the fall
Particle Thief Lyrics

Let go of the world
Release your grip on the world around you

And let go of all the fear inside
Allow your internal anxiety to dissipate

Everything's in motion
The world continues to move forward with or without you

Nothing left to decide
There are no choices left to be made

I feel like I'm losing my mind
I am experiencing a loss of mental stability

I've been losing track of time
I am unaware of the passage of time

I feel like I've become someone that you don't want to know
I believe I have transformed into an undesirable person

I can't help but feel there's some thing wrong
I am unable to ignore the feeling that something is awry

Its that crushing wave of guilt that overcomes me now
Overwhelming feelings of remorse presently consume me

It pulls me under and drags me down
The guilt is debilitating and distressing

I try to scream for help but I don't know how
An attempt to obtain assistance is made, but it's rendered futile

The shadows gather around me as I fall
Metaphorical shadows begin to crowd me as I plummet towards failure

I don't wanna be the one that pushes you away
I wish not to distance myself from others

I don't wanna beg for you to stay
I do not wish to implore others to remain in my life

And as I breathe in, I contemplate this life I'm living
During inhalation, I ponder the existence I am experiencing

And as I breathe out, I focus on what I'm living for
Exhalation is utilized to concentrate on the reason I am continuing to live

I open my eyes, and push past the tears that I've been shedding
After cessation of crying, I force myself to acknowledge my environment

Cause I realize, I've shed them for no one but me
I comprehend that the tears were shed exclusively to alleviate my own emotional pain

I can't cast aside, all of this weight that I've been under
I cannot discard the burden of stress that is bearing down on me

You know I've tried, but its breaking me down
Attempts have been made to alleviate stress, but they have been fruitless and wearisome

All of my plans, all my intentions gone asunder
All of my schemes and goals have been ruined

Deep down I know, I'm the only one to blame
I am cognizant of the fact that I am at fault for my situation

Stare at the wall
I am fixated on the wall in front of me

Skin begins to crawl
An unpleasant sensation is beginning to manifest on my skin

No one sees you fall
My descent goes unnoticed by others

So fuck them all
I detest all other individuals

You will be bound in chains
I will become enslaved to my negative emotions

With opened veins
My self-destructive tendencies are exposed

And full of shame
I am consumed by feelings of humiliation

There will be nothing you can
There will be no method of overcoming these sensations

Do to rid myself from you
No way exists to eliminate myself from the situation

I am the first thing that you
I am the initial concept you consider

Feel when you
I am the primary emotion that you experience

Are all alone
When solitary, I am the only entity present

And I'll be the last thing that
I will also be the final concept in your mind

You truly have
I am the lone item that exists in your reality

But never own
Despite my constant presence, I cannot be possessed

Am I alone?
Do I find myself existing in solitude?

How did I get here?
What caused me to arrive at this point in time?

Will I be on my own for too long?
Am I destined to exist without the presence of others?

I'm the thing inside your head
I am the source of your negative thoughts

That fills you full of fear and dread
I inject you with emotions of terror and anxiety

I am in complete control
I have taken command of your mind

And wearing thin upon your soul
The burden of my influence is becoming too much for your spirit

All your thoughts they are bent on me
My presence has infected all of your thought processes

I am all that you will ever see
My influence has blinded you to all other things

The only way to be rid of me
The only method to escape my control

Is to end it all and be set free
Is to commit self-annihilation and be liberated from my grasp

Can it be?
Is it possible?

That they all left me?
Did all those around me abandon me?

How was I so blind as not to see...
Why didn't I perceive what was occurring?

I'm all that's left
Only I remain

I'm all that's there
I am the only thing present

I'm all you have
I am the singular entity existing in your life

I'm everywhere
My essence pervades your reality