feel may symbolize a sense of powerlessness or feeling lost.

The tattoo on the stomach that says "the sweet life" contrasts with the darker themes of the rest of the song. It might suggest a desire to find happiness or a love of life, even in the midst of darkness. The lines about the tattoos on the wrists are perhaps the most poignant. The word "love" surrounded by flames suggests a deep passion and emotional intensity that may have caused pain in the past. The word "hate" on the left wrist similarly suggests a powerful emotion that can cause destruction if not checked.

Overall, the lyrics to "Scars" suggest a deep sense of pain and inner turmoil. The tattoos and scars on the singer's body are physical reminders of these struggles, and the song provides insight into the singer's psyche.

Line by Line Meaning

i have scars on my body
I have physical marks on my body that serve as reminders of the pain I've caused myself.

from using myself
I inflicted harm upon myself intentionally.

abusing myself
My self-harming behavior wasn't just a one-time thing - I repeatedly hurt myself.

in sickness and in health
Despite the fact that my self-abuse was detrimental to my well-being, I still engaged in it.

i have bruises on my body
I have marks on my body from physical abuse.

which go away with time but remain in my mind forever
Even though my physical bruises heal over time, the mental scars remain with me indefinitely.

as a constant reminder of the last man i loved
The physical abuse I endured was from someone I once had feelings for, making the memories even more painful.

loathed
Despite the love I once had, I now have strong feelings of hatred towards this person.

left
This person is no longer a part of my life.

i have the word 'truth' on my arm
I tattooed the word 'truth' on my arm to remind myself to be honest with myself and others.

because there is no room for honesty when you're a liar
As someone who has lied in the past, I need a constant reminder to be truthful as it doesn't come naturally to me.

i have a tattoo on the back of my neck which i cannot see
I have an artistic mark on my body that I can't see but serves as a tactile reminder that it's there.

but i can feel
Even though I can't see the tattoo, I can sense its presence.

i have a tattoo on my stomach which in italian means 'the sweet life'
I have a tattoo that translates to 'the sweet life' in Italian, which represents my desire for happiness and comfort.

i have the word 'love' in flames surrounded by stars on my right wrist
I have a tattoo of the word 'love' engulfed in flames and stars on my right wrist, symbolizing the depth and intensity of love.

because these five fingers go straight into the soul of man
My fingers have the power to touch a person's soul, making love one of the most potent emotions there is.

i have the word 'hate' on my left wrist
I have the word 'hate' tattooed on my left wrist to remind me of the destructive power of hate within me.

because the left hand is the hand of hate
In many cultures, the left hand is associated with negative emotions like hate and sadness.

and it was with this hand that cain knifed his brother
The biblical story of Cain and Abel references the left hand as the one used for violence and aggression.

i'm right handed
My dominant hand is my right hand.

maybe that's my problem
My overcompensation with my left hand could be part of the reason why I've internalized so much hatred.

my ruin
All of these tattoos and scars are a physical representation of my emotional ruin.

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