Suicide
Rihanna Lyrics


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Everywhere is still
everything is restless in my heart
i hate the way this feels
suddenly i'm scared to be apart
the days are dark when you're not around
the air is getting hard to breathe
i wish that you would just put me down
i wish that i could go to sleep

loving you is suicide
i don't know should go or should i stay
i'm tryna to keep myself alive
knowing there's a chance it's all too late
but i heard you say you loved me
that's the part i can't forget
and i wish that you come save me
cos i'm standing over the edge

i should let you go
tell myself the things i need to hear
but my brain is wired wrong
that's why i'm loving you when you're not here
feels like i drown in your every word
and every breath that's in between
somehow you got me where it really hurts
it's killing every part of me

loving you is suicide
i don't know should go or should i stay
i'm tryna to keep myself alive
knowing there's a chance it's all too late
but i heard you say you loved me
that's the part i can't forget
and i wish that you come save me
boy cos i'm standing over the edge

loving you is suicide
and my world's about to break
and i... had as much as i can take
and love is a long way down

loving you is suicide
and it's getting harder everyday
i'm tryna to keep myself alive
knowing there's a chance it's all too late
and i'm way past every moment
but i'm still determined to fight
and i know it's taking all my strength




to keep these emotions alive
loving you is suicide

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Rihanna's song Suicide depict the battle of emotions within oneself when trapped in a toxic and abusive relationship. The singer is torn between loving her partner and wanting to save herself from the detrimental effects of their love. Everywhere may be still but the everything in the singer's heart is restless, and she hates the way she feels. She longs to be with her partner even while acknowledging the negative implications of being around them. She wishes her partner would "put her down" or kill her, and she wishes she could go to sleep and not wake up.


The singer goes on to explain that her love for her partner is causing her harm, and it feels like suicide. However, she is conflicted between staying and leaving. The chorus keeps repeating that loving you is suicide repetitively, which indicates the severity of the matter. She is struggling to keep herself together but is unsure if it is too late to save herself. The part she cannot forget is that her partner did express love for her at some point, and she wishes he could come save her as she currently stands over the edge.


In conclusion, the song portrays a strong message of the vicious cycle of toxic relationships and the battle that occurs within. The lyrics depict how abuse can trap people into feeling like there is no way out, and seeking love from someone who can harm us in detrimental ways can lead us to put ourselves in harm's way.


Line by Line Meaning

Everywhere is still
The world is quiet and motionless.


everything is restless in my heart
Despite the calm exterior, my emotions are in turmoil.


i hate the way this feels
I despise the pain and confusion this situation brings me.


suddenly i'm scared to be apart
The thought of being away from you terrifies me.


the days are dark when you're not around
My world loses its brightness and color when you're not here.


the air is getting hard to breathe
I feel suffocated and overwhelmed by my emotions.


i wish that you would just put me down
I want you to end my pain and make the decision to leave me.


i wish that i could go to sleep
I want to escape reality and its hardships by falling into a dreamless sleep.


loving you is suicide
The intensity and pain of my love for you is slowly killing me.


i don't know should go or should i stay
I'm unsure of whether it's better to stay and suffer, or to leave and let go.


i'm tryna to keep myself alive
I'm struggling to stay alive despite the pain and agony of my love for you.


knowing there's a chance it's all too late
I know that things might never change, and my love for you may be futile.


but i heard you say you loved me
Your love is the one thing that keeps me hanging on and hoping for a better future.


that's the part i can't forget
Your words of love and affection are etched into my mind and heart.


and i wish that you come save me
I'm desperately hoping that you can be my savior and rescue me from my pain.


cos i'm standing over the edge
I feel like I'm teetering on the brink of collapse and despair.


i should let you go
I know it would be best for me to move on and leave you behind.


tell myself the things i need to hear
I should convince myself of the reasons why I need to let go of you.


but my brain is wired wrong
My emotions and love for you are conflicting with what's logical and healthy for me.


that's why i'm loving you when you're not here
Even when you're absent, my love for you persists and overwhelms me.


feels like i drown in your every word
Your words and actions suffocate me and make me feel helpless and powerless.


and every breath that's in between
Even the smallest things about you can trigger strong emotions in me.


somehow you got me where it really hurts
You've touched my emotions and vulnerabilities in a profound way that I can't resist.


it's killing every part of me
My love for you is slowly destroying me from the inside out.


and my world's about to break
I feel like I'm reaching my breaking point, and I don't know how much more I can take.


and i... had as much as i can take
I'm at my limit, and I can't bear the pain and agony of my love for you anymore.


and love is a long way down
The depths and complexities of love are daunting and difficult to navigate.


and it's getting harder everyday
The longer I stay in this situation, the more difficult it becomes to bear.


i'm tryna to keep myself alive
I'm still fighting to stay alive despite the challenges and obstacles I face.


and i'm way past every moment
I've experienced so much pain and hurt that I feel like I'm beyond repair or redemption.


but i'm still determined to fight
Despite everything, I refuse to give up on myself and on the possibility of finding happiness and peace.


and i know it's taking all my strength
The fight to stay alive and to let go of my love for you is draining and exhausting.




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brynnesteck

I have depression and my parents tell me I should listen to happier songs but it's harder to listen to happy songs when you are so depressed. 😢

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I know what you mean.

Think you

True 😢

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Happy songs doesn't solve depression,you forget it temporarily as you're happy

bambi

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