My Head Gets Loud
Ryan Caraveo Lyrics

Floating in my spaceship
I feel disconnected from reality and lost in my own thoughts.

The view out the window looks way sick, a colorful oasis
Despite feeling disconnected, I see a beautiful and vibrant world outside.

I'm low on rocket fuel and I don't wanna waste it
I feel drained and lacking energy, and I don't want to waste what little energy I have left.

So I shut the engine off and bump my favorite playlist
To escape from reality, I turn off my feelings temporarily and immerse myself in music.

I mix a Cudi and a little Hippie Sabotage
I combine the soothing sounds of Kid Cudi and Hippie Sabotage to find solace and comfort.

Make me feel like the pain was just a bad mirage
The music helps me escape from my pain, making it feel like an illusion or distortion.

People look past me like I'm camouflage
Others ignore or overlook me as if I am invisible, blending into the background.

At this point, I might as well believe in Santa Claus
Feeling unseen and unheard, I start to question reality and the existence of unlikely things like Santa Claus.

I used to get so stressed and depressed
I used to experience immense stress and deep sadness.

At the family function, feelin' like the guest
Even at family gatherings, I felt like an outsider, disconnected from them.

But the solution wasn't really too complex
The solution to my problems wasn't overly complicated.

If your soul ain't on fire, move to the next
If something doesn't ignite passion and bring you joy, move on to something else.

So here I am, goofy giggle and a slight lisp
Now, I embrace my quirks and imperfections, like my silly laugh and slight speech impediment.

I put both the bros right above my right wrist
I tattooed the names of my close friends on my right wrist as a reminder of their importance in my life.

'Cause they remind me that I know how to laugh
My friends serve as a reminder that I still have the ability to find joy and happiness.

And I sure need a little bit of that
I am in desperate need of laughter and happiness.

Only so much time in this universe of mine
I realize that I only have a finite amount of time in my own personal universe or existence.

Looking in the mirror like, you deserve a shine
I look at myself in the mirror, reminding myself that I deserve recognition and happiness.

Who you wanna be? It's up to you, it's your design
I have the power to choose and shape my own identity and destiny.

Or you could wait for help and fall another year behind
Alternatively, if I wait for someone else to save me, I will continue to lag behind in life.

Lessons from the discipline, it's dangerous
Learning from the hardships and challenges I've faced can be both beneficial and risky.

Sittin' with the pain, just listening to rain drip
I learn to confront and endure my pain, finding solace in the sound of rain dripping.

Superpowers, I know how to make the brain flip
I possess the ability to change my mindset and perspective, turning negative thoughts into positive ones.

And turn anguish into whatever the game wish
I have the power to transform my suffering into whatever outcome I desire.

What you need? I got it
I have what you need to overcome your struggles and find happiness.

If I don't, I'll get it
If I don't already have what you need, I will strive to obtain it for you.

Anything you ask, I have never known the limit
I am willing to go above and beyond to fulfill your requests and help you without any boundaries.

My soul is vivid, my heart is gold
My inner self is vibrant and alive, and my heart is full of kindness and compassion.

I tried it, the harder road
I choose to take the more challenging path in life.

And dealt with the largest lows, it's all worth it
Although I have faced significant difficulties, I believe it is all worthwhile.

I'm not perfect, but I'm pure
I may have flaws, but at my core, I am genuine and true.

I like the way these colors look, I don't want a cure
I appreciate the beauty and diversity in life, and I don't want to change or fix myself.

And right now I'm relaxed
In this moment, I am calm and at ease.

But I thought that I would make this track
Even in my state of relaxation, I feel compelled to create and express myself through music.

So later on I can listen back
I want to have a record of this song so I can listen to it in the future and reminisce.

When my head gets loud
When my mind becomes overwhelmed with thoughts and noise.

Tryin' to turn it down some, let the bass bleed
I attempt to quiet the chaos in my mind by letting the bass-heavy music take over.

So I can drown it out, like boom boom boom
I drown out the noise in my head with the powerful beats of the music.

So much love in my bones, but the world might never know
I have a lot of love within me, but the world may never truly understand or recognize it.