The Life I've Been Leading
Nektar Lyrics


Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴

Ah the life that I've been leading
Is driving me to ruin
Now I see only nothing (laughing?)
Love is something I won't believe in

Ah the life that I've been leading
Is driving me to ruin
Now I see only nothing (laughing?)
Love is something I won't believe in

And the story ends
This could be the end
Don't take (pity on for real?)
I can't take no more
What I took before
Now I really have to go

Ah the life that I've been leading
Is driving me to ruin
Now I see only nothing (laughing?)
Love is something I won't believe in

And the story ends
This could be the end
Don't take (pity on for real?)
I can't take no more
What I took before
Now I really have to go

Now I really have to go, oh my lover
Now I really have to go




Now I really have to go, lover
Ah ah ah

Overall Meaning

The lyrics from Nektar's "The Life I've Been Leading" depict a sense of despair and disillusionment. The song expresses the idea that the life that the singer has been leading, filled with experiences of love and heartbreak, has led them to a point of ruin. The first two lines "Ah the life that I've been leading, is driving me to ruin" emphasizes this idea of a life of hardship that has led the singer to lose faith in everything.


The line "Now I see only nothing (laughing?)" depicts a sense of absurdity and hopelessness. The fact that the singer is laughing at the notion of there being nothing left for them further illustrates this idea. The line "Love is something I won't believe in" showcases the singer's disillusionment with the concept of love, suggesting past relationships may have contributed to this.


The repeated line "And the story ends, This could be the end" suggests a feeling of finality, as if the singer has given up and accepted their fate. The line "Don't take (pity on for real?), I can't take no more" suggests that the singer is tired of being pitied and has reached a breaking point, leading them to leave their past behind.


Overall, the song is a message about the harmful consequences of a life filled with heartache and disappointment, leading one to question everything they previously believed in.


Line by Line Meaning

Ah the life that I've been leading
The lifestyle that I have been living


Is driving me to ruin
Is leading me to complete destruction


Now I see only nothing (laughing?)
I cannot see anything worth living for (or perhaps I am ignoring my problems and laughing them off)


Love is something I won't believe in
I refuse to believe in the concept of love


And the story ends
This could be the end


Don't take (pity on for real?)
Don't feel sorry for me


I can't take no more
I cannot handle this any longer


What I took before
What I endured previously


Now I really have to go
I must leave now


Now I really have to go, oh my lover
I must leave, even if it means leaving behind my significant other


Now I really have to go
I need to leave immediately


Now I really have to go, lover
I need to leave, regardless of any emotional ties I may have


Ah ah ah
An expression of emotion, perhaps sadness or frustration




Contributed by Grayson M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
To comment on or correct specific content, highlight it

Genre not found
Artist not found
Album not found
Song not found
Comments from YouTube:

Mr. Evan

Thanks for uploading the songs from the boston tapes, they seemed to have gotten removed from streaming platforms. so this is a life-saver

Akla Tha First

my pleasure

More Versions