Idle Thoughts
NYVES Lyrics

When the cold is all I feel
I am so numb and disconnected from everything around me that I only feel the coldness of my own existence.

And the end is all I need
The idea of death and escape from this numbness is the only thing that brings me any comfort or relief.

I embrace the coming bleed
I welcome the idea of death, not just as a release from this numbness, but as a sort of cleansing, a shedding of the pain and struggle that comes with living.

In the void of disengage
I have become so disconnected from life that I am in a sort of limbo, neither truly living nor dead, just existing in a space devoid of meaning or purpose.

I escape into my grave
In my darkest moments, I imagine myself already dead, finding solace in the idea that I no longer have to struggle through this meaningless existence.

Where the dream is all I say
In these moments of escape, I lose touch with reality and speak only of the dreams that offer me comfort and hope, even if they are not real.

Don't let me violate your time
I know that my obsession with death and escape can be overwhelming and burdensome for those around me, and I am begging for their understanding and patience.

I will exhaust before you fade away
I know that my fixation on death and escape may lead me to burn out or self-destruct before those around me find their own way to move on or fade away.

You fade away into the night
While I am consumed by thoughts of death and escape, those around me may find their own way to peace and release in a more quiet, natural way.

I was wrong to bring you here
I regret inflicting my obsession and my pain on those around me, knowing that it only adds to the suffering in the world.

There is a place beyond a life for you and me
While I may be consumed by thoughts of death and escape, there is a higher purpose or calling that will eventually bring peace and meaning to all of our lives.

I awake the silent draw
Even though I am consumed by darkness and despair, there is still a spark of hope and creativity within me that sometimes flickers to life.

The erase of everyone
As much as I sometimes wish to escape the pain of existence, I cannot entirely erase the impact that others have had on my life, even if it is painful to remember.

I embrace the coming fall
Like the changing of the seasons, I know that change is inevitable and that I must embrace the coming challenges and tribulations, even if it sometimes means facing my fears and pain head-on.

I'm afraid of all I've seen
My past experiences and traumas have left me deeply scarred and fearful of what the future may hold, even as I desperately search for a way out of this pain.

In the darkness I have been
Despite the flickers of hope and creativity I sometimes feel, I still spend much of my time in a dark, lonely void, struggling to find meaning or purpose.

The eclipse of all I need
In these moments of darkness and fear, it can feel like everything I need to survive and find peace has been covered or consumed by a shadowy force beyond my control.

I don't know what it is about the way
Despite my struggle and my pain, there is still so much about life and the world that I don't understand or can't explain.

The feeling of a different decay
Though I recognize that death is a natural part of the cycle of life, there is still something deeply unsettling and terrifying about the idea of decay and losing one's own sense of self and identity.