Soldier
Saba Lyrics

Is this caution a cause?
Is the caution and wariness I feel necessary and valid?

It's justified in my eyes, sometimes I got God
I believe my caution is justified, and sometimes I turn to my faith to help me through it.

But other times, other times, we feel like We wanna let our guards down That's not how to survive
Sometimes we feel tempted to lower our defenses, but we know that's not a safe or sustainable way to live.

Never ending cycle of life Most times, we on guard
Life is an ongoing battle that requires constant vigilance.

Life is fighting while nobody notices Die a man or live out like the soldiers
Life is a struggle that often goes unnoticed, and we have to decide whether to die fighting or survive like soldiers.

Life is filled with answers that make no sense Live a man or die out like the soldiers
Life is confusing and full of unanswered questions, but we still have to choose whether to fight or give up like soldiers.

I hope the world learn to value the life of my unborn, yeah 'Cause what I'ma tell them when the time get here
I want the world to value my future children's lives, and I worry about how to prepare them for the harsh realities of life.

I'm dyin' from asphyxiation from the weight of the world While in the waitin' room, waitin' for the birth of my girl How I'ma be a troop tryna lead a troop of my own?
I feel overwhelmed by the weight of the world, especially as I wait for the birth of my child. I worry how I can be a good role model for my family while also dealing with my own struggles.

You know what they do to a home? That's why I bought this here chrome Don't need an automatic, not Paula Patton But two guns, yeah, I thought about it
I know what happens to families when their loved ones go off to war, which is why I bought a gun for protection but don't want an automatic. I've considered getting two guns.

We caught a cab and like a rally We drove it through the rain while my girl is in pain It's not impossible to think that we just made a mistake
As we rushed to the hospital, I began to second-guess our decision to bring a child into the world.

'Cause to play the part of father is a sacred art to toddlers City made a mark upon us, I'ma say that I'm a father All I can do is pray that they don't make me an example 'Cause safety is something that is not here like a bantu
I believe being a father is a sacred responsibility, but the city has left us with scars and little safety. All I can do is pray that my children don't suffer because of my choices.

It's like I'm drafted and I gotta leave the family I'm just hopin' I return with all my body parts attached to me Yeah, exactly
I feel like I'm being forced into a situation where I have to leave my family, and I worry about coming back unharmed.

I know I'm poor, but I don't wanna go to war The whole mission, I'll just miss mi amor
I may not have much, but I still don't want to go to war and risk leaving my loved ones behind.

In trenches amongst henchmen and gore Callin' for the Lord like a slave with a sword
If I were to go to war, I'd be in the middle of brutal violence, praying for salvation like a desperate slave.

Watchin' my back like my ass gettin' fat Told recruiters right before they shoot us That I can't differentiate between blue and black
I'd be on high alert, knowing I could be attacked at any moment. I even warned recruiters that I struggle to differentiate between friend and foe.

So I conduct a draft and remain intact In camouflage, I'll still be a snack Be a star in the desert, like the Bible Like beautiful girls that have dudes suicidal
To survive, I have to be strategic and blend in with my surroundings. But even then, I'm still vulnerable and desirable to others - including those who might want to kill me.

They can't shoot me, they tryna shoot they shot Fuck a bullet and a rifle, and it's too hot
I know my enemies are trying to assassinate me, but I don't want to participate in violence or bear the heat of the desert with heavy gear.

Just imagine when the gun let Off in the crossfire, more than one death Scope on my curves like I'm in a sundress Drones follow me around after sunset I'm gettin' hunted
Even if I avoid guns and rifles, danger is still all around me. If a single shot goes off, people will die, and I'm being tracked like prey by drones.

Forgive me, I only meant well Still fighting every day with myself Through the land of the fallen while you wait Awake by the morning, someone prayed
I'm trying my best but still struggling internally. I'm traversing a dangerous world, constantly striving to survive while others wait for a miracle.

I was told to soak it all in like sun rays But the sun's like a grenade
People told me to appreciate life like the warmth of the sun, but in reality, life is like a bomb waiting to go off.