CAM
O.P. Lyrics

I, been getting really high
I have been consuming drugs to alter my state of mind

I been tripping out my mind
I have been experiencing intense hallucinations and mental confusion

When you look me in my eyes yeah
When you gaze into my eyes, it reveals my inner struggles

Why, baby can't you tell me why
Why can't you explain to me the reasons behind your actions

That you can't come and slide
Why are you unable to join me in my reckless behavior

Yeah I need you by my side yeah
I crave your presence and support during this chaotic time

It's likely that I'm falling down a spiral
It is probable that I am descending into a destructive pattern

Yeah these drugs really entice me
These drugs have a strong allure and hold over my mind

I don't know if I'm alright
I am uncertain about my mental and emotional well-being

Shawty can't you realize
My dear, can't you understand

That when you look into my eyes
That when you peer into my eyes

I'm not afraid to die
I have lost the fear of death

I got demons in my mind yeah
My mind is plagued by inner demons

Yeah rolling it up (fuck)
Rolling marijuana cigarettes (fuck)

Smoking a dub (yeah)
Smoking a cannabis joint (yeah)

Don't interrupt (bitch)
Do not disrupt or interfere (bitch)

How many packs, I'm losing track
I have lost count of the number of packs of drugs I have consumed

Might pop a Xanny yeah
I might consume a Xanax pill

Do I take a half? Fuck it, relapse
Should I consume only half of the pill? Fuck it, I will give in to a relapse

Pop it like candy yeah
Consume the pill as if it were a piece of candy

Hollup, counted me out
Wait a minute, people thought I was defeated

All of a sudden I'm counting it up
Suddenly, I am amassing wealth or success

She wanting me back, said "I don't give a fuck"
She desires to be with me again and expresses indifference towards the opinions of others

Baby I'm fronting, I'm wanting your love
My dear, I am putting on a facade, but I truly desire your love

We had our past, let's get it back
We shared a history, let's reconnect

Am I sounding cheesy yeah
Is my expression becoming cliché

We can relax, count up these racks
We can relax and accumulate a large amount of money

Make it look easy yeah
We will make it appear effortless

Homie said there's fishes in the pond
My friend mentioned the presence of attractive individuals in the nightclub

Don't give a shit about some bitches in the club
I do not care about any women in the club

When we kissing, you're my prison, you're my drug
When we kiss, you have a captivating hold on me, like an addictive substance

She just asked me what I'm doing ever since we broke it up
She recently inquired about my activities since our breakup

I got demons in my mind
My mind is tormented by inner demons

I take Xanny's, pass the time
I consume Xanax to fill the void in my existence

That shit got me feeling fine (huh, yeah, ooh)
Those drugs make me feel good and temporarily alleviate my pain

But I need you by my side (by my side)
However, I still long for your presence

And I cannot tell no lies
I cannot lie about my true feelings

With you I'm feeling right (feeling right)
With you, I experience a sense of contentment

But I still need these Xanny's to make it through the night
However, I still rely on Xanax to cope with nighttime difficulties

Getting high
Intoxicating oneself

Can only think about how I wanna die
My thoughts are consumed by suicidal ideation

Even though these Xanny's make me feel alright
Despite the fact that Xanax temporarily improves my state of mind

Without you by my side, baby I would die
Without your presence, my dear, I would not be able to continue living

Feelin sum, outta sight, outta mind
Experiencing a feeling of detachment and disconnection

I can't take my Lexapro, cuz geeking up's my nine to five
I cannot take my antidepressant medication because indulging in recreational drug use has become my everyday routine

Aye, yea
Aye, yes

I don't ever panic when I'm high
I never experience anxiety when I am under the influence

Long as I got medicine, yea, I'll be feelin right yea
As long as I have drugs, I will feel good

I don't know if I could see another way
I am unsure if there is an alternative path for me

Got a feeling that I'm liking
I have a sensation that I am enjoying

I could feel it everyday, yea
I experience it every day

How I'm living, didn't wanna feel the pain
I did not want to experience the pain of my current lifestyle

Put the pill inside inside my body just to spill it all away
I consume the pill, hoping that it will help me forget my troubles

Ooh, I do a lot
Oh, I indulge in excessive activities

I sip and I sit and I rot
I drink and I stay motionless, deteriorating

I used to be flipping the bands yeah
I used to be making large sums of money

Now I'm just flipping the rock yeah
Now I am only flipping drugs

I did what you wanted til the pills made me insane yeah
I complied with your desires until the drugs drove me to madness

I don't got no power, baby I don't got no say yeah
I have no control or influence, my dear

Girl I need you by my side
Girl, I truly need your presence

Yeah it's likely that I'm falling down a spiral
It is probable that I am descending into a destructive pattern

Yeah these drugs really entice me
Yes, these drugs strongly tempt and allure me

I don't know if I'm alright
I am uncertain about my well-being

Shawty can't you realize
My dear, can't you understand

When you look into my eyes
When you gaze into my eyes

I'm not afraid to die
I have lost the fear of death

I got demons in my mind yeah
My mind is plagued by inner demons