not what we expected
Particle Thief Lyrics

This game we play at the
The pattern we are stuck in

End of each day
Occurs consistently

It's not what we expected
The outcome is unpredictable

Not what we expected
The outcome is unpredictable

Think we need it
Dependence on it, despite its consequences

That's the issue with the struggle can't
Difficulty in resisting negative influences

Anticipate the actions of the ones providing trouble
Unable to predict those who cause problems

We can say no
We have the power to resist

But my mind is thinking yes and
Despite our power to resist, we may be tempted

Sometimes it seems to help to get the weight off of my chest
Giving in to temptation can be relieving

When I don't I feel so strong and I wonder what the fuck I was thinking all along
Resisting temptation makes us feel strong and aware of past mistakes

Keep our heads straight
Stay focused and alert

It was never there before and I never should have given in and opened up the door
Regret for giving in to temptation

Each step forward
Progression

One step back
Regressing from progress made

The debt must be repaid to
A responsibility or obligation that must be fulfilled

Genetic memory from those inside their graves
Inherited traits or responsibilities from ancestors

Or is it in my mind
Uncertainty about the origin or reality of the responsibility

Try to see but I fear I'm going blind
Struggle with understanding the situation

No sleep... Eyes are red. Have another taste
Struggle with addiction

Only hours left to start again. Cannot go to waste
Feeling of pressure and urgency to make the most of one's time

Leaping off the ledge. Landing on another
Jumping from one challenge to the next

Can't fall down. Must learn from the strength of my brothers
Striving to stay strong and learn from others' experiences

I can control myself
Self-control and autonomy

I can think for myself the
Independent thinking and decision-making

Memories of my father and my mother won't dictate my health
Breaking free from past influences and taking control of one's own well-being

I have to keep on trying I
Perseverance

Can't continue crying I
Resilience

Have to stay accountable
Responsibility for one's actions and choices

Nothings insurmountable
Belief in overcoming challenges

I thought that there was more
Expectations of more than what is received

Steered clear from what I knew was at my core
Avoiding or suppressing one's true desires or qualities

If it is in my mind
Uncertainty about the reality of a situation

I know there's light in the future I will find
Hope for better outcomes in the future