My Cancer
Reflections Lyrics


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To be honest, the truth is I'm afraid
I fear losing the only thing I've ever held so close
The fact is you never cared
Half as much for me as I did for you

No matter what you say
You're filling your head with lies
Telling yourself you'll be here
When you're not anywhere to be found

How can you just close your eyes
And pretend I'm a ghost
When I am haunted by the thought of you
To be honest, I wish I was like you

I wish I could forget these memories
Did you not see me falling down
Into endless shades of grey
You watched without taking a step

I just wish you could disappear
But maybe I'm the one who turns into smoke




Maybe this is my destiny
Maybe this is my destiny

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Reflections' song My Cancer are a heartbreaking confession of fear, frustration, and pain caused by a failed relationship. The singer voices their sincere struggle with the idea of losing someone they've held dearly, and who seems to have never reciprocated the same feelings. They feel shattered, tormented by the lingering thoughts of the person they once loved, despite their attempts to move on. They feel like a ghost, unseen, and unheard, begging for the other person's attention, but to no avail.


The singer expresses their wish to forget every memory of the relationship, however, they feel unable to do so. They are obsessed with the person who left them, unable to shake off the numbing after-effects of the relationship's end. However, the singer questions if it is their own fault that they are unable to move on, and whether it is their destiny to be left alone.


The song reflects a common human emotion experienced by those who have gone through the pain of heartbreaks. In this sense, it is relatable and speaks to the innermost emotions of those who have suffered heartbreaks. The rawness of emotions conveyed through the lyrics makes the song a cathartic release for those experiencing heartbreaks.


Line by Line Meaning

To be honest, the truth is I’m afraid
I admit that I am scared and anxious.


I fear losing the only thing I’ve ever held so close
I am scared of losing the most precious thing I've ever had.


The fact is you never cared
The truth is that you did not care for me at all.


Half as much for me as I did for you
You never loved me as much as I loved you.


No matter what you say
Despite your words,


You’re filling your head with lies
You are deceiving yourself with falsehoods.


Telling yourself you’ll be here
Convincing yourself that you will be around.


When you’re not anywhere to be found
Although you are not present.


How can you just close your eyes
Why do you ignore the truth?


And pretend I’m a ghost
And treat me as if I'm invisible.


When I am haunted by the thought of you
I am constantly tormented by thoughts of you.


To be honest, I wish I was like you
The truth is, sometimes I wish I could be like you.


I wish I could forget these memories
I want to erase these memories from my mind.


Did you not see me falling down
Were you not aware of my pain and struggle?


Into endless shades of grey
Descending into a depressing and hopeless state.


You watched without taking a step
You witnessed my suffering but did nothing to help me.


I just wish you could disappear
I want you to vanish from my life.


But maybe I’m the one who turns into smoke
Perhaps it is me who will disappear and fade away.


Maybe this is my destiny
Perhaps this is what is meant to happen to me.


Maybe this is my destiny
Perhaps this is my fate.




Lyrics © ENTERTAINMENT ONE U.S. LP
Written by: CAMERON JOSEPH MURRAY, CHARLES ROBERT CASWELL, JACOB ALAN FOSTER, PATRICK VILAILACK SOMOULAY, PUTNAKHONE FRANIS XAYANA

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Jack Robinson

Love this song. Jesus. Exists was perfection, emotional chills everytime

Railfan88

Finally a band that gets the intensity level just right!

Bomber Shearsmith

This band is going places.

xbigjeffe

mfadel1012 everyone apart from Charles yeah

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aaaaaand they're back babeeeeey

Zanny Reflections

Nick Tandoiii theyre on hiatus

Nick Tandoiii

@TheWrathX they aren't a band anymore

Jared Ydg

This band is just amazing the tone is makes me go insane cx

TCP_dizzy

Still my favorite one by far

ReflectionsMN

They are in a lot of the songs on the album, along with even more different styles of vocals! Stay posted with us

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