On My Way To Mariana Heaven
Richard Bedford Lyrics

You always laugh
You find joy in my suffering

when I cry
and revel in the sight of my tears.

I'm always looking to tomorrow
I hold on to hope for the future

As you mourn the days gone by
while you dwell in the past.

You always stepped
You frequently crossed the line and brought me pain.

On my toes
With your disregard for my physical and emotional boundaries.

Took my guide in hand of love
You manipulated and controlled me with your supposed love.

Is helping everywhere you go
You believe that what you do is always for the greater good.

I'm always wrong
I am never right in your eyes.

You're always right
You believe that you are always correct.

But I can see right through the lies
I can discern the falsehood in your words and actions.

Till the never changing light
Until the truth comes to light and cannot be ignored.

Rain on me
I am overwhelmed by the difficulties in my life.

My arms are cold
I am alone and in need of comfort.

I want to get home
I long for a sense of belonging and security.

But there's water on the road
Yet, even as I push forward, obstacles block my path.

And if I do
And even if I reach my destination,

You will not change
You will remain the same, unmoved and steadfast.

I'm just a singing satellite
I am but a voice, aimlessly drifting and searching for direction.

And another dirty strange.
In a world that is often cruel and unforgiving.

I want to laugh
I desire joy.

I want to smile
I yearn for happiness.

Get your arms inside my head
But you have a hold on my mind that I cannot shake.

And stop me thinking for a while
And I crave a respite from my own thoughts and worries.

I'm just a fool
I am naive and foolish.

I'm gonna sting
But I will fight back against the pain you inflict on me.

But since you put these thorns around my head
Because you have caused me injury and suffering.

You know I am the king
Despite my vulnerability, I will assert my own power and sovereignty.

The king
I am the highest authority in my own life.

The king of everything and nothing
I rule over my own existence, but ultimately my power is limited.

I'm on my way to heaven
I hold onto the hope of a better life beyond this one.

I'm always here
I am present, even when it hurts.

I'm in denial
I am in denial about the painful realities of my life.

When there's nothing left between us
Even when our relationship is broken and empty,

I will stay another while
I will persist in trying to make things work.

You know you're free
I acknowledge that you have the power to leave and move on.

You've got your wings
You have the ability to fly away and start anew.

And I am just another angel
And I am just one of many in your life.

With a voice who wants to sing
But I still hold onto my voice and my desires for my own life.

Yeah, yeah, yeah
I hold onto hope and positivity for my future.

All mighty
I believe in a higher power greater than myself.

I'm on my way to heaven
I look forward to a future beyond this life.

I want to steal
I want to take something good for myself.

A little ray of perfect sunshine
I long for joy and positivity in my life.

From the sun above your head
And I believe that you have what I need to find it.

Stop me thinking through our love
I desire a break from my own thoughts about our relationship.

Oh I'm gonna sting
But I will still fight back and assert my own power.

But since you put these thorns around my head
Even though I suffer because of you.

You know I am the king
I will still hold onto my own power and sovereignty.

The king of everything and nothing
I am the authority in my own life, but ultimately my control is limited.

I'm on my way to heaven
And I hold onto the hope of a better future.