Reload
Overtime Lyrics

I pray while holdin' this gun, and it's time to reload
In times of desperation and uncertainty, I find myself seeking solace and guidance while holding a weapon, preparing to face another round of challenges.

And I'm hopin' this time it's done, I guess I never will know
Although I wish these hardships will come to an end, I realize that I may never truly find closure or resolution.

So forgive me cause I know that I do wrong
I recognize my flaws and mistakes, and I seek forgiveness for my wrongdoings.

And I swore I would change but I kept movin' on
I made promises to myself to change and improve, yet I continued to progress forward without making significant transformations.

So I'm loadin' this bullet hopin to take me a shot
With a sense of determination, I prepare this metaphorical ammunition, hoping it will provide me with an opportunity for success.

Till it's time to reload
Until the next opportunity arises, I will continue to prepare myself for the challenges and hardships ahead.

Billman calls and I don't pick up, cause I don't wanna hear that bullshit, bullshit, nah
I choose to ignore the calls and advice of those who try to impose their opinions and negative perspectives on me, as I have no interest in listening to their meaningless and unhelpful words.

Tellin' me I should give it up, but I don't wanna hear that bullshit, bullshit, nah
Others urge me to abandon my pursuits and dreams, but I refuse to listen to their discouragements and dismissive remarks.

Live my life on a broken road and I ain't comin' home
I continue to navigate through a difficult and uncertain path, refusing to seek refuge or comfort in familiarity and stability.

You ain't gotta leave the light on I prefer to roam
I don't expect anyone to wait for me or provide me with a sense of belonging. I choose to wander and explore life's possibilities on my own.

I been a dreamer of time since beginning of time
Since the dawn of existence, I have possessed a relentless imaginative spirit, constantly envisioning and striving for a better future.

I can feel it in my soul I'll be gettin' mine
Deep within the core of my being, I have an unwavering certainty that I will achieve success and fulfillment.

So I lay it down and load it up and take a shot of whiskey 'fore I hold it up, I'm holdin' tough
Before facing the challenges ahead, I momentarily pause to gather my strength and fortitude, taking a shot of whiskey as a symbolic act of resilience.

This life ain't nothin' but chances and takin' chances
The essence of existence lies in seizing opportunities and embracing risk, as life itself is a series of uncertain ventures.

I'm dancin' and dancin' circles 'round the devils thermal canvas
I boldly and skillfully navigate through the treacherous landscape of temptation and adversity, evading the grips of evil and temptation.

I ain't good in stormy weather and it's chokin' me up
I struggle to cope with turbulent and chaotic times, feeling overwhelmed and suffocated by the intensity of such circumstances.

I got a pocket full of bullets and I'm loadin' 'em up
Metaphorically, I possess a wealth of potential opportunities in my grasp, and I am preparing to utilize them to my advantage.

And I just wanna take a shot but it's never enough
I yearn for an opportunity to succeed and make progress, yet I continually find that the chances presented to me are insufficient for my ambitions.

So this time I got a shotty and I'm blowin' it up
To alter the course of my fate, I have chosen to utilize a powerful weapon, metaphorically representing my determination to make a significant impact.

Another billman calls and I don't pick up
Once again, a relentless individual tries to reach me, likely to remind me of my financial obligations or responsibilities, but I deliberately choose not to answer.

When I talk what they want to hear
When engaging in conversations, I often find myself conforming to others' expectations and only expressing what they desire to hear.

Lost on the path when they commandeer
Influence and manipulation from external sources divert my sense of direction, causing me to become disoriented and uncertain on my chosen path.

Gotta sip 'til you're wrong and I'm sincere
To fit into certain societal expectations and norms, one must occasionally compromise their own beliefs and authenticity, whereas I choose to remain genuine and true to myself.

Gave all that I have but does not seem like it's enough
Despite dedicating all my available resources and effort, it appears that my contributions and sacrifices are insufficient to produce the desired outcomes.

But I hid by the steps and I won't give up
Although faced with adversity and setbacks, I take refuge and solace in a hidden place of determination, refusing to surrender or abandon my aspirations.

She'll cave in cause it's just too much
Under the weight of overwhelming pressure and difficulty, she will eventually succumb and surrender, unable to endure the strain any longer.

I'm all in black and I feel no love
Cloaked in an aura of darkness and desolation, I experience a lack of affection and emotional connection from those around me.

Livin' at the bottom and I feel like I'm stuck
Existing in a state of despair and hardship, I sense a profound sense of stagnation and immobility, unable to escape from this predicament.

We could all use help in this road so tough
Acknowledging the challenging nature of this journey, we all require support and assistance to navigate through the hardships and obstacles we encounter.

Wheel in the dirt, rain turned into mud
The once promising and cleansing rain has transformed into a muddied mess, symbolizing the erosion of hope and the degradation of circumstances.

Fuck, What, I ain't got shit to say
Overwhelmed and frustrated, I am rendered speechless and unable to articulate my thoughts or emotions coherently.

Got too many song I ain't yet to play
Within me lies a vast array of untold stories and unexpressed emotions, represented by the songs I have yet to perform or share with the world.

Got a .45 loaded sittin' in my lap
I possess a loaded .45 caliber firearm resting in my lap, representing the ever-present threat and potential for violence that lingers within me.

And right now it can bang if you're in my way
Driven by frustration and a desire for change, I am prepared to resort to extreme measures, utilizing the power of the firearm to eliminate any obstacles obstructing my path.

It's been a lonely road
I have endured a solitary and isolated journey, riddled with a lack of companionship and emotional support.

I got no where to go
Feeling displaced and without a sense of belonging, I struggle to find a destination or purpose in my current circumstances.

Another face to face battle with a bottle I'll lose
Engaging once again in a confrontational encounter with alcohol, I understand that I am destined to be defeated in this ongoing struggle.

I could chase you down with lies but never swallow the truth
Although capable of pursuing and deceiving others with falsehoods, I remain steadfast in my refusal to accept or confront the harsh realities and truths that exist.

It's impeccable, you show up just to honor the role
Your actions and presence serve as a constant reminder of the role you play in this narrative, appearing only to fulfill your predetermined duty or purpose.

And pretend you're not fucked until you're droppin' the soap
You maintain a facade of normalcy and a sense of control, refusing to accept your own vulnerabilities and flaws until circumstances force you to confront them.

You say you're busy or you're tied up but I am not the rope
Using excuses of busyness or preoccupation, you attempt to distance yourself from me, but I refuse to be a mere tool or instrument for your convenience.

And every shot I've taken missed so now it's time to reload
Despite my attempts and endeavors thus far, I have failed to achieve my desired outcomes. Therefore, it is necessary for me to reload and try again.

That's why
This is the reason for my persistent efforts and determination - to continuously reload and pursue my goals, regardless of the challenges and setbacks I face.