Fade
R.R. Perkins Lyrics

Yeah I look into the mirror then I think I fade away
When I reflect on myself in the mirror, I feel like I am slowly disappearing or losing my sense of self.

My mind is running wild and I think I’m needing saved
My thoughts are chaotic and I feel like I'm in desperate need of someone to rescue or help me.

I got to get it Got to get it Got to get away
I have a strong urge to obtain or achieve something, and I feel the need to escape from my current situation.

Gotta make it happen before I am in my grave
I need to take action and make things happen before it's too late and I reach the end of my life.

I don’t know why but I’m fading away
I can't comprehend the reason, but I feel myself losing significance or disappearing.

I don’t know why but I’m needing saved
I cannot understand the cause, but I have a strong desire to be rescued or saved from my current state.

Sitting looking at you on a picture uh
While sitting, I gaze at a picture of you.

You’re not here with me and that’s the difference yeah
The notable distinction is that you are absent from my current reality.

You were selfish and I still don’t get it
You acted inconsiderately, and I still cannot comprehend your motives or reasoning behind your actions.

Why’d you do it But you did it Broke my heart and I admit it yeah
I wonder why you made that choice, but the fact remains that you did it. It caused significant emotional pain, and I acknowledge it.

Sitting crying out for help
While sitting, I desperately cry out for assistance or support.

Every day was by myself I ain’t have nobody else
Every day, I was alone without anyone else by my side.

Yeah I get it cause I’d do it But I stood looked in the mirror Yeah I stood look at myself
I understand your actions because I would have done the same, but I had the courage to face myself and reflect upon my own choices.

Thought about how you are now Didn’t wanna be a picture uh
I contemplated your current state, and it made me realize that I didn't want to end up as just a mere photograph or memory.

Tell me what is heaven like yeah Is it bright and photo type uh
I'm curious about the nature of heaven. Is it a radiant and picturesque place?

That’s how I lay my head at night I think bout death and sacrifice
That's how my mind seeks solace when I go to bed at night - contemplating mortality and the act of selflessly giving up something for others.